My Single Mom Life

I just ordered my amazon stuff on the 25th late at night and it showed up today! yay!
My moms film, Sebastians birthday present, shhh it's hidden.
And my 10 pack of vac bags.
I ordered a 10 pack because I'm an obsessive cleaner and they were 10 for $7.99 which is a way better bargain than the $4.99 for 2 I was paying at the hardware store which was the only place in SRQ that carried my vacs actual bags.
When generic vac bags say they fit your Dirt Devil D vac, they are full of shit. They are either too small or the opening is in the wrong place. I modified with duct tape too many cheapo bags. So I have real bags at a cheaper price and my floors are clean.
I know I said I wasn't going to clean anything today but I am antsy as well as sore and I can't help it.

I need to do the bathroom in a bit here. Two boys are really gross. That hole is huge, how the hell do boys miss all the time?
Or! Oh my god, I hate this, they piss with the seat down, get pee all over the seat and then close the lid. No flushing either.
So you go in, open the lid, there's piss on the lid, seat and a whole bowl full of it.
I hate it!!
I always yell at them, "whoever was the last one in here better get that little tinkle machine of theirs back in here and clean this up!"
9 times outta 10, it's Sebastian.
And he laughs.
Stinkerbutt.

Ok so Karri, your jewelery is going out tomorrow morning priority mail. Mom and dad, your film is gonna have to wait until Tuesday cuz I have mega stuff to do this weekend to get ready for Georges wedding and stuff. Jenni, I'll get your ring to you on Tuesday too.
I'm like frantic thinking about the wedding.
I have to go pay the elec bill on Tuesday morning, take the kids to the dentist again at 1:30 Tuesday, go to Bed bath and Beyond and get Amy and George some kind of present. Luckily they registered there and the stuff they put on their list isn't that expensive so I can get them a gift. They have been so awesome to Mark and me. I can't even tell you. Mark is becoming a good young man because of me and because of George. Big Brothers is a great program people. If you're a man and you can spare a few hours a week, please do this. It makes a huge difference.
Ok, off track there. I need to buy a cheap disposable camera for the wedding. I was going to use my sisters digital but she hasn't spoken to me in a few weeks and that's fine. Be mad. Feel sorry for my kids. Whatever. My kids are awesome. They are smart and funny and polite and kind and generous and caring and so no matter how much members of my family think I'm a fuck up and a shitty mom, my kids prove otherwise so there.
Bitter much Kat? You betcha. I'm so tired of people hanging onto old things I did in my past. I am not that person anymore and we all make mistakes but it seems I'm the only one who those mistakes are the be all end all in my family.
It doesn't matter one fucking bit what anyone else has done, oh hell no, only me. I am the fuck up in the family and certain members will never ever let me live those mistakes down even if the shit they did is 10 times bigger than what I have ever done right bro?

Man, this started off in happy direction and went south. I have issues as you can see and sometimes they bubble and surface and burn at my soul.