My Single Mom Life

The entry below has absolutely nothing at all to do with that site.
I actually resigned sometime last week.
I was an inactive member for quite sometime.
Like months.
I checked it everyday as part of the job I agreed to do but was no longer posting as a happy member.
What you read below has nothing at all to do with that so it doesn't matter if H is back or not.
I left, checked out of that site mentally months ago.
If you are looking to stir the pot, go right ahead and stir it but how about an actual email address I can correspond privately with you.

Sincerely,
Kat

Posted by Kat at 9:12 PM | Permalink | Comments (5)

Remember back in the day when I wrote whatever I wanted to write and didn't fucking care?
I wish I still felt like I had the same freedom to do that now.
I wish I was that same person again.
No, I haven't changed. Not willingly anyway.
I feel stifled and silent and out of place and lost and horribly sad.
You can't even imagine how sad I am right now.
I am on the verge of tears 24/7 these days for a multitude of reasons.
Oh how I wish I could just be myself and speak freely.

I don't even know how to explain this properly.
I don't know how to make people understand me.
I don't know how to help people see that it's not one way or the highway and that you can't treat people like shit and call yourself a good person.

I want to be my old self again.
The girl who didn't give a fuck about anything or anyone and just laid it all out and didn't fucking care.
I didn't invest myself or my emotions into anything or anyone.
I couldn't be hurt that way.
I am not ok.

You can't even imagine how hurt I am right now and yes, it's silly.
It's a silly fucking reason to be hurt but I gave of myself and my time and to have someone be such an asshole when I allowed myself to like people, when I allowed myself to be a part of something bigger than myself, when I allowed people to know me, the real me, and shared things, I am hurt and not ok.

I need to let this anger and pain go.
I need to go back to not giving a flying fuck about people.
How do I explain this?
How do I explain what I am dealing with so you can understand that you don't treat people this way?
That you don't ask something of them and then not show them some small amount of courtesy in exchange?
Some amount of respect that you have given to them?

I am angry and hurt and I want my old non-caring self back as soon as possible.
I don't like this.
I don't like being this way.
It brings up too much old junk that I threw away years ago but the garbage man just brought it all back.

I used to be controlled. My words, my actions, my life. It was controlled and painful and here I am, being stifled and feeling used.
I am so not ok.

It took me years to be ok. Years. Years to find out who I was and let myself be that person.
I had to break old habits and old ways of thinking. I had to relearn who I was.
This control shit has got me all turned around and upside down and I'm having the most horrible nightmares and looking over my shoulder.
This is not ok. It's not ok.
It's not physical control. It's called conversational terrorism. It's controlling people through speaking.
It's talking down to them and making them feel less than they are worth, stupid, demeaned.
Constructive criticism I can handle but dominance through speaking is not ok.

So many people shrug this kind of shit off and say well that's the way that person is and you just have to let it slide.
How can you let demeaning talk go?
How can you let someone speak to you that way?
Laugh it off, shrug it off, however you let it slide, but no, I did that for years.
I allowed myself to be spoken to in ways no person should be spoken to.
I allowed myself to be controlled and hurt and I can't do that anymore.
It's not good for me.
It's not something I can emotionally do.
I want to run away and hide and shelter myself and protect what is left of me.
Fight or flight and I'm about to fly.
I'm so close to just withdrawing and secluding myself again.
No pain when you do that.
You can't be hurt if you don't put yourself out there.

I have so much I could give, you don't even know. I am over flowing with emotions right now. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face and it's stupid!
I shouldn't be this upset over something so stupid!
I'm so angry at myself for being this upset.
I'm angry at myself for caring about anything at all especially this shit!
It's so stupid!
I felt like I belonged, like people had finally accepted me, it's not that way at all.
I can bend, I did bend, but I was asked to bend more and when I did, I lost myself for a feeling of belonging and that was dumb because anyone that asks you to change at all never really accepted you to begin with and eventually, they ask for more.

I know none of this makes much sense at all. I know I'm just rambling here and I'm sorry.
I just had to get this out, it was eating at me so bad you don't even know.
I'm just gonna shut off for awhile. I'm not gonna give anymore of myself to anyone. I can't do this.

Posted by Kat at 3:04 PM | Permalink | Comments (4)

for a bit.
A bit, ha! To do one thing I am gone half the damn day.
Oh fucking well.
I'm not leaving for awhile though, not a rush on these as long as they get there.
Probably leave around 8 or 9. I think.
My weekend plans are not going like I wanted them to and actually, that's ok.
I think I need to just stay home and be as lazy as possible.
As much as I have fun (or try to) when I go out, I think I need to just pull back a bit.
Certain persons are taking my have fun attitude all the wrong way and believe me, I do not mean to be giving off that vibe so I'll stay home in my jammies and just watch tv and play on line.
I have stuff to do tomorrow afternoon which will be fun anyway. I don't need to be running around every weekend.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 6:09 AM | Permalink | Comments (3)

I spend all my time sleeping or goofing off. I do the occasional work when I feel like it but really, I am goofing off.

I've come to this point in my life where I have realized how absolutely unhappy I am.
Like not depressed but just unhappy.
Unhappy with how my life is, unhappy with my lack of a love life, unhappy with money, unhappy with everything in general.
Even the smallest things used to make me smile in some way but now, practically nothing does.
I may laugh at the occasional joke someone says or some witty remark but most of the time, I am staring daggers at everything.
My sink is full of dishes, my laundry isn't folded, my mail is piling up.
My emails are piling up.
That's bad.
If I owe you a reply, chock it up to me being dissatisfied with everything.
My blogs are shit.
I just don't feel like writing.
I could though.
I have been having some of the most fucked up dreams/nightmares you could possibly imagine.
I wake up in cold sweats going what the fuck was that shit?
Take today for example, I took a mid-morning nap cuz I was bored to death and woke up cuz I had a dream I went to some bar to meet up with everyone and I was completely shit faced when I got there.
Bottle of vodka still in hand and someone touched my shoulder, I yanked a gun (!) out of my purse and started rambling on and on about how much I hate people and then shot myself.
In the stomach.

I woke up weirded out not sure what to make of the whole thing.
The other day, same kind of fucked up dream but it was getting the shit kicked out of me.

Perhaps it's time to change meds. I think these are having some sort of residual effect on my head.
That, and how unhappy I am I'm sure is playing a big role.

You ever meet people who accept you as is at first and then slowly ask you to change for their benefit?
I am who I am and if you don't like it, I can compromise a little bit but not a whole lot.
Changing completely changes my outlook and I go from being a happy bitch to a completely irritated, sad individual.
I am sad I am not accepted as I am.
I am sad that who I am is not who people want me to be.
I was going along just fine until a week ago and now, not so well.
I feel like I'm walking on egg shells with some people and only truly allowed to be myself with a few others.

But what can ya do?
Not a damn thing.

Posted by Kat at 6:19 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)

Right as I was about to drift off to sleep after along day of not knowing which end was up, boom, no power.
So I got up and stumbled around in the dark, found my lighter, found the flaslight and then the power came back on.
FPL sucks ass.

Posted by Kat at 12:30 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

Private non-comment modded entry is up.
I am such a fucking girl.
Shoot me now.

Posted by Kat at 1:11 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

My dsl was down this morning.
That truly sucked.
I thought I was in for the same shit they did to me in January and February.
But it came back.
I almost started crying.

But anyway, so far today is going good.
Just playing around on the net, goofing off.
Be back later if anything interesting happens.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 9:03 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

As usual, here is my list of banned/challenged books read.

1.Scary Stories (Series) by Alvin Schwartz
2.Daddy’s Roommate by Michael Willhoite
I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou
3.The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier
4.The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
5.Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
6.Harry Potter (Series) by J.K. Rowling
7.Forever by Judy Blume
8.Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Paterson
9.Alice (Series) by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
10.Heather Has Two Mommies by Leslea Newman
11.My Brother Sam is Dead by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier
12.The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
13.The Giver by Lois Lowry
14.It’s Perfectly Normal by Robie Harris
15.Goosebumps (Series) by R.L. Stine
16.A Day No Pigs Would Dieby Robert Newton Peck
17.The Color Purple by Alice Walker
18.Sex by Madonna
19.Earth’s Children (Series) by Jean M. Auel
20.The Great Gilly Hopkins by Katherine Paterson
21.A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle
22.Go Ask Alice by Anonymous
23.Fallen Angels by Walter Dean Myers
24.In the Night Kitchen by Maurice Sendak
25.The Stupids (Series) by Harry Allard
26.The Witches by Roald Dahl
27.The New Joy of Gay Sex by Charles Silverstein
28.Anastasia Krupnik (Series) by Lois Lowry
29.The Goats by Brock Cole
30.Kaffir Boy by Mark Mathabane
31.Blubber by Judy Blume
32.Killing Mr. Griffin by Lois Duncan
33.Halloween ABC by Eve Merriam
34.We All Fall Down by Robert Cormier
35.Final Exit by Derek Humphry
36.The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood
37.Julie of the Wolves by Jean Craighead George
38.The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
39.What’s Happening to my Body? Book for Girls: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Daughters by Lynda Madaras
40.To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
41.Beloved by Toni Morrison
42.The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton
43.The Pigman by Paul Zindel
44.Bumps in the Night by Harry Allard
45.Deenie by Judy Blume
46.Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
47.Annie on my Mind by Nancy Garden
48.The Boy Who Lost His Face by Louis Sachar
49.Cross Your Fingers, Spit in Your Hat by Alvin Schwartz
50.A Light in the Attic by Shel Silverstein
51.Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
52.Sleeping Beauty Trilogy by A.N. Roquelaure (Anne Rice)
53.Asking About Sex and Growing Up by Joanna Cole
54.Cujo by Stephen King
55.James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl
56.The Anarchist Cookbook by William Powell
57.Boys and Sex by Wardell Pomeroy
58.Ordinary People by Judith Guest
59.American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis
60.What’s Happening to my Body? Book for Boys: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Sons by Lynda Madaras
61.Are You There, God? It’s Me, Margaret by Judy Blume
62.Crazy Lady by Jane Conly
63.Athletic Shorts by Chris Crutcher
64.Fade by Robert Cormier
65.Guess What? by Mem Fox
66.The House of Spirits by Isabel Allende
67.The Face on the Milk Carton by Caroline Cooney
68.Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
69.Lord of the Flies by William Golding
70.Native Son by Richard Wright
71.Women on Top: How Real Life Has Changed Women’s Fantasies by Nancy Friday
72.Curses, Hexes and Spells by Daniel Cohen
73.Jack by A.M. Homes
74.Bless Me, Ultima by Rudolfo A. Anaya
75.Where Did I Come From? by Peter Mayle
76.Carrie by Stephen King
77.Tiger Eyes by Judy Blume
78.On My Honor by Marion Dane Bauer
79.Arizona Kid by Ron Koertge
80.Family Secrets by Norma Klein
81.Mommy Laid An Egg by Babette Cole
82.The Dead Zone by Stephen King
83.The Adventures of Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain
84.Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison
85.Always Running by Luis Rodriguez
86.Private Parts by Howard Stern
87.Where’s Waldo? by Martin Hanford
88.Summer of My German Soldier by Bette Greene
89.Little Black Sambo by Helen Bannerman
90.Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett
91.Running Loose by Chris Crutcher
92.Sex Education by Jenny Davis
93.The Drowning of Stephen Jones by Bette Greene
94.Girls and Sex by Wardell Pomeroy
95.How to Eat Fried Worms by Thomas Rockwell
96.View from the Cherry Tree by Willo Davis Roberts
97.The Headless Cupid by Zilpha Keatley Snyder
98.The Terrorist by Caroline Cooney
99.Jump Ship to Freedom by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier

Posted by Kat at 8:39 PM | Permalink | Comments (3)

And I haven't done much of anything...lol
Just goofing off on my forums is all and talking in yahoo to people.
If that busy sign is on, feel free to say hi to me anyway ok? It's mostly a joke but it keeps freaks from bugging me too much.

I should eat something soon but I have just been sitting here being silly all morning with friends and learning some guys secrets.
I have been bugging him on yahoo while he's at work. Trying to make him laugh but not get in trouble.
He has an odd sense of humor and I like that.
He starts off by asking me to smell this cloth and let him know if it makes me sleepy...lmao
If you don't get that joke, I don't know what to tell ya. ..lol
haha.

But now everyone has gone to class or lunch so I'm bored.
I really should just find some lunch and lay down for a bit but I don't want to. I just wanna play today.

I have an idea for some new jewelry pieces and I'm gonna start them next week. I need to get my hands on the original first and see how they have it made before I give it a shot.
It looks simple enough to copy.
I may try one later today though just for fun to see if I can do it without the original in front of me.

Ok, off to find something to eat and then get some rest.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 1:16 PM | Permalink | Comments (2)

2 loads of colors and one load of whites which are in the dryer now.
I'm wiped out.
So so tired.

It's so funny how doing something really lame can make you simply exhausted.
Usually, Nikki and i have an awesome time when we go out. We go normal places and have fun. I hate clubs aka, meat markets.
They suck ass.
We were pumped and ready to play until we got there and realized we were in hell basically.
Then it hit, boredom, exhaustion.
Boom, Dead.
Now, I can't shake it. I have been dragging ass all day.
Did do the wash and some of the dishes but I have other stuff to do and should be doing but I am simply too tired to give a fuck.

I love our new kitty.
She is so damn cute. She has claimed me as her momma. She follows me everywhere and sleeps with me. The only annoying thing is trying to lay on my keyboard while I type, like now. I am trying to train her to curl up not on the keys and I will pet her when I stop typing.
I need to get a picture of her.
I also need to get a picture for the boobiethon that is now linked to in the sidebar.
It's for a good cause, I do it every year.
Just need some batteries for my camera.
I think I put them in the dvd remote.

Ok, need to rest a bit before I run to the store and then get all settled in for the premier of Desperate Housewives.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 4:58 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Banana Joes in Channelside in Tampa is sucky.
It's a fucking meat market club with too loud shit music, bad dancers and wall to wall fucking people just trying to get drunk and laid.

We all left save for two people.
That place sucked.
Oh well, lesson learned, never going there again.

Posted by Kat at 1:04 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Nikki is here visiting again because we have stuff we need to do tonight.
We went fishing on the skyway pier at like 1:30 this morning with a few people.
The boys were sleeping over the kids house next door so we went without worry.
I'm so tired though. I hope i can get some rest in this afternoon before we have to head out again.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 12:03 PM | Permalink | Comments (2)

on the Sarasota front.
Nothing to see or tell here.

Posted by Kat at 6:34 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I just got home about 8 minutes ago.
All fucking day.
My docs office was running late so instead of my 9am appointment, I was put in the room to wait some more around 10:10am.
Then we talked about all kinds of issues I have been having and the horrid shit with the insurance company.
He gave me an idea and tomorrow morning at 9am, I am making a call that may get me some answers and some hope.
He wrote my med scripts and then wrote me a script for a full chem/lab workup to try and figure out the other shit I am dealing with.
Blood, thyroid, cholesterol, tox (heh, that should be a funny one)and all kinds of other tests.
I can go back anytime between now and my next appointment next month to get all that done.
It may require going elsewhere to get more answers but that's ok.
We talked about the rapid weight loss. He's concerned because nothing much has changed. I still eat the same and can't exercise so it has him bothered that I have dropped 34lbs in less than 2 months.
But that sorta/might possibly tie in with the stomach issue I have been having.
We'll find out.

Then I rode back downtown, waited a half hour to catch another bus back out sorta the same direction to drop off/pick up more assinine paperwork but this time, they gave me everything to get me through until the end of October.
I was getting severly aggravated having to do this weekly shit.
Then I got back on the bus, rode back downtown and missed my bus home so I went to the whole foods place and picked up some terriyaki chicken for dinner so I didn't have to come home and go back out to publix.
Cost a little bit more but saved me a few more hours.

So now I'm home, exhausted, wiped out, starving and so ready for bed but I have shit to do.
Ugh.
Make this day end please.

Later days.

Posted by Kat at 3:31 PM | Permalink | Comments (7)

Lots to do today.
Heading to the docs pretty early this morning so no time to stay and play or visit with anyone.

I am sorry I haven't been around to visit with any of you.
I have been staying as busy as I can.
I posted what was going on in my private blog a little bit about when I can see the surgeon so if they are gonna make me wait that long and there's no guarantee of my future ability to do stuff, I'm getting out and enjoying myself as much as possible.
There may come a day when I can't so play now, deal with that shit when it happens.
Make sense?

I really hate having to get up and out this early but it has to be done and I have a few errands to run after the docs so I'm gonna be gone for a big portion of the day.
I'll try and catch up with y'all at some point this week.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 6:17 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

The surprise baby shower was a complete success!
She had no clue we were doing it at all.
She did catch Nikki and I in her driveway as she was pulling in cuz Nikki was out poking around her truck.

Then after the baby shower we went back to her house, fed the kiddos and changed and went out to some club in NPR to see 5 live metal bands play.
We made it through 3 and a half.
The third band, the musicians were fucking killer. The singer, not so much.
He was one of those screamers with the mic touching his lips.
I hate that.
Pull it back just a little bit buddy or you're gonna pop a vein one of these times.

We had headaches by the time the 4th band was starting so we left, grabbed some burgers and went back to her house.
We just hung out there all day and then made the long 2 hour trip back to my area, grabbed some ice cream and then bought some batteries for my cd player cuz I have like a really long day tomorrow on the bus.
Docs then to drop off paperwork.
Ugh.

I'm utterly exhausted.
We didn't even do much it's just so far away and stuff ya know?
We had a good time though and the boys were awesome for her mom while we went out.
They kept her son Griffin busy and made sure he got to bed on time while were were out.

I sent the boys off to get subs for dinner cuz I am far too tired to cook anything at all.
Oh and we ended up with a new kitten even after I said all weekend no.
It's name is Shahiro and it's a girl and it will be fixed as soon as it's old enough.

Ok, time to go collapse until food arrives.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 5:53 PM | Permalink | Comments (4)

So I'm at up at Nikkis and sleeping just great when this dog started barking at 6:19am and hasn't shut up.
Not her dog, she doesn't have a dog, a dog that lives very, very, vey, close.
Bastard.
I'm gonna try and go back to sleep but here it is past my normal routine so I dunno how well that's gonna work out.

I'll be off and on all weekend so if I don't get back to you, you know why.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 6:48 AM | Permalink | Comments (4)

So I went and did partial grocery shopping. I ate. I feel better.
I have some jewelery to make tonight and then some shit to do tomorrow and then I'm leaving.
I have a baby shower Saturday and then some band thing Sat. nite and then other stuff to do as well.
Busy busy busy.

I should do some stuff now but I'm tired.
I walked to the store and did the shopping and then got home and realized about 4 hours later, my scripts were ready so I had to walk back down there and then walk back again.
That totally sucked but my meds will kick in soon enough and I'll feel tons better.

I need to get busy I suppose.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 7:23 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)

Not a whole lot going on here today, I just need to go to the grocery store at some point.
I'm tired and sore so I'm gonna lay back down for a bit and then work on leaving.

Hope you all have a good one.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 6:35 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Just need to do some cleaning and stuff around here.
Have papers to fill out, dishes, laundry, grocery/menus to make out.
Hope you all have a good day.

Posted by Kat at 9:41 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

What began on January 13th 2003* with a broken arm, is officially over.
We reached a settlement after just about an hour and a half.
Not a huge settlement but it was enough to where the teens mom finally had to take some responsibility for what her son did to Sebastian that day.
I'm happy with it and mostly happy that it's over.
I have too much else going on in my life to have to keep doing this thing for another year or more ya know?
We could have taken it to civil trial but I said push just a hair more and see if they budge and my lawyer pushed and they did.
They aren't happy with the settlement but it's done.

* Yes I did mess up the date. I had 2001 in my mind for another reason. Thanks for putting me straight.

Posted by Kat at 11:34 AM | Permalink | Comments (9)

after Nikki went home and I woke up with a screaming head cold.
How the fuck does that happen?
I was fine, a little tired maybe cuz we stay out and up too late but where the hell did this come from?
I feel like shit.
Damn.

Sebastian and I have final depositions tomorrow morning in the case of his broken arm. Hopefully, this will just settle. I hate the waiting game. Just settle. Pick a number and write it down.
Let's get this over with. I understand my lawyer wanting to hold out for the most but damn, just get it done already. I'm so tired of seeing the mother at these things and staring me down when she sees me .

I have to cancel my pap that I had scheduled for tomorrow morning at the same time. My brain is not functioning lately.
Kinda glad about that. I hate those things and I just had one a few months ago for an issue I was having anyway. Why do we need to do that again? I mean I know why but come on, leave me and my who-ha alone please. I know it has issues due to my back and none of it is going to be right until my back is fixed.

So anyway, I'm taking mucinex to hopefully clear this head cold out by tomorrow morning or the lawyers are all gonna think I'm really messed up.
Ugh. I need another nap.

Later days.

Posted by Kat at 11:59 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

Had company again this weekend so posting has been dead.
Went out to St. Pete last night with friends and just sat around and talked about stuff.
Got back late. Tired.
Doing laundry and eventually will get to dishes and emails.
Hope you're all well.

Later days.

Posted by Kat at 11:21 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I need to go get in the shower and head out. It's gonna be a long morning. Probably won't be back until this afternoon.
I hate this shit.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 7:07 AM | Permalink | Comments (3)

3 loads of laundry, dishes, sleeping.
Yup that was my day.
If I could trust the boys to go to sleep by themselves, I'd just go to bed.
Still no voice, back sucks.
Yeah, the usual.
Later days.

P.S.

69.69.83.240, Apopka Florida,
February, it's spelled February.
Try again.

Posted by Kat at 7:49 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

is gone.
Completely gone.
I speak and nothing comes out but air. I had to call my docs office and a friend who is moving here, (YAY!!!) and I had to yell to make anything come out.
That sucked.
But oh well...lol

Posted by Kat at 12:42 PM | Permalink | Comments (5)

It started out Friday night with Nikki and her son coming down to stay and we all went to the comedy club again and then to a bar, no I didn't drink but others we were with do. Nikki and I party harder sober than the drunks we hang out with do.

Saturday, we went to another friends house for her birthday BBQ and cake and swimming and all of that stuff.

Sunday, we went down to Siesta Key village for a hurricane fund raiser and had an awesome time with live local bands and auctions and raffles etc etc.
Then Sunday night, we went back out to the Beach Club and saw one of the bands again, promoted the hell out of our site with the band and had a blast. Nikki is a fucking trip man. She's like me on crack but she's not actually on anything.
Ha!

Today, we got up and drove all the way to Dade City for the pioneer days thingy they have every year.
They do a civil war re-enactment of the battle for Dade city. It was pretty cool. They had music (country) and shops and food and stuff. We met a friend from the site there.
He's very cool but always brings up religion with me.
But not in a disrespectful way, more like a what would it take to get you to believe kind of way.
Todays question was what would you think if people just started disappearing right in front of you? (rapture)
I said I'd believe aliens did it before a god...lmao
I told him about a shirt that says when the rapture comes, can I have your car? written on it that I have.
He thought that was funny but he's like so what would it take?
I said, the four horseman of the apocalypse would have to gallop right up to me, point at me and say this is it Kat, watch this fucking shit and shoot lightening out of their fingertips...lol
Yeah, I know, I'm a smart ass bitch but really, it would take something super super big and so utterly amazing to get me to get down on my knees and beg for forgiveness and years of being a heathen.
But again, Chris is very very cool. We have a respect for each other
I'm an independent with left leaning tendencies and an atheist or as I like to label myself, a secular humanist, and he's a republican Christian.
We get along very well even though we rarely see eye to eye.
Why?
Because neither one of us are shoving our ways of being on the other. I respect his right to believe and think anything he wants even if I will never agree with it or believe it as he does.
We do occasionally see eye to eye on some political issues but that's why I'm an independent. I look at issues and not just the guy running for the job.
He was happy we all took the long ass drive up there to do this with him today.
Nikki and I are game for anything. I will go anywhere and do pretty much anything just to do something.

After years of being trapped in my house because my RL friends couldn't handle my situation, it is nice to have people in my life again who understand it and also are totally cool with me not dancing or walking a million miles. But, I do that anyway.
Lots of walking, I'm so fried from this weekend. Man, my hip and knee burn like hells wrath is upon me but it was worth it.
I had so much fun doing everything all weekend with her and then today with Chris.
I love to get out and do stuff. Listen to live bands, go to stuff like we did today because even if it's not something I would go to by myself as a first choice of shit to do, I learned some cool history from one of the re-en actors who knows his part well.
He plays a medical soldier (not really sure what you call them ok?) and he told us lots of interesting facts about the instruments used in surgery and how soldiers actually died.
It was neat.
Mark had an awesome time watching the battle. He loves that stuff.
Sebastian spent the night at my sisters house and went to the horse farm with her this morning.
He probably would have liked this but he had been bugging to stay over her new house since she moved in.

I'm tired, my house is a mess but I don't really care.
It was so much fun this weekend.
I don't have a voice left either but again, I don't care.

I hope you all had a good weekend too.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 5:51 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I will get around to answering all emails and comments but it will be tonight.
Today we are going to some civil war reenactment.
I'll tell you about it when we get back.
Burning some road music right now cuz it's a long ride to get there.
Have a great day everyone no matter what you do.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 7:42 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I was gonna get to tonight?
Well it didn't happen and it's not gonna happen until tomorrow night now.
I have been really busy. Sorry.

Posted by Kat at 2:26 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

I still have company over so I promise I will get to your emails tonight after everyone leaves and stuff.
We are heading out in a bit to go see some local sites and stuff like that.
Have a great day everyone!

Posted by Kat at 11:43 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

The comedy show was awesome as usual, they only made one of us pay to get in which was very cool.
That place rocks.
Today we are doing the bbq for her birthday at her house with the kids and the pool again.
Always fun.
Nikki and her kiddo might spend the night again.
It was nice having company here.
They boys loved having someone to play with and stuff.
Ok, time to take a shower and get ready to go etc etc.
Later days.

Posted by Kat at 11:01 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

Been busy this morning.
Cleaning the house and stuff. I have company coming tonight.
A friend and her son are coming down here tonight so her and I can go out for another friends birthday and then they are staying the night cuz they live far away.
I have much more cleaning to do.
Ugh.
It's not that it's dirty in here but just not to my standards of company coming ya know?
So that's what I'm doing.
Private med entry in just a minute.

Later days.

Posted by Kat at 11:04 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

I don't want to keep watching but I can't help it.
I can't believe that people are shooting at the very people that are there to help them ya know?

I can't understand this shit. I mean, I sorta can. It's basic instinct to survive and take care of your own first but they are killing people and law officers and shooting at medical people.
This is just plain insane.
I'm so sad and angry at the same time.

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Lone Star Equine Rescue

ASPCA

E.A.R.S.

Noah's Wish

Humane Society of Northwest Louisiana

American Humane Association

For a list of more places to help animals, go here.

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For constant coverage, Michelle is right on top of everything.

Salvation Army

Wizbang

flood aid
Hurricane Katrina

Matching the good

I donated what I could this morning. Please help out by donating to your charity of choice.

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