My horrible scope for today.
You are the sensitive angel in a pit of angry fire today, Kat, so keep your guard up. Try not to be tempted or seduced by the rage around you. Be careful of people who seem to be motivated by fear. You will be much better off when you align yourself with those who act from a point of neutrality and self-confidence. Model your own behavior after the people you see as super heroes in your world.
Try not to be tempted or seduced by the rage around you. Be careful of people who seem to be motivated by fear.
This is so true.
I find that some people are really afraid of people and or things and I would get all specific and shit but don't feel comfortable doing so.
I do want to say to anyone out there who has any questions at all about my host move. Just to clear this up.
My new host and I were friends before the move.
I am paying for the space.
I am paying a whole shitload less for the space than I was before not because I got a discount for being friends but because the space is actually way cheaper.
And more of it to be honest.
Why not just ask me before you make assumptions?
I have always been honest about this kind of shit.
This new hosting plan is something I can afford and before, it really wasn't. To be honest.
I was scraping by every month just to keep my blog, my outlet, my voice, my ability to connect with people.
Why do I have a blog? Why do I keep my online service?
Because of my situation.
I am housebound. I have no real face to face human interaction with people.
I live alone with 2 kids and no adults to talk to except for my sister who works like 10-12 hours a day.
This is how I stay sane under my circumstances.
Jenni did do the work it took to make it viewable in smaller resolutions like I asked and I try to make it up to her as best I can. I don't have extra cash to send so I sent her a small gift off her wishlist. I get paid from Amazon and had some gift certs at another online store from some surveys that I do.
It's what I can do.
People are making a whole lot of assumptions about the move, still.
Why not ask me before you go and delete me from your blogrolls before getting the whole story?
I was actually pretty hurt when I found out that one person 'dumped' me over this situation.
You don't even know all that happened yet you assume you do.
Try not to be tempted by the rage around you.
That is really hard to do when it is my own rage eating at me.
It is rage because of hurt.
This isn't because of any one conversation or any one email. I have gotten several emails about this shit and have ignored it up until now.
Why gossip?
Why not just email me at mysinglemomlifeATmsn.com and say hey Kat, what the fuck is up with all this shit I have been hearing?
And I will tell you.
I have tried very hard in the 3 years that I have been blogging to be honest with you and I am not going to start lying now.
What would the point of that be?
I just hope this clears up some of the shit that has been getting back to me and if you still have any questions, go ahead and email me.
Sorry if this offends or puts anyones noses out of joint. But I just had to get this off my chest.
This is my blog, my voice, my space.
I don't hide my shit.
Look, dirty laundry flapping in the breeze.
*Sniiiiiff*
Filed under horriblescopes.
Comments
Wish I could make things better for you ~ but keep on being you...thats the reason I started reading your blog...because you tell it like it is, no sugar coating and frankly, hell I like your style!
Posted by: Chaos | March 20, 2004 12:12 PM
Thank you. All I really want is for people to grow up and act their age and talk like normal adults once in awhile. These childish schoolyard games are really stupid. Oh look, I can make people hate you for no reason at all. I'm so cool. Not!...lol
Posted by: kat | March 20, 2004 12:24 PM
*HUGS*
For what it's worth, I love reading your blog!
Posted by: Kirsi | March 20, 2004 2:43 PM
Thanks Kirsi, I love being here and blogging. I love having this connection with others. :)
Posted by: kat | March 20, 2004 3:04 PM
Yeah, what they said. If someone's going to dump you from their stupid blogroll without even bothering to ask what was up, then you're much better off without their friendship.
Posted by: kim | March 20, 2004 4:27 PM
Agreed with the above commenters. Kat, you are one of the more honest folk out here blogging, and for that I applaud you. You're the best! Keep on telling it like it is, and don't let the bad ones get you down.
Posted by: Tam | March 20, 2004 4:35 PM
Thanks I know. It just kind of hurt. This was someone who was a friend, I thought. Then almost immediately after the site move, I got one comment from them, a nice one, then, blam! Taken off their roll and never heard from them again even after leaving nice comments for them almost daily. I know it's because of the site move now. They call each other sister. Loyalty is nice, too bad they couldn't have asked for the facts first.
Posted by: kat | March 20, 2004 5:15 PM
It does get me down for a little while, then I get mad and finally break out with shit like this post...lol I'm okay now though.
Posted by: kat | March 20, 2004 5:19 PM
I haven't commented in a while but I still read you all the time. I think you are one awesome woman. You rock sweetie and I am proud to call you my friend. {{{hugs}}}
Posted by: Kate | March 20, 2004 8:37 PM
Thanks hunny. I know you have been busy with family issues so no worries on the commenting. I hope everyone is doing well now. **hugs**
Posted by: kat | March 20, 2004 8:39 PM
Just wanted to let you know I'm still here and reading! Don't let these people get you down, it's just not worth it!
Posted by: Christine | March 20, 2004 10:24 PM
Thanks Christine. I have more friends than enemies I can say. :) It's like kindergarten on the net sometimes I swear. :)
Posted by: kat | March 20, 2004 10:26 PM
Even though I haven't commented in a while I'm here and reading every day. I have been horrible about commenting everywhere lately. Take care of yourself....
Posted by: Allison | March 21, 2004 9:29 AM
Thanks Allison. I am pretty horrible about leaving comments sometimes too. No worries. :)
Posted by: kat | March 21, 2004 9:31 AM
I sure wish things were better... they will one day, just keep doing your best.
And for your honesty - it is one of the things that drew me here and keeps me coming back. You rock!
Posted by: Karen | March 21, 2004 10:51 AM
Thanks Karen. This wasn't about asking anyone for sympathy or anything. It was basically saying grow the fuck up, quit gossiping about me and just fucking ask!...lol My life is an open book and people are making shit up. It's so frustrating. I can't even begin to tell you how dumb it is when I get an email that so and so was talking about you again and you'll never guess what she said blah blah blah. Instead of telling me what someone said, just ask me if it's true. I'm just honest and open unlike the bored people obviously.
Posted by: kat | March 21, 2004 11:00 AM