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December 31, 2004

For those of you trapped staying home tonight and bored,

I will be around and I downloaded trillian so all my messengers will be on.
I like never chat but I'm bored to death here people.
The kids have been playing video games since like, I don't even know what time all I know is that it was light outside.
msn=mysinglemomlife@bold thingy.com
yahoo and aim=onecattykat

Right now, I'm going outside for a smoke.
Oh, do me a favor, don't just say hello and start chatting, like tell me who you are.
It's one of the reasons I don't chat. Weird people want to "show" me things.

Don't drink and drive people.

I'm sure you all know how assinine it is to get behind the wheel of your car when drinking but sometimes you get so blitzed that you actually think you can drive.
You can't.
It's stupid and you could kill someone. A total stranger. Someone you know.
Yourself.
I don't know if it's available in every state but it can't hurt to call right?
So do this for me, get your cellphone and program this number into it: 1-800-AAA-HELP (1-800-222-4357).
It's AAA's tow to go number.
You call it, they come get you and your car. For free.
That's right, you and your car will be taken home free of charge tonight.
Think of it as AAA's gift to everyone. They get you home safe and sound and everyone else on the road stays alive.
Everyone lives to begin a new year.
So don't be a dink, don't drive and drink.

My new years eve wish, better health.

Good god, somebody fucking shoot me please.
I can't shake this fever at all.
I was gonna go shopping but I can't even stand up without getting dizzy so I sent the boys to Subway for their 3 for $10.99 deal. I just can't cook anything. Told them to grab some ice cream too.
They don't care that we aren't having a big new years eve to do. They are like excited about subs so yay.
Yup, ex-roommate forgives my bitchy ass and went and got the money for me.
Thank you thank you thank you.
Now would someone like to come over and change the outside light bulbs for me so ex-roommate doesn't like get stuck fumbling at the door in the dark when she gets home? They've been blown out for two days but I said fuck it and went back to bed.
I am going to try and shake at least some of this so the kids won't die of boredom all night. See if I can at least play a game or something or let them kick my ass at video games. They always have lots of laughs when we do that.
Time to take some dayquil or something, perhaps rub some vicks on my chest and wake the hell up out of this fever induced stupor.

Oh, yesterday when I went down to pay the bill, we had like an hour to wait for the bus to bring us home so I ventured into wal*mart in search of a soap sack. You have no idea how hard they are to find man. None at Walgreens or Publix or Eckerds (now CVS). None to be found. Some clerk at walgreens told me to use an old pair of nylon knee highs and just tie off the end after putting the soap in.
No offense to people who do that but eww, my feet were in there man. So anyway, at Wal*mart I found a soap sack. $1.44 and it has a scruffy side so you can like ex foliate and stuff.
I needed one because I wanted to have something to put my lovely soaps that Leslie sent me in and use them. I love her soaps. You should get in touch with her. Her stuff is wonderful. Love the scents. MMMmmm.
Okey dokey, now I gotta run around and take some meds I guess and try to visit you all. That should be my new years resolution. To stop being such a comment slacker.
I mean, I visit you all, I'm just bad about commenting lately.
Later days.

2004 year in review meme style.

Sorry, this is the best I can do.
I just can't shake this fever but hey, at least Mikey isn't coming over so I don't have to worry about that.

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Uhm, nothing. I've had a very boring year.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Nope, didn't make any to break.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope but my sister is in the adoption process. That totally counts.

4. Did anyone close to you die? Just my air conditioner and rug shampooer.

5. What countries did you visit? Sadly, I never left the damn state.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
A doctor who will actually do the surgery I require. I was thisclose.

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
None come to mind.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I didn't have any. Like I said, shitty, boring year.

9. What is your biggest failing for 2004? Didn't have one of those either.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Just the usual back stuff on a much larger scale.

11. What was the best thing you bought? I didn't buy anything big.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My boys and my room mate for putting up with me. They should all be given medals of valor or something.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and disgusted?
Too many people pissed me off to list.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills, bills, and more bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Lord of the Rings I suppose.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? All the annoying ones.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier

b) thinner or fatter? about the same.

c) richer or poorer? poorer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Lots of things but then we start getting into regrets and I regret nothing I've ever done.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stressing over things I have no control over

20. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
At home with the boys watching the ball drop, video game playing I suppose.

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
No. Someday my prince will come la la lalal la la

22. How many one-night stands? Zero

23. What was your favorite TV program? Law and Order shows, West Wing, Lost Desperate Housewives. I'm a junkie with no cable.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Nope.

25. What was the best book you read? I dunno, I liked pretty much everything except that Sushi for beginners bullshit. What trash.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery? I don't know really. I don't listen to radio at all.

27. What did you want and get? I wanted an mp3 player and I got one.

28. What did you want and not get? A digital camera.

29. What was your favorite film of this year? The Kill Bills, LOTR ROTK, lost of movies.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I don't recall what I did. I'm 34.

31.What one thing would have made your year measurably more satisfying?
Nothing really.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Comfort is key no matter what.

33. What kept you sane? Read, listen to music, surf the net.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Keanu and Orlando.

35. What political issue stirred you the most? The elections of course.

36. Who did you miss?
Lost of people.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
I didn't meet anyone.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
To try and be more patient. Hasn't worked yet but I did learn it.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. Too many songs, too little patience.

Sick, busy.

I am sicker this morning than I have been the last two days and I'm busy to boot.
(Gee, could be why you're sicker. Never resting the way sick people should)
Mark got to go spend his Best Buy gift card when he went out with his Big George last night and Sebastians is just burning a hole in his pockets.
I said I would try to go riding the buses up there today but I just don't know. Man, I feel like I got hit by a truck.
I was awake coughing until 3am even hopped up on more Nyquil than I think you're supposed to take.
Got up at like 8 something cuz I was coughing again and couldn't breathe out of my damn nose.
Blech.
Mikey is supposed to be coming over.
I need ex-roommate to hit the bank before she goes to work but I'm sure she's going to just stay hidden in her room far, far away from the Katmonster.
I roared, I growled, I stomped.
There was shit on that pc over there that refused to allow the pc to defrag even in safe mode so I deleted the offending thing and I was pissed off anyway cuz I spent nearly 3 hours trying to clean that pc for them and it had 537 pieces of spyware on it and I just did that clean install of xp what, a month ago or so?
That's a lot of frigging spyware. I only use that pc to right click and save mp3s from other bloggers and to burn cds so I know all that shit ain't from me and when I cleaned mine, perfect.
Anyway, I yelled, I stomped, I was pissed and I was very gruff when I told her that the offending thing was hers and to be careful cuz this is a network and you get a virus, I will probably get the virus and then both pcs die and if mine dies so will everyone in the house!
Yeah. How would you like that?
Man, when I get mad, I get mad and it ain't pretty.
I'm a bitch like no other
So because I basically scared her half to death, she will probably stay in her room until it's time to go to work, I won't get the money I need to buy food for the house and I would deserve it.

She tried to do the dishes and my OCD nearly killed her.
I did appreciate the fact that she was doing them because I was on the phone with Jenni the other night for nearly 2 hours and I needed to make dinner. I did appreciate that she was doing them but holy shit, my OCD was like make her stop! It's all wrong! They can't be done that way! Look, just look at how she's putting them in the drainer, it's all wrong. She can't do that. Make it stop. NOW.
So I told her to stop doing them and she said she was trying to help and I said, stop doing them now. You don't understand. I can't stand it. Please stop. She kept going so I yelled, STOP! She stopped and went in her room.
Anything but the dishes people. You can scrub toilets, walls, dust, go get the vac and do the whole house, fold the laundry. Anything but the fucking dishes!!!!!
My OCD is gonna land me in a mental ward someday. (Jenni and I can be roomies....lol Love you hun, not making fun but what a pair we are.)

When I'm sick, I'm cranky as hell. I'm more cranky than normal. I get like over sensitive to noise and light and stupid questions and fix shit situations that I simply explode.
The kids know to just stay out of my way. They just do what I ask when I'm sick. They clean the cat boxes without arguing, the let me nap when they really want to play the PS2, they do pretty good and I usually just have to give them the eye when it starts to become annoying.

Mikey is coming here for new years eve like he always does.
I'll find a way to survive this. I will either stay in my room or sit here with headphones on and lots of tissues and cold meds.
Later days.

December 30, 2004

Anyone have a thing for Bob Hope?

I have 10 brand new VHS movies of Bob Hopes to sell.
The retail value is $83.73 for all 10 movies.
If anyones interested in the full, brand new, still in cellophane and then cellophaned together as a bundle, set, just let me know.
Thanks.
Minimum starting price is $10.
Go to Jittery.com and see the auction.
Best offer gets them and the amount raised after shipping cost will go to the Tsunami relief fund.
I have to use some of the money to mail them out to the buyer and this ain't gonna be a cheap mailing. It's a heavy bundle dammit.
The titles are in the extended entry.

The Lemon Drop Kid
Son of Paleface
My Favorite Brunette
How to Commit Marriage
The Great Lover
Road to Bali
The Private Navy of Sgt. O'Farrell
Paris Holiday
The Seven Little Foys
Road to Rio

Pray for Satan.

So Sebastian and I are down waiting for the bus to go pay the damn bill and this bus stop is like in the middle of nowhere basically. On the side of an 8 lane road, nothing but warehouses and mechanics everywhere right, so there is no need for anyone to just like pull up at this location out of pure randomness.
They hunt for sinners I tell you!
This jehovah lady gets out of the car, (a full car mind you, at least 6 of them there saviors inside) and starts walking toward us. I think fast, grab one of my Normal Bob Smith pamphlets out and wait for the impending save your soul attack.
She walks up.
Jehovah lady: Hello. I'm sure you know who I am, we go everywhere but we can never seem to find people at home anymore, (Thinking to myself, I know why you interrupting must save all sinner people) so we have to go to parks and bus stops now to tell people that they can be saved by the word of God.
Me: Uh huh.
Jehovah lady: I see you have a young man with you today. I have some pamphlets here on how to make real friends with Gods help. (pointing at Sebastian)
Me: I'll take yours if you take mine. *holds up pamphlet so she can read that it says Pray for Satan*
Jehovah lady: Oh no no no! *runs away back to the car full of jehovahs*

You know, if she had just stayed or agreed to take it and read it, she would have seen that it says Luke 18:27
In Luke 18:27 it says all things are possible through prayer and the pamphlet goes on to say that if we pray for Satan, God would forgive him, Satan would be a nice guy again and all sin would vanish from the earth.
But nooo, they don't really want to pray for Satan because if they did and he was forgiven, all sin would be gone and churches would be out of business.

But the bill is paid, I'm home, started a load of laundry and am just gonna veg out and watch movies and crap.
Later days.

I hate head rushes.

I got up, feel like hell still and actually worse but I have to go down and pay the stupid electric bill. I hate how they gave me until today to pay the bill or they would actually turn me off on new years eve.
I've said it before, fpl sucks. They do shit so fucked up there. They know I can't pay the bill until the 3rd of every month yet they send me shut off every month to pay the bill on the last day of the month. They refuse to work with me even though Ive sent them repeated documentation of my status with disability and everything.
They just suck major ass.
So anyway, I need to go take a shower and go down there and pay it. It's a long bus ride from hell to pay this one bill. I wish they would just put a bill pay place closer.
But what I did was I got up and took my pain pills and didn't eat anything cuz my throat hurts and then I answered emails and then I went outside to have a smoke (yes, I know. Stupid cuz I'm sick but I'm addicted and even lung pain and coughing doesn't stop my addiction.) and when I got up, thanks to pain pills on an empty stomach, I got the hugest head rush and of course, subsequent dizziness and feeling like I was gonna hurl.
I never learn, I do it every time.
I also hate coughing. I pee a little every single fucking time. Giving birth and back muscle tone makes that possible.
The kids think it's funny. I said it out loud yesterday and they laughed until I laughed and then I peed a little again. Dammit. I hate being sick.
Just throw me some depends, I'll get through it.

Everyone is doing end of year posts. What they did, what they learned, making resolutions and stuff. I still haven't decided if I want to do one of those posts.
The past is the past ya know? I don't make resolutions because I always break them. I just can't see myself making a plan to do something that I know I won't do just so I can answer that question (did you make any new year resolutions?) when someone asks me.
Yeah, I've decided to stop answering dumb questions.
I've also decided that if someone can do it themselves, then they should.
I need to print up a shirt that says "Why yes, let me stop doing what I'm doing and work on YOUR problem, RIGHT NOW."
Ya think that'll go over well? Me either.

Ok, so I need to get moving here now that the rush has passed. Grab a tiny bite of something I suppose so I don't barf on the bus and get Sebastian the lounge singer up so he can go with me.
Later days.

December 29, 2004

His name was Rico.

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I'm sitting here and I hear this singing from the bathroom.
Sebastian was in there with headphones and his cd player singing so I audblogged him.
Heh.

Life is so unnerving For a servant who's not serving.

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Jerry Orbach has died from prostate cancer.

How the hell do women afford to ever shop there?

Christ almighty.
The big sale doesn't start until next week but I don't feel like waiting and I am sick so I just bought shit.
I got a good bra sure, but it was $40 and then I got one pair of undies for like $7.50.
Ridiculous.
Give me $50 at wal*mart and I can walk out of there with 4 bras, a 12 pack of undies and frigging dvd.
But the bra is good. Fits good, super comfy, no lace. Got a nice sales lady for once who totally understood what I needed because of my back. I hate answering questions about bras.
What size? Padding or no padding? Wires? No wires? Lace? Full coverage, demi, balconet?
So I told her, padded, wires but not the stiff stuff, no lace, full coverage, low cut center, wide back strap cuz I have this back issue I'm dealing with.
She looked me up and down and said, 38c? Yup. Right this way ma'am (gag. I am not a ma'am. My mom is a ma'am. I am a mid-ma'am.)
She picked the most perfect bra I have ever seen. I knew without even trying it on which is just kind of creepy you know, that it would fit perfect. I got this one. For your shopping info, the prices on the website are not the prices in the physical store. Site says this one is $28.50. Nope, full price in the store. That's fine. I would have shopped online with the gift card but they do this weird thing where you enter in your gift card number but make you use a credit card until the gift card gets verified and then the charges are removed from your credit card. I know, I tried to just shop online cuz I hate the fucking mall with a passion.
I don't know what the gel stuff in the bra does. I think my boobs squished it all down anyway. But I have it on now and I barely notice it's on. That's the sign of a good bra.
I will not put it in dryer or leave it on the bed for cats with strap fetish. I will treat it like it cost me a million bucks cuz a $40 bra is just far more money that I have ever spent on a bra in my entire life. I will be good to it and wash it by hand in mild dish soap (cuz that's all woolite really is anyway but with a big $$ price tag) and lay it flat to dry.
I will not wear it while cleaning the house so it gets all sweaty and dirty.
I will be good to the over priced tit holder.

I'm very tired and sore now and my lungs are collapsing so I need a nap.
Oh, and when I got home, I was informed by my two sons that the vcr is busted.
I looked at it. Sure is busted. It's like stuck in permanent eject mode.
Great. Just what I needed.
Good thing I made some decent money at Amazon this quarter.
Enough for a new vcr and the film for my mom and dads new camera that I promised sis I would buy cuz she got them the new camera so I can buy them some of the filmy stuff for it.
I was just gonna blow it on shit anyway.
I am always adding crap to my wishlist as like a reminder that something or other would be cool to have but really, don't need any of that like we need a vcr.
We have tons of VHS movies and the PS2 and the tv all run through it.
It still works for now, just can't watch any VHS movies.
No biggie.

Will answer comments and emails later.

Tsunami help and paypal.

Yesterday I asked if anyone knew of a way to help out with paypal because not all of us have credit cards. Michele answered my question this morning and this is the site where you can go to donate through paypal. WritersCafe.net - Tsunami and Earthquake Relief Fund.
I will be making a donation on Friday after I take care of the jewelery order that I have to do. All I have in there right now is $3 but I want to send more because as I said, any time I needed help, I got it.
So as soon as I place the supplies order, my profits from two jewelry orders will be donated to help.
If you have a few bucks sitting in your paypal account, think about donating to help the victims in Asia.
The numbers of dead are staggering and continue to rise. I simply can't grasp that entire generations of people are gone or missing.
Thank you.

You've got to be kidding me.

I woke up this morning, about 30 minutes ago now, with a hacking cough, a huge sore throat, feeling like my lungs are under water and a stuffed up nose.
Yippee.
I'm sick.
It's the coldness of my room. I just know it. I was fine yesterday, tired but not feeling sick.
*sniiiff*

Ok, the morning weather man on nbc, is like on drugs or something.
Every morning he's slightly sarcastic, uses witty banter but man, just now, he's all "I'm a professional, blah blah", cutting off the female anchor, making fun of her and shit.
What's up with that John Winter?

I'm still going to the mall, I promised I'd go. I just may skip the morning shower and do it later though. I don't feel like making myself sicker by going out with wet hair.
/whine>.

December 28, 2004

Ok fellow bra wearers,

tomorrow I'm venturing into the hell known as the mall to go to Victorias Secret to spend my $50 gift cert.
What is your favorite bra that they make and why?
Now understand, I hate lace. I can't stand the itchy stuff next to my skin at all. Drives me up the damn wall.
I need something with some padding as well. Not so my size 38cs look any bigger but because I'm pierced and although I enjoy it, other women, strangers, tend to stare and make rude, very rude comments about it if they can see it on nipply cold days.
I haven't shopped there in years so I don't know what's good anymore.
Something comfy, doesn't cut or bind into the skin, something I could forget I have on.
I suppose I could take a mans opinion on this too if a man has a bra fetish or something.
Don't ask for pics either. That ain't happening.
Thanks.

Oh my goodness. I slept like the dead.

I laid down to take a nap and slept for three hours! Eeek!
Guess my body needed it.
Just puttering around here now.
Such an exciting life eh?
Yee haw!!
Throw some steaks on the grill, turn up the tunes and come on over to the dullest life known to man.
*snore*

Someone I am making some earrings for

asked me if I could make stitch markers.
Sure I said after looking at the examples she sent me, simple enough looking so I made one.
Took me all of 1 minute.
Simple simple simple.
I can't believe that the site she sent me with the examples on actually charges people like $8 for one really large one.
Something like $20 for a set of 12 small ones.
I can't imagine that her supplies cost all that much, the split rings are cheap as hell, beads are pretty darn cheap too if you stick to glass or plastic. Beads of crystal or hand blown are pricey but to use Austrian crystal on a stitch marker? The only thing I can see costing any money is the charms and that's if someone wants a charm on the thing.
So anyway, here is my example of a stitch marker. Shown much larger than actual size of course.
Now, don't ask me how these things are used cuz I am not a knitter. I also don't know sizes of needles so if I made these to sell, I would get one largish size split ring that would fit large needles and smaller.
Thanks for the idea Marsha.

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Why does it have to be so difficult?

They want to play PS2. I want them to clean up the crap they stuffed under the dresser.
This should be easy right?
I will let them play after they clean up the crap that will take less than five minutes if they just do it. It's a small dresser, easy to do.
What do you think they are doing?
Hemming, hawing, sighing, complaining, whining like it's the end of the world and that they're never, ever gonna get to play because I've asked them to die at the stake or something.

I've completely taken down all the Christmas decorations, started a load of laundry, answered emails, posted stuff, checked all email accounts and stuff, worked on a couple of jewelry orders, (I have a new item to make for all you knitters) read a chapter in the book I'm reading and just need to dust and vac and all my chores will be done for today.
Why oh why do they have to argue and complain about a few dirty socks stuffed under a dresser?

I've been so wrapped up in my own misery


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Looks an awful lot like Florida after the hurricanes just on a much larger, far more damaging scale.

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that I didn't post about the huge loss in Asia.
I watched it on the news. I sat there slack jawed in disbelief. Talked about warning systems with my kids because they asked so many questions. Talked about it with my mom on the phone last night but because I was so miserable and feeling bad for myself, I didn't talk about it here.
Maybe that's a good thing because in the early hours of the tragedy, there weren't ways to help set up like there are now, there wasn't a central blog with tons of information on the tsunamis and ow it affected each country it touched and more ways to help.
The only problem I can see with all the donations being accepted is I have seen no way to donate through paypal. Every site wants a credit card and some of us don't have those.
I don't have much in there, just a few dollars but every time I've needed help, I've gotten it and if I can send a few bucks through paypal to help, I'd like to but I can't find a way. If anyone knows if any of those accepting donations take paypal or if someone out there knows another way or place, could you please let me know?
Thanks.

December 27, 2004

Ahhh.

So I have my meds again. I love them. I instantly felt better within like 20 minutes.
My body is just so screwed up that if I go too long without them, I'm a wreck. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't get comfortable at all no matter what I do.
I'll be able to get some decent sleep tonight.
This is a very good thing cuz now I can stop snapping at my family...lol
Sorry family. I just can't help it. My body goes through withdrawals and is just miserable and so I get miserable and take it out on all of you by being anti-social or snapping for basically no reason.
I yelled at them all for nothing. They did nothing wrong but argue amongst themselves and I yelled.
I should just stay in my room when this happens which seems like every month now that they don't renew my scripts in a timely manner.
My blogging/blog hopping suffers, I don't want to talk on the phone or answer emails, I don't stick to my duties as a mod on a board that I am a member of. Bleh.

So Sebastian and I went and picked them up, rented The Manchurian Candidate (Widescreen Edition) and then grabbed some frozen pizzas cuz I didn't feel like cooking a big meal.
Then sis came over and gave me the rest of her honey baked ham cuz she can't eat it all, some gourmet brownies cuz she can't eat too much wheat, and the rest of the ice cream cake from her birthday cuz she can't eat too much dairy.
It's a good thing too cuz with the boys on xmas school break, food is disappearing at an alarmingly fast pace.
Teenage boys with bottomless pit stomachs suck.

Ok, need to go take care of the laundry now that I can move without wincing.
It's been sitting in the dryer since like 8am.
Later days.

Ok. So this is how it's gonna be.

Pills are ready. Must walk down there and get them, (yeah, right) tens machine is being mailed to me by insurance company.
When it gets here, must go to PTs office, learn how to use it.
Have ten days to figure out of it helps me and then if it does, I get to keep it and after 3 months, I own it.
If it doesn't help me, must send it back after ten days and we attempt to find other ways of relieving pain while waiting on master skilled surgeon who will operate on adults with scoliosis before too much damage sets in and become un-repairable.

I'm having a great, confusing, phone cally day. Call them, they call me, PT calls me, I call them. Back and forth, yee fucking haw.
But when I do get u the strength to walk down to get pills, I have a free movie rental so what should I see?

Crazy, confusing and of course, the patient doesn't know shit.

So I put in my script refill request on the the 16th and it didn't go through. Ok.
Why?
Call docs on 18th, get told someone will call me back.
Call docs again on 20th, get told someone will call me back.
Call docs on 23rd, get told someone will call me back.
Call docs on 24th, get told regular staff is gone for holiday, no can help you, call back Monday.
Call back 5 fucking times this morning.
Get call from PT saying I must come in to learn tens unit tomorrow at 10:30.
Doc calls back says no go to PT cuz tens unit has been denied but we will give you pain meds now that tens unit is denied.
Call back PT tell them what I was just told.
They get confused, tell me not to come in tomorrow at 10:30 but they will call me back cuz I need tens unit and they say I must have one.
Doc calls backs and says script now called in, still can't have tens unit, they don't care what PT says, insurance no pay for tens unit.
Have drugs.
Drugs make you feel all better. Screw tens unit, can't have it anyway.

Happy fucking Monday.

Good Monday morning.

I slept like shit.
Mark puked at like 4:30 or so.
It was cold.
We lost power last night like 3 times for reasons unknown causing us to shut down the pcs to save them from being fried to death by surges.
Happily, it didn't happen again all night and everything seems to be ok.
Have been trying to call the docs for an hour now.
Good luck with that Kat. It's the Monday after a major holiday. Everybody is calling the docs for one reason or another.
Don't want to do a damn thing today so maybe I'll be around and maybe I won't.
Just general crappiness and pissiness today and I should go lock myself away in my room for everyones safety.
Gah.

December 26, 2004

Smell the Glove.

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I'm beginning a whole new generation of Tap lovers.
I got This Is Spinal Tap (Special Edition) for Christmas.
I love this movie.
I got Mark watching it right now.
He doesn't get that the whole thing is a joke.
Tee hee.

All hope is lost.

For my damn hip bones to feel better today.
Shit.
I heated them up, rubbed creams, swallowed pills, massaged them, had a cat lay on them for nearly two damn hours and they are still locked up and sore as hell.
It's the cold weather and it's supposed to get colder.
Yippee!!
Not.

My sister is on her way over to help me get to the store for those paper plates and stuff.
Must get myself moving a bit so I can do this. Grrr.
Later days.

Not doing a whole lot today.

Cleaning up messes, need to hit the store for paper plates and stuff, just general day to to day crap.

I babysat my niece last night for a bit and when I got home, I had a frantic email from someone about a mutual friend in trouble.
I made calls, I panicked, I found out that the friend is ok or as ok as one can be in her situation.
It's hard because I am way down here in Florida and they are far, far away out of physical reach.
All I can do is make calls and wait and wait some more.
When you're not a relative, they don't tell you anything either.
So my thoughts are elsewhere today. Just doing busy things to keep myself occupied and not worrying so much.


I'm sick of Christmas decorations already and would take them down today if my back didn't hurt so much.
I just don't want twinkling little lights anymore.
Everyone got what they want or need and now I just want some normalcy back.
I guess it can stay up for a few more days. I just won't turn them on.

Need to do stuff but what? I organized all my jewelry stuff, cleaned up the kitchen a bit, threw away a bunch of trash. Bah.
Maybe I'll just watch a movie and try to relax.

Hope you all have a great day.
Later.

December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas everyone!!

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The kids have opened all their gifts and love them and I got something I wanted which was a new cd/mp3/walkman since mine broke. Thank you ex-roommate. *mwah*
I got Spinal Tap the movie. (heh heh Jenni) I also got U2s new cd, love it and lots and lots of candy and a new book to read.
A good morning has been had.
I am starting the traditional xmas breakfast, bacon eggs, toast and hot cocoa.

I've got the ham starting. It's fully cooked so I need to just warm it up so I'm using the slow cooker for that and that way the oven will be free for all the side dishes.

I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas day and are spending it with those who mean the most to you.
All my love for a great Christmas day to you and yours.

December 24, 2004

We had a good time.

We ate, we watched the Shrek 2 Far far away idol at the end of the disc that we never saw, very funny. We talked, opened some presents and stuff.
My little niece Susan loved her little Lion King stuffed toy that I got her. Yay. I was worried it would scare her cuz it roars and stuff but she loved it and kept saying kitty.

The boys got some Best Buy gift money and are dying to go spend it already and my sis gave me some Victorias Secret gift money.
Yay!
I love VS but I won't be going until like Wednesday or so because after Christmas shopping just sucks big time. Good sales but far, far too many people for my tastes.
I swear, when I get back into the workforce, I'm going to have to get a job where I don't have to talk to people. I've lost my knack for being pleasant all day.

Ok, I am going to find something to do and rest my back and wait for the kids to fall asleep so I can put stuff in their stockings.

Later days and Merry Christmas Eve.

The delivery people are working hard today.

The mailman was here and then he finished his route and I was just sitting outside listening to my Christmas cd that I burned for my sisters party tonight and here he comes again.
"Weren't you just here?" I asked.
"Yes but I got back and picked up any other mail that looked like it might be presents."
"Yay!" I said.

I tore open the priority box and in it were four of the old style school cafeteria lunch trays from Carrie.
I love these trays!!
Perfect amount for me and my little family. I may even use them tomorrow just for fun...lol

Then as I was still sitting out there just enjoying myself and the music, the UPS man shows up.
He's got a small box with a bread machine recipe book in it from Christine who is just so good to me, I can't say thank you enough.

It's starting to feel like Christmas now that the weather has turned colder and it's kind of gray out there.
I played some of the jingle cats music for the kids and the cats went crazy..lol


I want to send some big extra special hugs and kisses out to Jenni.
I love ya hun and trust me when I say it will be ok and you will be ok and you just have to hang in there and stay strong and I am here, always here anytime day or night, just pick up that phone and call me.

Merry Christmas and thank you.

The mailman came and in it more surprises.
Thank you Krix for the card, Thank you Pete for the surprise. It was very nice.
Thank you Rhonda for the game. We will have loads of fun with it.

I tried to rest up for tonight but it's getting chilly out there again so my bones just won't settle down.
I'm going to take a long hot shower and see if that helps some.

Have a merry Christmas those of you who are taking off for the day and everyone else too!!

Tonight we party.

My sister is having a combo Christmas/birthday party tonight so no cooking dinner for me tonight.
Woo hoo!
I am working on the finishing touches for her birthday present and I can't scan it or even tell you what it is because she reads this. ;)

Just doing some cleaning around my house for tomorrow.
Why, I don't know.
Wrapping paper is just going to be strewn all over the place anyway and I'll have to re-clean again tomorrow.
*shrug*


ex-roommate is at work. Again.
Man she works like all the time and if she's not working, she's sleeping or out with friends.
I hope her Christmas here will be pleasant and fun. She's coming to the party tonight with me and the boys and then I have all the food for tomorrow.

Ok, back to my pre-holiday cleaning ritual.
Later days.

The Mom Before Christmas


Twas the night before Christmas,
when all thru the abode
Only one creature was stirring,
and she was cleaning the commode.

The children were finally sleeping,
all snug in their beds,
while visions of Nintendo and Barbie,
flipped through their heads.

The dad was snoring
in front of the TV,
with a half-constructed bicycle
propped on his knee.

So only the mom heard
the reindeer hooves clatter,
which made her sigh,
"Now what is the matter?"

With toilet bowl brush
still clutched in her hand,
She descended the stairs,
and saw the old man.

He was covered with ashes and soot,
which fell with a shrug,
"Oh great," muttered the mom,
"Now I have to clean the rug."

"Ho Ho Ho!" cried Santa,
"I'm glad you're awake."
"your gift was especially
difficult to make."

"Thanks, Santa, but all I want
is some time alone."
"Exactly!" he chuckled,
"So, I've made you a clone."

"A clone?" she muttered,
"What good is that?"
"Run along, Santa,
I've no time for chit chat."

Then out walked the clone -
The mother's twin,
Same hair, same eyes,
same double chin.

"She'll cook, she'll dust,
she'll mop every mess.
You'll relax, take it easy,
watch The Young and The Restless."

"Fantastic!" the mom cheered.
"My dream has come true!"
"I'll shop, I'll read,
I'll sleep a night through!"

From the room above,
the youngest did fret.
"Mommy! Come quickly,
I'm scared and I'm wet."

The clone replied,
"I'm coming, sweetheart."
"Hey," the mom smiled,
"She sure knows her part."

The clone changed the small one
and hummed her tune,
as she bundled the child
in a blanket cocoon.

"You're the best mommy ever.
I really love you."
The clone smiled and sighed,
"And I love you, too."

The mom frowned and said,
"Sorry, Santa, no deal."
That's my child's LOVE
she is trying to steal."

Smiling wisely Santa said,
"To me it is clear,
Only one loving mother
is needed here."

The mom kissed her child
and tucked her in bed.
"Thank You, Santa,
for clearing my head.

I sometimes forget,
it won't be very long,
when they'll be too old
for my cradle and song."

The clock on the mantle
began to chime.
Santa whispered to the clone,
"It works every time."

With the clone by his side
Santa said "Goodnight.
Merry Christmas, dear Mom,
You will be all right."

~Author Unknown~


Thanks Mom.

December 23, 2004

I just feel like sharing in light of recent events.

Back when I was a fairly new mom, I went and saw a counselor. I was tired and frustrated. My now-ex husband was cheating on me left and right and never around. I was raising one baby and carrying another.
I admitted to having spanked my little boy quite hard.
CPS was called and I was investigated. I went to parenting classes, I answered questions, I complied. They dropped the case as unfounded.

A few years later, a day care worker called CPS on me because Sebastian had a bruise on his butt. Mark had smashed him with a toy and when the CPS worker came to the house, she saw for herself that Mark hit his little baby brother with toys, his hands etc. Case dropped the first day.

I also went through CPS again after my ex-husband smacked Sebastian in the face.
I have been through the CPS stuff 3 times now and it isn't fun, I don't wish it on my worst enemy and would never do it to someone else unless I truly believed or saw with my own eyes, a child being abused.

I get anonymous emails about once a month telling that I am going to have CPS coming after me and I rarely talk about the boys anymore. I talk about fun stuff they do, grades, health, school but never much do I mention punishments of any kind and it's because some do gooder person out there was mad at me for some shit on a parenting site I was a member of about 2-2 1/2 years ago and she threatened to have my kids removed from my life.

I've had creepss, crazies, loons, better parents than me all over my shit since becoming a blogger and on the opposite end of the spectrum, I was fired from a job because I couldn't go in to work because my child was sick. I was told and I quote, "my priorities were in the wrong order."

Good parent, bad parent, trudging along right in the middle doing the best you can, someone else will always have an opinion.
I have learned that if you don't want your own words used against you, don't say them.

No, it doesn't make it better or easier and venting parental frustrations is a bitch because you are trying to get advice from others. You just have to carefully use your words.

Wrong or right.

Ok, I lied. I have to go out.

Crap.
I forgot stuff at the store yesterday so now I have to go out and it's rainy and humid. Blech.
Sorry I haven't been around most of the morning, I was busy tending to something that I felt was very important and could have easily gotten far far out of control if I hadn't said anything.
My best wishes to those involved. I mean that.

Ok gotta run.
Later days.

I have some swag for you.

Electric Artists, those in charge of the Gotti show on A&E tv, sent me a huge box of swag as a thank you for all the crap I had to put up with for helping advertise the show, Growing up Gotti.
I put up with more crap from some really scary teenagers than I care to recall and some of them even went so far as to call themselves relatives of the boys signing their last names with Victorias married name and threatening to "have me taken care of" because I screwed up their ages. *eyeroll*

So today, I have for you 5 cds of varying music.
Only 5 people can have these, that means one (1) per person.
I have Big Head Todd and the Monsters Live at the Fillmore. That one is a two disc set.
Jennifer Marks,
Wreck of the Day. This cd hasn't even been released yet. Still in record company promo sleeve but full album. Comes with a full FBI warning right on it. That's cool. Not. This cd is copy protected. You must place it in your cd rom, run the auto-run and let it do the silly sony player. Trust me, it's worth it. This is a good cd. She is pretty good and I'm so not this type of music at all.
Wild for You. No clue who she is myself so if you like her, you can have it.
And then a Jim Brickman Christmas cd that I can't seem to find online called Sending you a little Christmas. It has 4 songs on it featuring various artists performing with him.

Here's the rules.
The first five people who email me mysinglemomlifeATgmail.com, NO COMMENTS saying you want it, who have all requested a different cd from each other, (yeah yeah, I know I'll be the only who knows if you all picked something different) will get the cd they have chosen.
You MUST include in your email your name and snail mail address. Can't send it to ya if I don't have an addy.
U.S. and Canadian residents only. Sorry. It just costs too much money to ship to Europe.
Cds will be shipped the first week of the new year cuz I am so broke right now I can't afford a single stamp.
This is a today only thing.
No requests tomorrow will be acknowledged.

All cds are gone. Thanks for playing.
Later days.

Good Thursday morning to ya.

Today I am not going anywhere or doing anything too stressful.
Some laundry cuz it never stops, some last finishing touches on a birthday gift for my sister which was yesterday (Happy birthday Jo) but because she was working and then had a long drive ahead of her, we will be celebrating it Friday night when she has her xmas party.
She used to hate this growing up. Alway felt like she was getting jipped out of presents and such.
That's just the way kids think.

It's a rainy morning here, doesn't feel like Christmas at all.
While all you other bloggers are too busy to post cuz you're last minute gift shopping or wrapping, dealing with family from out of town, our little family is finished shopping and wrapping and everything is under the tree, the food is sitting in the fridge waiting for me to cook it, the stocking stuffers are sorted and waiting to be dumped in at last minute so no one knows what it's there. (HINT- no fruit or nuts)

That one thing drove me crazy as a kid. Fruit and nuts in the stocking.
Not just like a bag of peanuts but whole nuts still in shells and dad had the only nutcracker and so you had to wait your turn to crack them open and eat them.
It drove you crazy you said, why would you wait to open them?
Because it was the equivalent of candy. If that's what you got, that's what you ate.
I gave my dad all those weird brown ones that I could never crack open anyway but I ate the walnuts and the almonds, loved the almonds.
I would steal them from other peoples stockings, from the nut bowl.
"Who ate all the almonds?" I'd hear my mom yell. Quietly I tip-toed away to my room. They knew it was me but if I hid, they'd be left wondering wouldn't they? I was so smart slinking away. Out of sight out of trouble.
I was never in trouble for eating them all it's just my mom would have liked some I guess but I was a kid and kids don't think about whether or not mommy wants any of anything, kids are not aware that mothers eat any snacks other than what they share with you. Moms don't have favorite snacks or nuts from the bowl. Moms cook on Christmas morning and then clean all the wrapping paper up and have to vaccuumm really fast so that the cats don't eat stray tape or bows.
Moms don't really get to enjoy the holiday until it's completely over sometime around 6am the following day when they wake up early and get some quiet time.
Alone.

This year I will enjoy the holiday if it kills me.
I bought treats for stockings that everyone will enjoy and too damn bad if they don't.
There's a few presents under the tree for me this year and yes I wrapped most of them myself.
The few from ex-roommate, I have no clue what they are so I will truly be surprised there but I know what movie and what cd is mine under there and I got myself a small movie that showed up yesterday and we watched it because I love the movie and didn't want to wait.
I can do that.
Shut up.
I will wake up Christmas morning and make the traditional bacon and eggs and then clean up that mess and begin the ham and then later will do the green bean casserole (pre-made) that ex-roommate and Mark can eat (gag), the broccoli au gratin, the mashed potatoes and gravy and the marshmallow delight.
We'll watch a Muppets Christmas Carol and some other classics and just hang out together in peace.
No family fighting, no time restraints to make it to a relatives house on time, just us and my sister will stop over whenever she wants.
It will be a good day with no stress and no mess.

A Christmas Carol-Tom Lehrer.
Right click and save as because with only two more sleeps till Christmas, Santa can still see if you're being bad.

December 22, 2004

Got a few minutes before dinner so here's some pics.

Actually more than a few and when I catch the person who turned the temp to warm, they will die a thousand deaths. I now have a forty five minute wait until dinner.
Thanks temp turner.
Click for larger as always.

First up, we have two pics of baby kitty.

And now here's some pics from today.
This is normal seasonal driving around here.

Fucking dumbass.



And parking for preggos. Never saw one of these signs when I was pregnant. Hell, I walked 5 miles through parking lots with three feet of snow at Christmas with a five ton belly to do my shopping and I liked it!

Tired and busy.

We didn't have to go down there for court so we ran some other errands that we needed to do and stuff.
Very very tired from too much walking and stuff but we got everything done that needed to be done.

Will try to answer emails and stuff later on tonight or tomorrow.
I'm just so pooped.
Later days.

Oh, I got some cool licorice candy all the way from Finland from Kirsi.
Thanks Kirsi. :)

Dinner
Cheesy chicken stuff
Line boneless chicken breats on bottom of 9x13 pan
cover in 2 cans Campbells cream of chicken soup
cover with shredded mozzarella cheese
cover that with stove top stuffing chicken flavor
cover with aluminum foil
bake 50-60 minutes at 350 degrees or until chicken is done.

You're not gonna believe this.

Yeah you will if you've been following the court saga for any amount of time now.
I told you she was nuts.
She called her lawyer and canceled citing a personal emergency.
This is the third time she has cited this same exact fucking thing.
So the lawyer is going to go before a judge today and get an order compelling her to show for depositions and if she doesn't, to hold her in contempt.
The lawyer is pissed off.

Well, I'm at least glad he called me before I left at 9:30 to catch the buses downtown.

If she thinks it's going to go away, she is surely mistaken and has now just screwed herself a little harder.
She doesn't show up to the next one, she goes to jail.

Not looking forward to today.

Today Sebastian and I have to go give depositions in the case against the teen who broke his arm January 2003.
We have already been through the criminal trial and now it's the civil part.
Neither of us are looking forward to seeing the psycho mom or the teen again.
She's crazy.
They better not ask me to like sit in a waiting room alone with her for long because I don't trust her. She's unstable and frankly, she scares me.
All the time she drove around taking pictures of me and my kids, chasing me and the juvy justice guy out into the hallway during the criminal trial and demanding that she be allowed to hear what he was telling me. Yelling at us after the teen was convicted so loudly that we had to have police escorts out of the building.
She still sits in her car and watches me when I walk anywhere.

This isn't about the money contrary to what some may think.
This is about her failure to acknowledge that the teen had some serious problems before I let my kids go in and over to her house.
I equate it to a pit bull and her not telling me.
He had problems with drugs, violence and other issues and she never told me and I let my kids go there to play all the while she knew he had a short temper and was violent towards his little brother and other kids in the neighborhood.
No one said anything until after he broke Sebastians arm and then it was stories like he chased me down with a chain and fathers saying he tried to hit them with a chain for defending their kid.
He had done drugs in that home and my kids were in there.

It's like if she had a dangerous dog and kept it in the house only and never told anyone and let kids go to play and the dog hurt one of them.
Her teen had a violent history, she didn't inform other parents and as a result, he became violent with my kid and broke his arm in a horrific manner.

If I had known, I would have never allowed them near that house.

I understand her anger at me. Her son went to jail for a year because I agreed with the state prosecution and went forward with charges.
I feel bad that their family was turned upside down for a year but my son missed a month of school and then when he went back, he wasn't even allowed recess for 3 months. He wasn't allowed to ride his bike for 6 months or play outside. He was basically a bored little video gamer stuck in the house.
He will have to have surgery to correct the rotation issues when he gets older.
He is at less than 80% rotation in that arm and it bends funny now.
I was told to talk him out of a life of sports if that was his dream. Talk him into a desk job like lawyer or teacher. Something that won't put his arm in conflict.

This is about informing other parents if you have a dangerous child in your home.
I understand her need to protect her son and be angry at me for taking him away but he did it to himself and she did it to him by not telling other parents so that we could keep our kids safe.
If she had told me, I would have never let them go over there and he would have never picked up Sebastian over his head and thrown him to a concrete driveway on January 12,2003.

December 21, 2004

The presents are wrapped and under the tree.

How I love torturing them.
I just finished wrapping up the last of the boys stuff and it's tucked under the tree.
I love watching them try to figure stuff out.
Heh heh.

Have a few things to do tomorrow, post office and then court crap.
That should take awhile.
Not looking forward to it at all but we have to see this thing through.

Not much else, been a long busy day. Must sleep soon.
Later days.

I have my new chair.

My sis and I went and got my new chair tonight.
I love it!
This is the one I got.
It is so comfy.
Not crazy about the arm rests though but they have to stay on to hold the seat back in place. I'll get used to them.
I find arm rests restricting because I sit with my feet up on a stool and my keyboard on my lap so the armrests get in the way typing sometimes.
It's cool though, I will get used to it because my ass doesn't hurt. I'm not sitting on a hard dining chair anymore with 3 pillows under my ass and a big huge back machine on the back of the chair.

If you like this chair, go get one while they have them on sale with a $60 mail-in rebate.

Ok, back to jewelery making.
Almost done.

Christmas cards! Christmas cards!

I love Christmas cards!
I got a card from Kim and one from Leslie that was with some lovely bath soaps in my fave scent and some pain cream that she makes. Get in touch with her about the soaps and things she makes. Her store site is having an issue.
I love her soaps. Mmmm and that cream smells so good too. Today's a good day to try it too because my back is messed up and I'm out of pain meds until tomorrow.

Kim, thank you for the sweet note. I love you too and glad to have met you as well.

Oh! That Jamie or Jennifer from Arkansas, it was Tammie...lol Sorry hun. I couldn't read your writing.

Carrie!!!
The charms showed up!! Ack! I can work on them tonight and in the morning before I have to go to court thingy and then hit the main post office on the way back to mail them priority. Will do what I can to get them to you in a timely manner.

Ok, gotta go make some bracelets!
Later days.

ABCs of Christmas.

You need to go over to Born In A Zoo and help her out with the abcs of Christmas. You take the next letter in the comment section.
ABC is done, c'mon, this will be fun. :)

mmmm

Kit Kat Mint Limited Edition

Happy first day of winter.

Not too much going on right now but I have an appointment this afternoon that I need to leave for by 11:30. Long bus ride today. ex-roommate's going to go with me so it won't be too bad.
At least it's going to warm up. Right now it's pretty cold but we're going to warm up to mid 60's they tell us.

The baby kitten is three weeks old today and later in the day when I have better lighting, I will take a picture of this fat but oh so curious kitten. His big blue eyes look at everything and he wobbles on his legs as he tries to walk (probably has something to do with how fat he is), and runs right up to the kids and stares up at them.
He's going to be a good pet for someone. He's getting used to noise and kids and people very quickly.
It's so cute. (I'm not keeping it! Stop asking me dear family. My word is law on this one.)

How scary is it that everyday on the news this week, every drug I have taken for long periods of time on doctors orders, Vioxx, Celebrex and the OTC Aleve, are now under fire for doing more harm to patients than good?
I joked about it but when I die, I'm giving this body to science. The whole damn cadaver so some lucky med student can hit the jackpot of bad things done to a body.
I'm a walking pharmaceutical and I have to take pharmaceuticals to get off other pharmaceuticals.
Weeeee!!!

Todays song is in celebration of the first day of winter.
Winter Wonderland-Louis Armstrong.
Don't be a dick, always right click or the reindeer will crap down your chimney.

Oh, there's a recipe in the extended entry.
Later days.

Beef and Broccoli
3/4 pound thin beef strips
2 cups fresh broccoli flowerets
1 package McCormick Brown Gravy Mix
1 cup water
Place beef and broccoli in the bottom of your slow cooker. Mix together gravy mix and water. Pour over the top. Cover and cook on low for 6 to 8 hours.

December 20, 2004

Were your kids

scared of Santa?
Too damn funny.
This is my favorite one.
Even Santa was crying.

crying santa.jpg


Thanks to Mark Lane for the link.

I'll be going shopping soon.

My sister is taking me shopping tonight to pick out my Christmas gift.
Why would she let me pick it out myself?
Because it's a new computer chair. Something I really need but never have the money for.
I am currently using a dining chair with a back massager/heating thingy on it. I've been using a dining chair for over a year since my last chair got ruined.
I need to go with her to sit in them and try them out because of the way my back turns, what's comfortable for her would probably be so painful for me.
I need certain lumbar supports, height, cushioning in various areas which is why for the longest time I used a dining chair with several pillows on it so my tail bone wouldn't press into the chair and cause pain.
It will be so nice to have something comfortable to sit in.
I never ever spend money on things that I really need. I usually get stuff the house needs.
I'll let you know how it goes.

I forgot to thank one person for their xmas card today, Christine sent me the most beautiful handmade Christmas card with a lighthouse on it.
It is a gorgeous card. She spends so much time and effort into her cards, I am envious of her patience and talent.
I put the card she made for Sebastians birthday away in his album because it's just too nice to throw away and I will be saving this one as well. So pretty.
Thanks to everyone for the cards, I do love getting snail mail and I hang them on my wall and it looks so festive in here.

Later days.

Feliz Navidad.

I want to say thank you for all the lovely xmas cards that came today and brightened up my afternoon.
Thank you:
Andrea
Tina
My Aunt Kathy and
it's either Jamie or Jennifer from Little Rock Arkansas.

A return address would be nice so I can send you a card person in Ark. It was addressed to both ex-roommate and I so I'm not sure who this is but thank you for the card anyway. :)

Palpable measures.

I'm making this one public as well as putting it in the health blog because I just want to.

For once, I saw a physical therapist who was honest and not just in it for the hefty insurance money they could get for treating me three times a week for months.
There is no amount of physical therapy that can or will help me at this point.
He could certainly do it which would cause me more pain than help he said but why do that. I agree.
We are down to palpable measures he said. There is nothing short of surgery that will ever help you.

He made the call to the insurance people requesting that I be given my own tens unit at home because coming there three times a week defeats the whole purpose of the tens unit. This is something my PCP requested two to three months ago and was denied and told to send me to PT.
After he spoke to them, they said it shouldn't be a problem and to have the PCP agree to this unit.

There is nothing we can do to help you.
I have heard this so many times in the last few years since this merry go round of insurance began that I'm used to it. I finish the doctors and PTs sentences when they start off with there is nothing.
I know the routine. Go, get looked at, be poked, be told to stretch this way and that way and bend as far as you can to this side and now that side, sit down, I have something to tell you.
I know how this goes but every time I hear it, it makes it just a little bit more real, a little more dire.
I hold my head high and half smile as the PT and docs go through the motions and the speech, stay active, walk around your house but no lifting, no running, no exercise, no heavy anything, use heat, use cold, take your meds on schedule, wish I could help you, your case is too severe for us to do anything about, I'm sorry.

I hold my head up high and make it all the way home before I let loose a few tears and allow the fear and frustration to surface and make me as vulnerable as an egg being dropped from the empire state building.

I'm ok now. I shed my few tears and can go on again. I don't let it get me down as much as it used to when they first told me the news. I don't let it bug me nearly as much because as I said, I have heard it a lot but today, standing in the cold smoking my death sticks waiting for my ride, I almost cried big.

I thought we were on vacation?

The kids are on vacation so why am I up so early?
I have a PT appointment this morning and the medi bus is coming to get me so I have to be up and ready for whenever it comes.
Appointment at 10:30?
Be ready anywhere between 8:30 and 10am.
Yeah. Fun.
Not.

It's gonna get really chilly out again tonight and stuff.
Got the heater ready to go again. It worked pretty good for the last cold spell we had.

Alright, I'm sorta up. Need to get my butt moving into the shower here and stuff.
I don't wanna go. *wah*

Here's todays xmas song, The Pogues-Irish Christmas song.
Don't be a dick, always right click or Santa will have the elves make you a special stocking.
One that sits on the front porch and is flaming.

December 19, 2004

I love gift cards.

Marks Big George gave me a $25 gift card to Publix.
I love gift cards!
I needed stuff you see and I was cashless so this was perfect timing.
I got two big jugs of laundry soap (I do a load of laundry everyday), 8 rolls of tp, toilet cleaner, febreeze, two bags of cat food (lots of kitties here) and then four chocolate covered strawberries as a treat from the new gourmet bakery they just made at Publix. (WARNING! that new triple caramel nut cheesecake looks deadly as hell. Stay clear of the bakery cheesecake lovers!)
$25.94.
I'm so good...lol
It was all stuff I needed so this really was an awesome gift. And! It's re loadable! Woo hoo!!

Note to Shell.
You know on all those mp3s you burned for me, you put the Irish Rovers Way hey and up she rises?
Yeah well, guess who knows all the words and sings at full throttle?....lol
Yup, Sebastian, the king of the cheese music. Give him a Monty Python song or some funny xmas carol and man, you will have tears running down your cheeks in minutes.

Mark loves me.

He bought me, with his xmas money that George gave him, a Nintendo Wristband: Byte Me.
I love these things.
He bought it for me even though I couldn't' get his game installed right.
Apparently, rise of nations has xml parse errors that Microsoft knows about but that nothing can be done to rectify it for win me os.
How do I know? because I got the parse errors and called them. Spoke to two people in India who both said the same thing and then transferred me to someone who speaks English because I was getting severely pissed having to go F as in frank, u as in up, c as in cat, k as in kitten, y as in yuck, o as in out, u as in you fucking suck the big ass donkey balls and tell Bill Gates he's a fuck head for having all his tech help in fucking INDIA!!

Who knew something so small could endure so much pain.

Forgive my blogging absence today, I gave the boys an early gift, The Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King (Platinum Series Special Extended Edition).

They are thoroughly enjoying it and so am I.
I love these films so much.
I get all teary watching them.
The deleted scenes are beautiful and breathtaking and show so much that we had hoped to see.
I'll be watching all the special features and such this afternoon while Mark is out with George.
Sebastian still isn't 100% but doing much better.
Well, that's all for now.
Later days.

Long live the king.

Sunday Sermon 15.

"The book, called the Bible, is filled with passages equally horrible, unjust
and atrocious. This is the book to be read in schools in order to make our
children loving, kind and gentle! This is the book they wish to be recognized
in our Constitution as the source of all authority and justice!"
[Robert G. Ingersoll, "The Gods", 1872]

December 18, 2004

I am slow cooking again.

I am making a batch of hot wings over night for Marks Big Bro George as an xmas gift. Mark and he eat hot wings all the time and they both love them so much so I thought some home cooked food would be a good gift.
Super easy recipe in the extended entry.

Of course, would have gone much smoother if I didn't accidentally broil my thumb.
Can we say owie?

4 lbs. chicken wings
1 1/2 cups bottled chili sauce
1 tbs bottled hot pepper sauce

Broil wings under the broiler for 10 minutes or until chicken is browned turning once during broiling.
Add to slow cooker and pour sauce over them.
Slow cook on low for 6 hours.

My kids hate me right now.

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I'm making them watch The Year Without a Santa Claus.
I loved this one as a kid, I still do. I'm so glad that these are on DVD now because you can't see them on tv anymore. Very rarely do they show these great classics.

I love the heat miser and the snow miser, and Jingle and Jangle. Love every second of it.

My childhood memories of Christmas are filled with these shows. No matter how little or how much snow, how much money or how little money our family had, seeing all these Rankin Bass shows every year just made the holiday right.
I know the boys are older but I think even older kids need to be reminded of the joy that these shows gave them.
All three boys were sitting here grumpy when I put it in and now they are all watching attentively and even smiling. Imagine that.
Three oh so big and grown up teens are smiling and enjoying the show. I even heard a few giggles and a few poor Vixens coming from the couch.

Ya know what else is on this dvd? Rudolphs Shiny New Year with that creepy buzzard, Eon. I can't wait to see that one again. Later. I think I've tortured them enough for one afternoon.
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I was wrong.

Sebastian is sick.
He barfed like 4 times last night and twice today. Dammit.
We made it to the store where he insisted on going with me, and proceeded to turn every shade of green imaginable and then barfed in their bathroom too.
We made it back home and he is on the couch and his face matches his green tropic quilt.
Mark and Mikey are eating and he cannot even look at food. Pepto is his friend.
We're watching Elf now and the boys are just dying laughing. We just started it and it is so funny already.
Ok, that's all from here for now.
Later days.

gah.

*

I am tired and sore. Cold weather crap needs to just go away.
I have no idea what I'm doing today. I need to hit the store at some point and get some more food but I'm too sore to do anything right now.
I'm not fully really awake yet either. I could have slept all day.
I'll come back when I'm more coherent.
Later days.


*Sebastian didn't want to be photographed for his child safety kit. Just a funny pic I felt like sharing. He was 3.

December 17, 2004

We have power!

I just called and checked in on the boys. I had them check the dsl while I was checking on them. It's back on. Yay!
Sebastian ended up coming over here. Said he wasn't feeling well. I think it was all the roller skating and crap he ate all day. Or at least I hope it was. He's sound asleep on my sisters couch right now.
It's raining and cold outside so I have her heater on.

Other than that, been watching movies on the tv and loving it.
Man, I want a nice boyfriend...lol
Just watched Spiderman 2 and now that the baby and Bastian are asleep, I'm watching the Exorcist. I think it's the new one, the beginning or something cuz it's not starting the way I remember.
Oh and sis needs some fun snacks here. Like chips or candy...lol

How you doin'?

Me, not so good but better now.
Verizon sucks the big donkey balls today all for a measley $32.35.
So here's a big fuck you Verizon.
My house will be back online tomorrow or heads are gonna roll.
So I'm at my sisters house babysitting tonight and she has net so I can stop pulling my hair out now.

Her bf got her a new tv. A huge ass flat screen.
Oh. My. God.
After the baby goes to sleep, me and the flat screen are going to get better acquainted with some dvd fun. It's so beautiful, I could cry. She has surround sound too so tonight is gonna be fun.

The boys are at home, Mikey is staying over again and all they have been doing is playing video games so me over here with net is a good thing. If I had to stay home with no net and all those boys, I may possibly have gone insane.

Ok, time to do a few things that I was in the middle of before Verizon caused me to have a near heart attack and cry.
Jenni, you rock babe.
Later days.

So I was watching Ellen yesterday.

I do love Ellen. That is one fucking funny show. I love how she dances all the time. It just makes you smile cuz she dances like normal people do...lol Anyway, yesterday, she had Lindsay Lohan on. I totally agree with this article.
I had never heard her sing until yesterday.
What the hell was the record company thinking giving her a deal? The girl can't sing. That would be like me having a record contract and I sing pretty ok when I want to. I'm usually just goofing off annoying the boys by singing stupid songs with a screech while they're trying to play video games...lol
Anyway, she was singing and I'm like this chic can't sing and now Ellens gonna have to lie and say how great she was cuz talk show hosts usually can't say hey, you suck, don't ever come back.
Lindsey tried to use the excuse that she was sick and that she had laryngitis. Well if you go listen to the two tracks in the article, she must be sick all the time.
Stick to acting sweetie.
Your voice is about as bad as nails on a chalkboard.

Oíche chiúin, oíche Mhic Dé.

Mikey ended up staying over and I went to bed sometime around 11 and I have no clue when those two fell asleep.
Sebastian was in bed by 10 because he has a field trip today and Christmas party for his class.

I need to just take it easy for most of the day. Have to babysit tonight so I need to rest up and stuff. It's also leftover day. I made those two big batches of food so people can eat leftovers tonight.
Not much else happening so far.

Todays song is Silent Night in Irish by Enya.
Don't be a dick, always right click or Santa will let the reindeer shit in your stocking.

December 16, 2004

Hey Florida moms!!

There's a new message board/forum just for moms in Florida! Go check it out and join if interested. Sunshine State Moms - Index

Having a fairly decent day.

My bones just won't stop aching even though it warmed up some but I'm having a good day.
The house and the sweet n' sour chicken smell fantastic! I can't wait to eat it. Yum.

We just hung ex-roommates shelf that she bought in October and has been procrastinating hanging up since then...lol

Mikey is more than likely going to stay over. It'll be fun.
We always have a good time when he comes over. The kids usually always behave and we have lots of laughs and interesting talks.

Well, that's about all. Pretty boring here right now.
Later days.

I am so loving having a crock pot again.

Yesterday, I made beef stew and a loaf of hawaiin bread in the bread machine for dinner.
There are plenty of leftovers stored in the fridge but because I want to make the house smell yummy again all day, I'm making sweet n' sour chicken in the pot today.
This is such an easy recipe and I have never made it before but it smells oh so good and I just mixed it all together and turned it on just now!
I doubled the recipe because I'm feeding boys and Mikey may be over here tonight if his parents go for the idea Mark and he had.
They both have nothing to do at school tomorrow. No tests, no parties (8th graders get screwed I hear) so they want to stay home and have Mikey sleep over here tonight because he is leaving on Sunday to go north for Christmas. They want to hang and play video games before he leaves. It's cool with me if it's cool with his parents so we'll see how it goes and if he ends up not sleeping over, I'll just have lots of leftovers of this too to store in the fridge and freezer.
Recipe is in the extended entry and what is posted is not doubled.

Recipe Rating:
Prep Time: 10 min
Total Time: 8 hr 10 min
Makes: 6 servings


1 medium onion, sliced
1 medium carrot, sliced
1 medium celery stalk, sliced
1 lb. boneless skinless chicken thighs, cut into bite-sized pieces
1/2 cup KRAFT CATALINA Dressing
1/2 cup soy sauce
1/2 cup firmly packed brown sugar
1 tsp. grated gingerroot
1 can (8 oz.) pineapple chunks, drained, juice reserved
1 green pepper, sliced
1 red pepper, sliced
4-1/2 cups hot cooked MINUTE White Rice

PLACE onion, carrot and celery in bottom of slow cooker; top with chicken.
ADD dressing, soy sauce, brown sugar, gingerroot and pineapple juice. Cover with lid.
COOK on LOW 7 to 8 hours (or on HIGH 3-1/2 to 4 hours), adding pineapple and peppers for the last 30 minutes of the cooking time. Serve over rice.

Three French toast, Two turtlenecks, And a beer.

Good morning.
It's not quite as cold today which is a good thing but I guess come Sunday (it'll be alright) another huge cold front is coming through.
Oh well.

I need to go outside and turn up the water heater today. We ran out of hot water this morning during showers. Not happy kids let me tell ya.

Not much else happening around here so far. Pretty boring this early in the morning so here's your song for today.
Don't be a dick, always right click and save as or you won't get all these beers these guys are talking about. No fatback either.
Twelve days of Christmas-Bob and Doug Mckenzie

December 15, 2004

Mmm, that was so good.

I made beef stew in the crock pot all day long and oh my god was it good. We are all so stuffed. It was thick and hearty and the meat just melted in your mouth. Oh man, yum.
We are so stuffed we have no room for ex-roommates Oreo pudding pie that she made this afternoon.

I need to get my bloated ass up and switch the laundry over and do some dishes.
Later days.

Where did most of my day go?

The kids went out to the bus stop and Sebastian comes running home a few minutes later yelling that our neighbors house is on fire so ex-roommate and I go running over there ready to like break in and wake up burning people and I get to the fence and look through the crack of the fence where the smoke is emanating from and see my neighbor sitting there having a smoke with his wood burner going.
No fire. Just a smoker braving the temps by flame.
*sheesh*
Then ex-roommate and I went grocery shopping and got lots of good food to warm us up with at dinner time cuz I guess this cold front is not over yet.
Came home, put everything away, started getting everything ready to make beef stew in the crock pot and notice, I forgot potatoes.
Shit.
So ex-roommate walks back to the store for more potatoes.
Then I notice I forgot bagels. Got the cream cheese just no bagels.
I also forgot dish soap.
I made a list, just forgot some stuff that was on it.
I think my brain was frozen.

So I got the beef stew going, the house smells way yummy.
My room is freezing so I tried to cover my window in my room but I think I need to go outside and nail it shut and duct tape it.
It's cold in there man.

I did remember to get all the kitties one can of Fancy Feast each. They eat dry all year so a can for xmas is a treat. Canned cat food gives them the stinky runs so they better enjoy that moist taste on xmas day cuz that's all they're getting.

The mail came and I got two of the presents I ordered and hurriedly wrapped them and put them under the tree so the boys won't even get a peak.

I think I'm done now for the day and need to go lay down and watch Ellen and Passions and maybe even nap. Kali, my cat has been following me around all day rubbing and waiting for me to lay down so she can nap too.

Later days.

Baby it's cold.

Man it's cold for Florida. Brr.
It's about 35 right now but the wind chill is 25.
All we need is some snow and it will feel just like home in Maine. Of course I checked the temps for Old Orchard Beach where my folks live and it was like 13 last night. Oh my gawd, I don't miss those temps.
Got the boys as bundled as I could. Shirts, sweatshirts, jackets and gloves. Sis is going to buy them some hooded sweatshirts in the next two days or so. We never had hats here because it never gets this cold here. They need hoods now. Brr.

ex-roommate and I are going grocery shopping this morning to stock up on foods and stuff.

Todays song fits the weather. Baby it's cold-Rod Stewart and Dolly Parton
Don't be a dick, always right click.

Later days.

December 14, 2004

I am a bad bad person.

I smoke. Yes, I am still smoking. But I have been oh so good and smoking outdoors for the last year.
It's too cold to go outside and engage in my bad habit so I'm smoking indoors.
I know, horrible.
I feel guilty about it and I will go back outside tomorrow and do it when it warms up a hair but not tonight man.
So ex-roommate, boys, I'm sorry.
It's my one and only bad habit. I don't drink, I don't party, stay out late, ignore you, spank you, yell at you (much), I just smoke and I only do it indoors if the weather sucks ass.
I smoked outside during all the hurricanes though so I have indoor smoking credits right?
I braved four hurricanes and watched trees and wind and rain blow all over, got wet, hurricane blogged, kept people informed. I earned these cold weather smoking credits dammit!
I promise not to over do it in here and make it smell like a pub.
Forgive me and my stinky habit please.
Thanks.

It's getting a wee bit nippy out there.

It's starting to get a little brisk out there man. I don't have a current temp because the outdoor thermometer I told myself to buy last year, didn't get bought so all I can say is it's nipple stand at attention cold.
Brr.
I blanketed the boys bedroom windows like I do every winter. It really does help. Looks awful but who the hell cares? Its' warm and that's all that matters.
Got my floor heater ready to go should I need it. Got a nice warm diner ready to eat.
Something simple from a box. One of those Campbells supper bakes, southwestern chicken flavor. Pretty tasty.

Finished the laundry and just resting for the rest of the night now.
Oh, got some more mail from the UPS man. Can't say what any of it is cuz it's little things I bought for others.

That's all from here for now.
Later days.

Groovy Mom + Kinky + a soap addict

I'm getting nuttin for Christmas, mommy and daddy are mad.

I went and got the mail and in it was a kick ass holiday mix cd from Christine.
Oh my gawd, I haven't heard some of these since I was a kid especially that getting that nuttin for Christmas. My mom used to sing that while she was baking and stuff...lol
Great stuff on there Christine, thank you.

Today isn't going so bad. It's the first day in about two days that I can actually stand without too much pain so I took a shower. Yay for small miracles eh?
I just couldn't barely move so I've spent a lot of time on the couch doing nothing.

Waiting on the cold to come down.

It's not too bad out there right now, I'd say about 55 or so but the weather people are freaking out on the mid-day news. Freeze warnings! Bundle up! Bring your plants in and cover those you can't!
We may not get snow down here but at least it will feel like Christmas.
It's perfect weather for the long drive to Freeport to go to L.L.Beans and see the giant moose on the wall,that thing scared the crap outta me when I was a kid, look at all the xmas decorations and stuff.
No, I can't drive to Freeport from here but we all used to when I was growing up. Go to the outlet stores, eat at the McDonalds inside the house (really, there's a Mcd's inside of a house up there, it's very cool), get hot chocolate somewhere, and just look at stuff. Good way to waste time while waiting for xmas.

I need to sit down and plan out my shopping for tomorrow. Hopefully my bones will cooperate.
I'm going to make beef stew in my new crock pot. It's like space cookware. It looks awesome and I can't wait to use it.
Speaking of cookware, I have a kitchen the size of a small closet and have all these wonderful gadgets that I will be putting to use this winter, a bread machine, the crock pot, maybe not the snow cone maker, some new muffin pans etc. I need to organize my closet sized kitchen. I need to clear out the cupboard above the fridge. I don't even know what the hell is in there. It's seriously been about 2 years since I was up putting anything in there. They're those useless cabinets above the fridge. You really can't put anything in them because #1, the space is too small and #2, you have to be over 6 feet to actually see what's in there and reach them. We only got one tall person here and that's ex-roommate. As it is I make her change all the light bulbs. I simply can't reach and standing on chairs is a big no no doc said. They get mad at me when I lift a pan of water off the stove. *sheesh*. So maybe tomorrow or Thursday if tall girl isn't doing anything during the day and she forgives me for being a bitch yesterday. I was just miserably cranky and having an absolutely rotten day and I took it out on anyone who even looked cross eyed at my stash of chocolate (two mini Hershey bars in the fridge). I got that wonderful gift yesterday and Christine, they wrapped it in baby wrapping paper...lol like little duckies and pinks and blues...lmao, and I loved it and was thrilled but right after opening it and posting and sending off a thank you email, I went straight back to being painfully miserable and laid down.
I was a bitch. I'm sorry. It happens and I wish it didn't but it does.

Man, I can talk too much eh? Meds are kicking in. It's like easing the pain away but makes you ramble on and on for a bit.
Got the second load of laundry going, need to go fold some stuff from the dryer. Later days.

Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me. *

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Another day.
The boys are up and getting ready for school.
Just 10 days and so many hours until Christmas. They are getting excited. not just for Christmas but because there are only four days of school left and then they are off until January fourth.
That's a long time to be at home eating everything they come in contact with, driving each other and me crazy, playing video games for hours upon hours and making messes everywhere they go.
I like the new video games they got. The Urbz: Sims in the City is a cool game. I like playing it. I played for a little bit yesterday before my bones got all cranky on me and then when the boys came home, Sebastian helped my urb out and got her a ton of money and stuff. There's all these goals they have to complete and jobs and stuff. It's enjoyable and seeing as how we can't have our pc sims for awhile again, this is a nice substitute.

The baby kitten is two weeks old today and his eyes are open and he's crawling around in the box that momma finally settled on as home and meowing. It is just so cute.

My sister brought over the extra floor heater she has so that we can have heat tonight. The old ac unit had a heat setting. The new one doesn't and even though I only used the heat one day last year, it looks like I may need heat more than that this year.
I only use it at night and a few hours n the morning while the boys take showers and get ready for school and then off it goes.
I may need heat tonight. It's supposed to go down in the low 30's (30, a moderated word in blacklist so if you try and type that in the comments, your comment won't show up. Fucking spamming assholes) tonight and so I will have it on low overnight and then turn it up in the morning so they won't freeze to death after morning showers.

Next week is gonna be a rough one for me.
Monday, PT, Tuesday, appointment at 1:15, Wednesday, depositions for the case with Sebastians arm. It's been a hella long time with that case hasn't it? But we go again, give more depositions, talk with lawyers and see what happens. Medicaid has finally decided they want the parents of the teen to pay the bill. I called them after it happened and told them someone else is responsible for the bill, that charges had been filed etc and they said, "Don't worry about it. It's covered." I get a letter the other day asking for all the other peoples info. I'm like screw you, call my lawyer. I tried to get those people involved in the case, the state DA could have used them in court but they didn't want their money back. Now they do.
Whatever. Maybe it will make this go faster.
I just want the parents of that little dink to pay something so that they know they could have done something. They were negligent in supervising this ass. He had a prior criminal record for violence and drugs and they didn't tell other parents in the neighborhood but allowed us to send our kids over there to play and sleep over. They weren't supervising him properly when he was around the kids playing in the yard that day. They should have been. They needed to be. He was just waiting for a moment to hurt someone and it happened to be Sebastians un-lucky day.
So we'll see how it all goes but next week is gonna be a long one.

For todays selection, I bring you David Bowie and Bing Crosby-Peace on Earth and Little Drummer Boy. Don't be a dick, always right click.


*Todays title doesn't necessarily fit with todays mood. I'm just yanking lyrics out of songs.

December 13, 2004

Ya know, I moved to Florida for the healing properties of heat.

It was cold last night. Not like Maine freeze to death cold but cold enough that my arthritis in my hips flared up something awful and even though it has warmed up a bit today, the pain has not subsided one fucking iota.
And guess what?
Our lows at night this week go like this:
45,36,40,47,50,46,43.
No, it's not that cold but it's just cold enough to make the joints ache like someone is slowly sawing away at them with a hacksaw all night and day and doubling up on meds just makes the meds go faster and we can't have that problem.
Gah.
Heating pad, massaging, heated chair thing, and lots of blankets is how I'll be trying to cope with this week.
So look out ya'll, when I'm in pain, I get withdrawn and mean.
I just want to lay down and not move a single muscle.

But before I go lay back down and wallow in misery, I want to say thank you to Christine for the most awesome gift. Thank you so much. It's gorgeous and just right.
And I also got some beautiful cards from Kate and Solly.
Thank you.

You cookie thieves suck.

I went to get one of my moms cookies from the pretty xmas box I left on the table and all I found were crumbs and a few broken pieces.
Gee, thanks.
I had two containers of these cookies and one was totally scarfed down.
You couldn't leave me some?
Bah.
I then went to eat some of the honey roasted peanuts that I bought, the kids don't like them so I knew that I could have a snack all to myself.
Wrong.
I think there were five fucking peanuts left.
Guess I need to write shit on stuff now like This is Kats. Eat it and die.
The empenada and coke commercial is funny but I fucking hate it when people eat my stuff.

This has been a Kat has a serious fucking backache and is bitchy mean grinch woman today public service announcement.

Here we are as in olden days, Happy golden days of yore.

Good morning.
The kids are up and getting the finishing touches done on leaving for school.
Mark barfed.
Again.
In my kitchen sink.
It's my fault. I was peeing.
So I had to bleach out the sink at 6 o'clock in the morning.
What a fun way to wake up.
Not.
But he's going to school.
He can't miss more days. He'll fail. They fail for not being in school even if they have good grades so I'm sending him for that reason alone.
Gave him some money should he get sick and need to come home.The clinic will probably just send him home if he barfs at school again.
I know what you're thinking. Bad mommy. He barfed Kat, keep him home. What kind of mother are you?
I'm the kind of mother who watched him go to Mikeys sleepover birthday party fit as a fiddle.
I'm the kind of mother who watched him suck down hot wings yesterday afternoon like they were popsicles.
I'm the kind of mother who watched him play video games without nary a cough for five hours.
I'm the kind of mother who thinks he barfed on purpose to get out of something.
But he has a way to get home should he really truly be sick as a dog which I don't think he is because after I told him he was going anyway and that he would need to see the nurse before coming home and he absolutely couldn't miss anymore school, he seemed just peachy keen.
Like he hadn't thrown up at all.
Like he had been trying to yank my chain but failed.

Later days.

Don't be a dick, always right click or Santa will know and deduct a present.
Have yourself a merry little Christmas-Tori Amos

December 12, 2004

Been doing much of nothing today.

I did the errands, some general cleaning, a load of laundry and that's about it.
I have other wise been playing video games with the kids.
I really like The Urbz.
It's fun. Not at all like the Sims for PS2. There is no annoying "blue line". The loading times suck but it's fun and trying to get all the goals met so you can go here and there and get a good rep is addictive.
When I get that stupid usb cord, (mine is about 3 feet too short) I'm going to hook it up to the pc and see what all this Black Eyed Peas shit is about. I guess you can like download different music into the game and they are a featured artist or something.
Will figure it out eventually.
Later days.

Finished all the watches for the order.

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That was fun.
The colors are very simple but that is what was asked for. I like them and they look so good together, I put them all on to try them out and they looked like you could wear them that way all the time..lol
Mailing first thing in the morning.
Later days.

Went to home depot for a drain screen

and clog remover.
That bathroom sink is constantly getting clogged with hair and stuff and I keep plunging it but it needed a good cleaning and a new drain screen to catch all the hair and stuff.
Water goes right down now.
Went to the grocery store and got some soda, some dinner stuff for tonight, milk, the basics.
Now I' just have general cleaning to do like dishes and a load of laundry and then I can chill out for a bit.
Hope you're all having a good weekend.
Later days.

Sunday Sermon 14.


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December 11, 2004

Nothing much still.

I love quiet weekends.
The boys are gone for a sleepover for Mikeys birthday and ex-roommate is at work and I am going to go babysit my niece for a few hours.
I got nothing else to do.
Worked on some more jewelery today and basically was a lazy sloth after that.
Laying on the couch watching stupid movies.

I will be online tonight at sisters house.
She has a new wireless laptop for me to play with after the baby goes to sleep.
Her pc is still screwed. We are all hoping it can be fixed so we can do the pc swap she and I have been talking about for awhile.
It would benefit everyone seeing as how it would cost too much money to get the boys pc game ready again.

Well, that's really all from here for now. Need to get some movies ready to take with me so I won't be in total silence over there.
I refuse to watch a Very Brady Christmas ever again and that is all that is on tonight if you don't have cable and she doesn't have it either.
Later days.

Quiet morning.

Here's some pictures of the kitten.

Mike has a blog now. Go say hi.

December 10, 2004

To see what I have forseen.

Not much going on here tonight.
Watching Return of the Jedi. I love these movies. I'm such a Star Wars nerd. Love them. Even the silly cgi they added to the Jabba scenes. DVD is so good to these films.

The supplies for Jenni's watch order came today and I did two of them before my back quit after all the cleaning I did in the boys room.
I have all weekend to do the other two.
I also did all five pairs of earrings for Carrie's order. Just waiting on a few small charms to complete her order. If they get here tomorrow in the mail, I will be able to mail out both orders on Monday which will mean they will arrive in plenty of time for Christmas.

Momma cat and baby are doing great! She keeps moving her still though. All over that room. She can't make up her mind it seems.
The kittens eyes are opening and it's big! It's getting nice and healthy and is so cute. Will take an updated picture tomorrow when I have good light.

I guess that's all for now.
Later days.

The room is done man.

Just a few small things to put away like blankets. Basically fold them all and place them back on the top bunk for later use.
But I can see the floor, the books and games are straightened and 6 large bags of crap are gone.

Got some more of my bead supplies so I can get busy on those here after I take a little rest break.

Having a good day. Getting a lot done and just hanging out.
Mark's going to teach me how to play Battlefront later.
Cool.

I will divide and conquer.


This is the boys room.
It will be clean by the end of the day if it kills me.
I'm sick of looking at it and I'm sick of asking them to do it.
Today, I will do what my father did.
I will clean it for them and they will be mad.
Oh yes, they will.
Too bad.
It's a sty and I hate it.

Oh my love we've lived in troubled days, Oh my friend we have the strangest ways.

Sebastian is off to school and Mark is home. His stomach is still tight and sore and he still has a fever. I blame Amys' cooking.
Amy is his Big Georges fiancee. I talked about her cooking before.
She made spaghetti the other night and it had buffalo meat, pork and non-wheat pasta and again, alcohol.
Mark was fine until he went over there to eat and the next morning, pain and tears and a headache and a fever.
Bad pork maybe? It's happened to me before. Bad or under done pork has done me in a few times before. Doubled over in pain for days on end and a fever etc. I hope this clears up today. He's supposed to go to Mikeys birthday sleepover tomorrow.

Sebastian took Marks book project to school and a note for his teacher. Hopefully she'll accept it even though he's not there. He finished it and did a good job so I hope she takes it.

I don't have anywhere to go today and nothing much to do.
General cleaning which I may just blow off until tomorrow. I still ache but not as bad but I don't want to hurt myself again.

Here's todays song. Don't be a dick, always right click.
Queen-Thank God it's Christmas.

December 9, 2004

Video games and a galaxy far, far, away.

So Aunt Heathers xmas money showed up and we had decided to try and repair the boys pc with the funds. Get it a new video card and upgrade the memory so that games would play again but several tech guys at Best Buy said you can do all that but it only has a 444mhz processor so it's still going to have lots of problems.
Instead of wasting money for something that simply can't be fixed, I let them spend the money on whatever they wanted.
So Sebastian picked out Urbz: Sims in the City. Mark picked out Star Wars: Battlefront and they both picked out as a family gift, Star Wars Trilogy (Widescreen Edition).

We went even though Mark is still sick and I hurt like hell. I promised that as soon as Aunty Heathers money arrived, we would go and see about the pc but oh well. I'll figure something out with my pc so that Marks game can work.
I hate sharing but someone bought him a pc game for xmas so I can't very well not do it.

Ok, I need to get cracking on dinner.
Later days.

I'm back. I'm tired. I ache.

I posted elsewhere because I have been getting far too lax with that shit on here again and frankly, I don't want to go through all that bullshit type stuff again so it's over there.
I'm going to lay down and rest.
Mark still feels like hell.
What a team we make today huh?
Later days.

i'm sick of being sick and I'm sick of that too.

There is no song today. Not that I don't have one but because it took a real physical effort to get in this chair this morning and stuff is over there (points 3 feet across room to other pc with schtuff on it) and oh my gawd, I so hurt myself and it hurts to do anything.
And I need a shower.
And it hurts.
Owie mother fucker.
And Mark has a fever and a headache and a stomach ache.
Yay.
Just gonna be a fun day isn't it?
Later days.


Dimebag Darrell shot and killed onstage and others wounded and dead.

Thanks Tam for letting me know.

December 8, 2004

Urg. Argh.

Ok, so for some bizarre reason, these very strange names and email addresses were coming up in form memory. You know, click and your name appears?
So I went and cleared forms.
I am such a dumbass.
Now I have to go around to all the password protected sites and re-do everything. So if you see me in your stats doing stupid shit on the forms, now you know why.

Stick a fork in me, I am so done.

I over did it today.
I know, I know, I know, I shouldn't have but she really needed our help and we got it all done and then I came back here and just did my rugs and they looks smashing by the way, but yeah, I really cooked myself a good one this time.
Holding that damn button down for the soap thingy has flared up my fingers on my right hand and the dragging of the cleaner did in my back.
Crappers.
Good thing I go back to the doctors tomorrow eh?

We got a lot done though and I got some mail today.
Christine, you rock more than a simple thank you could suffice. My gift to you pales in comparison but it came from the heart and because I know how much you love that one thing so much. It isn't enough but it will have to do for now. I just have so much to do before Christmas with other jewelery orders that making special presents will have to be new year gifts...lol

I didn't get any of my bead supplies today but I did get a pretty card and gorgeous picture of Nathan from Robyn and Todd.
Thanks hun. I love it! I'm going to put it with my other picture of him. He's such a doll and have I got the girl for him...lol His big blues and her big blues and those gorgeous smiles they both have, man I see a future...lol

I am so frigging tired but I have some work to do still. Luckily, it's all online stuff and I can sit down for a bit with my back massager running easing out some kinks.
Later days.

Yay!

Ok, sis has the day off and she is going to give us a ride downtown to pay the phone bill and then drop us off at the docs.
When we get back to our side of town, we are going over to help her clean her house cuz she has company coming and she's going to pay us.
Very cool and then she's going to let me use the rug shampooer she's renting on my rugs since my shampooer went to appliance heaven last year.
It died after all those bathroom mishaps with water everywhere and I was using it to suck water out of my carpets for days on end.
It sucked.
What sucks even more is not having that rug shampooer in the house at my disposal all the time. I loved that thing.
Every month I did the rugs and it always looked so nice in here.
I have traffic stains now.
It sucks.
That rentable rug doctor better work good man. I'd hate for it to just move the stains around.

Hopefully, I will get some of the beading supplies in today so I can get cracking on my orders.
Thank you so much to those of you who ordered some.
It helped with xmas for the boys so much and I even was able to get a few small gifts for some extra close special friends.
It's like the least I could do ya know? I wish I could do more and send everyone a gift.
Someday, I will. Someday I'll win the lotto and buy everyone a new car...lol
No, I mean it. I will give back because if it wasn't for so many wonderful people, I can't really say where'd I'd be.
You all mean so much.
Today I am greatful for friends.

Ok, need to make sure I have everything I need including extra pills so that doing the house won't kill me. It's a small house so it shouldn't be too bad.
Later days.

I don't know if there'll be snow but have a cup of cheer.

Getting the kids up and ready to go to school. That silly momma cat has been moving the baby here and there all over the boys room. On top the bunk beds, below the bunk beds, in the toy box, in that toy box and then last night, she got back up on the bed and curled up with Sebastian and her baby. All 3 of them slept together.
Well at least the kitten will be used to people and kids and someone will get a nice kitty.
Jenni, how would we get it to Michigan? ...lol

Got to get myself up and ready for the docs and of course it figures that my hips are being uncooperative this morning. At least I'm headed to the docs right? Sheesh.

Ok, here are todays offerings. The Burl Ives classic, Holly Jolly Christmas and because I can't help myself with the funny stuff, South Park-O holy night zzzzap!

Don't be a dick, always right click. Santa still has time to scratch that [insert whatever your heart desires here] off your list and give you rocks.

December 7, 2004

Bubbles the Christmas kitty.

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This is Bubbles and I got her when she was a kitten right before Christmas one year and as you can see, she was a Christmas kitten.
She didn't just go in that nativity scene for that one picture,that was where she slept. She claimed that little manger as her very own and if you tried to take her out of it, she would get very angry and knock all the shepherds over and even go so far as to steal the baby Jesus.
My mom would get so upset.
Find that cat of yours!
She's off with the baby Jesus again!
So off I'd go hunting down Bubbles and I'd find her and the baby Jesus made of plastic with new teeth marks in it every time.
We finally just stopped bugging her about it and let her have the thing.
She would lay on top of all the figurines and be the happiest cat in the world.
I moved all the figurines out and placed them in front of it and she would lay inside of it but she would still knock stuff over when she felt the spirit mover her.

I don't know why I decided to scan all these Christmas pictures of years past but they are making me happy and I have such good memories.
But this is Bubbles the Christmas kitty, mother of Pixie, my sisters cat, who died last December of cancer.
I don't know why I felt like talking about them.

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Down thru' the chimney, with lots of toys,

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All for the little ones, Christmas joys.

I just wrapped some presents for the boys and stuck them under the tree.
Now that they are older and know the truth, torturing them for a few weeks is fun.
Stick wrapped stuff under the tree, they sit and stare, shake, poke, try to peel tape. They go nuts trying to figure stuff out. Heh heh.

It's been a quiet day. Tomorrow won't be. Off to the docs very early in the morning and then again on Thursday very early.
Oh well.

The mail came and I got a Christmas card from Cammie.
Thank you Cammie.

Later days.

I found out long ago it's a long way down the holiday road. Holiday roooaaad.

Yeah I totally love National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation and the song ain't half bad either. I actually love all the vacation movies. It's silly humor and family fun.
Holiday Road.
Don't be a dick, always right click.

The kids are off to school. Mark is starting to feel slowly better.
Today is another do stuff around the house day while I wait on supplies to do my orders.
I should do the floors...

Well, not much from here right now.
Later days.

December 6, 2004

Damn you KFC.

I hate prime time food commercials cuz then you get hungry for the stuff they are showing and man that KFC looked good so I called ex-roommate at work and told her boss that she needed to call me before she comes home because we decided we needed chicken in a bad way.
The store she works at makes awesome honey bbq chicken tenders better than KFC so I get my chicken anyway. Nah nah.

I just got another huge order for watches.
Oh my gawd.
I can do it.
I need a clear head though to organize and figure out colors etc and I'm too tired and silly from pain meds tonight to do that so in the morning I will organize and visualize and plan and get cracking on it.
I only have 14 days to make all of Carrie's order and now 5 watches.
I can do it. I will be shipping them out by priority when finished so they will get there in time for xmas.
I'm excited though.
I love making watches.
I learn new ways to twist the wires around and stuff so that they look cool. Smaller disc sized beads don't do well with twisting so I had to make Christines watch (last blue set at the bottom) in a single strand but it had good weight to it so I was confident it would hold up well and not roll around too much on the wrist.
I look forward to getting to make 5 very different watches. I love making jewelry. It's very soothing and therapeutic.

Ok, all for now.
I'm waiting on chicken fingers (I know it's late but I'm hungry and well, I don't care if I'm eating late. You only live once and I can drop weight in a flash if I need to and not that I need to cuz I'm not overweight right now just broken.)
Watching the Di interviews cuz I love gossip and gossip from the grave rocks.

Oh the secrets I could whisper from beyond.
Later days.

I got the music in me. I got the music in me.

But they are gone from the blog.
I'll post a new one tomorrow.

Go have a look at Jennies' new design for Christmas.
Don't cheat and scroll down to see what I saw, just look at it really closely and tell me if you see the cute funny thing.

I got Carries' charms in the mail today so I can get working on her stuff by midweek.
It should all turn out good. I love the charms she found on ebay. Winged horses. Very cool indeed.

Not much else going on around here.
Starting to wind down and get sleepy.
Later days.

Jack be nimble Jack be quick. Take a ride on a west coast kick. Holiday rooooaaad.

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Today was a snail mail day!
Woo hoo!!
Let's see, ex-roommate got me a new bra from Amazon cuz I'm a mom and moms won't buy themselves new bras until we have to as in like it fell apart completely and safety pins just won't do the trick anymore. Hey, the house needs stuff like cat food and litter and toilet paper. There is no extra $30 for bras people.
Thanks ex-roommate.

Um, Karen sent me the most beautiful amethyst jewelry box for Christmas. I opened it. I can't wait...lol
Thank you so much Karen. It is gorgeous! I love it. It is just right for all my rings.

I also got an xmas card from her and also one from Terry and I forgot to mention that I got one from Statia and her meester and the big G on Saturday.
Thank you all.
I love xmas cards!!

Now off to the post office to mail a gift back cuz ex-roommates mom actually got her something that she wanted which is like rare I guess and it turns out it was the same gift I got her. Dammit. It showed up Saturday and she already opened her moms stuff so I have to send mine back. *sigh* And I need to mail the Davinci code to Mj because I forgot to do it last week. Sorry girl.

Ok, I'm off.
Later days.

Are you hanging up your stockings on the wall?*

The kids are off to school and Mark is still sick.
He was sent home on Thursday because he was sick and I let him stay home Friday and he was sick all weekend but he can't miss so much school so I gave him a dose of Dayquil and some Advil and bag of cough drops and sent him off.
Hope he survives the day.

Not too much going on here today. Not yet anyway. It's early still and nothing much has happened since last night.
I have posted some Christmas mp3s one in this post and three below. Get them today cuz I'll be taking them all down later.
I figure I'll post a Christmas song everyday until Christmas.
I'm making a huge cd of nothing but Christmas songs. Funny, traditional, carols, varying versions of songs by many different artists. I love hearing how people do them and I even have a few country versions of stuff.
I love Christmas just as much if not more than Halloween so grab these songs and have some music to get you in the holiday spirit.

Please keep my cousin and all the servicemen and women in Fallujah in your thoughts as it is still not safe over there.

Later days.

*Merry Christmas Everybody

December 5, 2004

Music to wrap by.

I wanted to share with you the version of Ave Maria that made me cry the other day. I know, silly but it's beautiful.
Chris Cornell and Soundgarden, Ave Maria
Also, Sex Pistols - Punk Rock Christmas and cuz I love you, Christmas Songs-John Denver & Muppets - 12 Days of Christmas.

Don't be a dick this christmas. Right click and save as or Santa's gonna give you lots of underwear and socks.

Ave Maria! Maiden mild!
O listen to a maiden's prayer!
For thou canst hear amid the wild
( For thou canst hear though from the wild)
Tis thou, tis thou canst save amid despair.
We slumber safely 'til the morrow,
(Safe may we sleep beneath thy care,)
Tho' we, by men, outcast, reviled;
(Tho' banish'd, outcast, and reviled;)
O maiden! See a maiden's sorrow -
O mother, hear a suppliant child!
Ave Maria!

Ave Maria! Undefiled!
The flinty couch whereon we're sleeping
(The flinty couch we now must share)
Shall seem with down of eider piled,
If thou above, sweet, watch our keeping
(If thy protection hover there.)
The murky cavern's air's so heavy
(The murky cavern's heavy air)
Shall breathe of balm if thou hast smiled;
O maiden! Hear a maiden's pleading!
(Then, Maiden! hear a maiden's prayer;)
O mother, hear a suppliant child!
Ave Maria!

Ave Maria! Stainless styled!
O fiends of air and earth the essence
(Foul demons of the earth and air)
From this their wonted haunt exiled
Shall flee before thy holy presence
(Shall fee before thy presence fair)

We bow beneath our care so laden
(We bow us to our lot of care)
To thy dear guidance reconciled;
(Beneath thy guidance reconciled;)
Then hear, O maiden, simple maiden!
(Hear for a maid, a maiden's prayer;)
And for a father hear a child!
Ave Maria!

Long day. Didn't accomplish much.

I did the dishes and laundry. Didn't do the rugs. Oh well.
I went in search of a 3 paneled display board for Sebastians project at school and couldn't find one. Looks like I'm headed to office depot this week before Wednesday.
*sigh*
I decorated for Christmas.
It's homey and cute and it's ours.
Martha would be oh so mad if she ever came here...lol
She'd probably pass out from the non-matchingness of it all.

Making chicken Alfredo and pasta with bread sticks for dinner.
So simple.
What are you having?

1 jar of Ragu parmesean and garlic Alfredo sauce.
1 lb of cut up into bite sized chicken pieces.
4 cups of pasta like rotini or penne.

Cook chicken until done in skillet.
Cook pasta until done, about 8 minutes.
Mix chicken, pasta and sauce until well mixed and warm and serve with bread sticks.

Today I stay home and take care of this house.

The house got away from me for the last two days.
I have been busy so it got dirty and quick.
The floors, the dishes, the laundry, sheesh, it just grew like a fungus all around the house.
So today I clean and lay around. Not going anywhere. No. Nuh uh. You can't make me. The house and the couch are feeling neglected by me...lol

I wrote all the rest of my xmas cards last night after the baby went to bed. Go those done and I can mail them all out Monday.
Is it tacky to display your received xmas cards around the house?
I always thought it was pretty and a sign that you are loved but I guess some people think it's bragging and tacky. Do you display yours and is it bragging?
I love to hang them up all over the walls. They are always so pretty and it's fun. The boys come home from school and go "oooh, a new one. Where is it from? Who sent it?"
I have so many friends across the country and the world now, that they could be from anywhere and the boys just love that and so do I.
Tacky be damned. I ain't no Martha Stewart and never will be. I am hodge podge. I am mis-match. I am fun and comfy house and if xmas cards on the walls are tacky, I am tacky now too.

I watched Helter Skelter (Director's Cut) and Adam Sandler's Eight Crazy Nights.
Neither are suitable for kids but I let the boys watch eight crazy nights last year and will again this year. It's funny and I always watch movies with them anyway. I don't know why amazon says you can't get it until dec. 21st. It's out on dvd right now. Maybe back orders? :/

Helter skelter was good. Not great but good. The star, Jeremy Davies does an amazing job. I hadn't remembered seeing him in much more than Twister and Saving Private Ryan so I was like I know that guy. Oh my god! It's the little guy from Twister with the maps! He did great. I was creeped out by him. I guess this was a made for tv movie but I must have missed it. The directors cut is bloody and gorey and I didn't watch all the features yet, will later on today, are supposed to be pretty bad as in graphic.
I know, I'm so morbid but I think if we're going to do movies of murders and try to tell the truth, then we should tell the truth and show the murders etc. I know, tv, blah blah blah but if they aren't going to do it right, they shouldn't do it at all. Leave it to cable if it's going to be all sanitary and smelling pretty for tv.

Ok, I have rambled on long enough I think. Will be back around.
Later days.

December 4, 2004

Outta here for the night.

I'm off to babysit in a bit here and I won't be able to blog or chat, sisters computer is still broken so it's going to be a long night.
Well, at least I'll get the rest of my xmas cards done.
First batch went out today.
Going to rent two movies to watch with my babysitting money because she doesn't have cable either and no net and no cable makes for a very loooong night.
Will check in with everyone when I get home or tomorrow which is going to be my go nowhere day.
I don't care what's going on, I'm not budging.
Hope you all are having a good weekend so far.
Later days.

Oh what a night.

Late last night I was bored to tears.
My sisters computer is dead I fear

So I went to babysit and her computer is booting, monitor comes on and says check cables. So we check cables.
No.
I open her up and dust the hell out of it, something was loose so I tighten it and close it back up.
Reboot.
No. Check cables and cords.
I did. I quit. I really have lost my patience with them after my several days long experience trying to fix the boys.

So instead of playing online and blogging, I wrote out Christmas cards.
I bought a big box and I'm about 10 short. Now I have to get more and I just know that they aren't going to have anymore of that design. I shoulda got two. I knew it and said nah, this is enough.
Pffft.
So later I'm off to the store for more cards and then to babysit again later.

It was loud when I came home from sitting.
Mikey slept over and they were still up playing at midnight and then they needed things, lost things, needed to make and eat things and the noise drove me insane. I yelled.
I ain't proud but dammit, they had all night while I was gone to make noise and eat and get messy and sloppy and look for shit but they chose to do it all when I got home and was dead tired and sore cuz I forgot my pills at home. (sticking them in my purse tonight)
Sorry all peeps who live with me and who slept here last night. It wasn't a full on banshee yell but it was a good enough what the fuck are you people doing at midnight bitch fest to send people scurrying.

Ok, that's all for now. Need to find food and stuff and then get moving on stuff if I can.
It got colder last night and it's gonna be like 48 tonight.
Need to close the windows. Other people in the house think it's cold.
Florida transplants? I have been down here 7 years now. When am I going to start feeling the cold? ;)
Later days.

December 3, 2004

Concerning news.

My cousin Chris has now been moved into Fallujah and his tour has been extended until March.
Please keep him in your thoughts.

Here is a pic of our baby.

She had it on Sebastians bed and there she stays. She only takes the baby under the bed when she has to use the litter box or eat and then it's right back up there.
It's small and gray and looks like a boy.

I just made myself all weepy.
I was listening to Chris Cornell sing Ave Maria and I heard some good news and added it to my sisters good news that I can't share yet and let's just say, I was a weepy mess a few minutes ago and so utterly happy for all of the people involved.
And yes, Ave maria when sung correctly, makes me cry anyway.

Long achey day so far.

It's got a bit of a chill in the air here so I'm achy.
Not so bad, the meds do help take the edge off of it.

Mark and I went to the store and got everything we needed. Cold medicines, shampoo, cat food, soap etc, a little bit of food.
We came home and I fell asleep for a bit until now. heh heh.

Going to babysit for my sister tonight, make a little cash. Christmas is coming. I'll babysit until the cows come home to make it a good one or even halfway decent for the boys.
Have a big jewelery order coming up as soon as I get all the colors requested. That will help too.
Speaking of jewelery, my mom sent home with my sis, a few bracelets she found for Christmas with great charms and beads on them but they are on that elastic string. As convenient as elastic bracelets are to slide on and off, the elastic will break after awhile and I hate that so I'm going to transfer the really pretty ones over to wire and lobster claws and then make new stuff with the charms from the other bracelets.
Thanks mom.
Oh yeah mom, ex-roommate ate a whole tub of those cookies herself. She asked if you put something special* in them....lol She chowed the whole tub!

I need to go dig something out of my closet for my sister and then get started making the unfried chicken early because we won't be here to make and eat dinner so we'll eat early before we go to sisters house.

The Baycare Homecare update.
The manager of Baycare was shocked (!) that one of her employees spoke to a total stranger that way and asked how I found out who she worked for. I told her the whole story and said Mr. S---- is none too happy with her service either. You may want to check into that as well as her nasty mouth.
Google that Nurse Donna bitch.
It's one thing to be treated shitty by someone you asked to provide a service for you, it's another entirely to be treated that way by a company that people never even heard of before.
I hate bad customer service to begin with and this just pissed me off. Should you ever need a home health nurse in Florida, be careful of Baycare Homecare.

*My mom would never put anything "special" in anything. It's a joke.

Good morning world.

I slept like hell last night mainly because momma cat was meowing for someone to sleep with her.
If I laid down with her, she was cool. The minute I left and tried to go to bed, she came in my room, meowed as loud as she could and didn't shut up until I went onto Sebastians bed and laid down.
I've been having Sebastian sleep on the couch since the kitten was born because most momma cats want to be left alone with their babies and not have anyone bothering them. Not her. "Pet me, lay with me, rub my belly, look at my baby, pet me again."
I was finally able to go to my own room around 1:30

Mark is home sick today. He has a deep cough and sneezing and a slight fever. So in a few minutes, we are headed down to Publix to get some cold medicine after I wait for Baycare nurses to open up.

Last night, the phone rings and ex-roommate answers,
ex-roommate: Hello?
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: This is your nurse.
ex-roommate: May I help you?
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: This is your nurse calling.
ex-roommate: I think you may have the wrong number.
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: I do not! I am calling 941-922----!!!!!
ex-roommate: You have the wrong number. You called 941-922----. I'm sorry.
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: *CLICK*!!!

Phone rings I answer,
Me: Hello?
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: This is your nurse.
Me: Ma'am, you have dialed the wrong number. I'm very sorry. But if you would please not yell at strangers you call on the phone when it's your mistake and not offer that stranger any information at all other than this is your nurse, cuz we all have doctors too and maybe we're waiting on test results and you're yelling and not telling us anything other than this is your nurse, we'd all appreciate it.
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: I can't give you any information because YOU! are not my patient! Do you understand?!
Me: I do understand but you're yelling at total strangers like it's our fault that you can't dial a phone.
Bitchy nurse woman named Donna: What the hell is the matter with YOU?! You afraid I'm your husbands girlfriend calling???!!! *CLICK*!
Me: Oh no she didn't just say that and then hang up.
Bitch. Hey, ex-roommate, what number did she give you? I'm gonna call it and see who this fucking bitch works for and fuck her up in the morning.
Nurse my ass. What kind of nurse calls people and talks to them like that? God damn fucking bitch just said that shit to me. *grumble grumble dialing numbers*
Strange old man: Hello?
Me: Sir, I hate to bother you. My name is Kat Cooper and I just received a call from someone who may have been trying to reach you and she was extremely rude. Do you have a home health nurse?
Strange old man: Yes I do. Donna is her name and she was yelling at me on the phone. I have been having trouble with home nurses for some time now. What did she say to you?
Me: *repeats what she said and asks for her employers name*
Strange old man: Oh my. That is awful. All because she dialed the wrong number?
Me: Yes sir and I am so sorry to bother you but if she truly is a nurse, she is extremely unprofessional and if she' talking to people like that on the phone, then I would hate to think how she treats her patients in person.
Strange old man: Here you go sweetie. *gives me the name and the number for Baycare home health care*
Me: Thank you so much. I'm sorry to bother you. Have a good night sir.
Strange old man: You too dear. Give her hell.

I can call at 8am.
Oh look, it's past 8.
Bitch is going down.

December 2, 2004

We got to go in early because they had some openings.

There are no more babies inside of her but she has an infection in her uterus and needed to have a shot of anti-biotic and then take pills twice a day for 1 week and then I have to bring her back to be spayed right away because of the infection in her uterus. It would be dangerous to let her have anymore babies. She also needs to have all kinds of shots and tests and de-worming because none of us know what she had if anything at all before she became a stray.
Todays visit was $155 and we're looking at more.
Pet Placement said they may be able to help with the spay but not the shots.
Through all your help + Sebastians money, we raised $245 so we have $90 left for shots and tests when we have to go back in a week. I am hoping PP can do the spay. They said they will call the vet and let him know and he will call me.
Thank you all so much.
Momma and baby are now back at home resting on Sebastians bed and baby blanket where she had them after being stuck with a needle and a thermometer up her bum and being weighed and stuff. She was none too happy.
But it's a good thing we got her there when we did because the infection in her uterus would have surely killed her. He said within a month she would have become very ill and then died a painful death.
So thank you all very much for caring about her and helping us get her taken care of right away.

Sebastian says thank you to all of you who helped and sent good wishes for her.

Just an update.

My sister has taken baby Susan to her doctors appointment in St. Pete and as soon as she gets back, we will be taking the cat to the vet to be looked at.
Thank you all so much for helping so fast because now I don't have to worry about crushing Sebastian. That was like my biggest thing. He was just inconsolable and then I did what every parent should never do but we always do, I made a promise to find a way and make it all better.
One of these days, in one of those super mom make it all better moments, I am going to promise something that I won't be able to do and he'll need therapy or remind every year when he comes home for holidays with his wife and kids.
"See dear wife, my mother once promised me that she would [insert whatever here] and she didn't do it. She couldn't do it and although I don't blame her, it is the sole reason I was such a fuck up for so many years."

So thank you all again so much for coming through in such a flash.
After we take her to the vet and find out what's up, I will let you all know.

Thank you.

Thank you everyone who sent in to help and to Jenni and Scott. She's going to be ok.
We are taking her to the vet this afternoon and hopefully, she just had the one and won't need any surgery at all.
Just being careful with her.
Have some calls to make as soon as places open up this morning.
Will keep you posted.
Thank you.

December 1, 2004

I'm going to ask for help and I don't care who gets mad at me.

The cat has not expelled anything else from her body.
I have to wait until 48 hours has passed which will be tomorrow at 3:30 and if she has not expelled any dead kittens or sacs or whatever, I have to get her to a vet or she could die if there are dead kittens inside of her.
I do not have the money to save her life.
I made several phone calls today and the cheapest vet I found wants $140 for an office visit and an xray to see if there are dead kittens inside of her and then more if they have to remove them.
The boys have fallen in love with this cat since we took her in and when I told Sebastian that I would have to take her and drop her off at the humane society to save her life, it devastated him. He cried and screamed and told me to to take his $50 that his nana and pop pop gave him for Christmas to save her so he can keep her.
This cat loves him and sleeps with him and this would crush him.
I know pets die. It happens. It's a part of growing up but maybe it doesn't have to happen to him just yet.
If you want to or can help us with the vet bill, even just a buck, please help us save her and get her looked at at least.
Maybe she only had the one, we don't know. I can't tell and the only way to know is to get her to a vet.
If you can spare a buck or two, please help.

Heh heh.

I just won tickets to the monster truck show.
Do I like big trucks?
No.
Do the boys?
No.
Why did I win then?
Cuz I can't help myself everytime Daytime on NBC does their silly 8th caller shit and I call in like a freak and I actually won just now....lmao
Crap.
Now, what to do with the tickets cuz I can't get there anyway. Hrm.

Yay, December 1st. Whatever.

No change from last nights pity fest.
Sore as all hell this morning.
Kids are off to school in a few, cat still hasn't had anymore.
Couch is calling my name.
Kat, Kat, come here. Comfy. Warm. Soooothing.
So I will go because it calls me.
Later days.