My Single Mom Life

Man, it really really really sucks having to do all that shopping after a full day of docs and buses.
Grr.
And of course having the boys with me just made it so much more fun. Can we have this? How about this? This? OOhh, mom, please can we have this!
Ugh.

But it's all done now and put away and I'm ready for bed...lol
Oh my god am I sore. That damn Demerol does not last long enough. They should really just start giving me the morphine lollipops and have it over with. By the time I get home from the docs, I need another shot in the ass or else I end up doubling up on meds and then run out too soon at the end of the month.
Funny, the med students, they were gonna give me xanax cuz they were concerned about me.
My blood pressure was up a bit and I was agitated because I had a 10:15 appointment and I sat there until noon. Yay!
They were concerned cuz I was snappy.
I was snappy because this is now the third doc visit in a row where I have been promised they would fax the insurance company permission/request for me to go to Miami and they haven't done it yet and then I have to get poked and prodded and answer the same damn questions I always do when the doc who has been treating me for a year is standing right there and stays quiet.
I know I know, these students have to learn and what better patient than me right? But damn it, on days I'm coming in, here's my suggestion, sit the damn students down, hand 'em my file, tell them to read it and tell them to be ready for me...lmao
It is so frustrating to have to sit there while they ooh and ahh over a file so thick it shames war and peace.
So they asked me if I wanted xanax. I said don't you all think I take enough drugs here?
Well ma'am, those are for pain. Yes I know but every time I come in, you give me 5 more months of refills, another shot in the ass of whatever happy little drug you feel like sticking me with so you feel better about sending me home cuz there's nothing you can do for me.
But ma'am, you seem stressed.
Yes, I am stressed, you make me sit here and wait, then you make me sit here and play 100 questions with med students and then you make me sit here and wait while they try and play catch up with my medical history. Of course I'm stressed! By the time I get out of here, it's gonna be 1pm or so, I will have to wait 45 minutes in boiling hot sun for a bus and then take another bus and then walk home and then I have to go shopping for 2 hungry teens who are making me batty!
So do you want the xanax?
NO!
Ok, we'll be right back with the Demerol and your paperwork and you can leave.
Grr.
And guess what? I get to go back and play with some new med students on the 13th of july! Yippee fucking skippy!

Ok, my dinner smells cooked so I'm gonna eat, grab my headphones and lay down for awhile and hope the twitching stops.
Later days.