I had a better day today.
Not super great but better than the emotional wreck I was yesterday.
And yes, before anyone lectures me, I know taking a lot of pain killers is bad but I just wanted to be numb for awhile and it worked.
I haven't touched weed or booze in years.
Not that I wouldn't if it was put in front of me. I am really weak right now and would do some shit in a major way if I had it.
That's nothing to get worried about folks. I don't have the funds for extra shit like that and I don't go taking lots of pills just for fun and numbness either. I took a few extra just once cuz I was hurting emotionally and physically. That is the addict in me. Can't fucking help it sometimes.
My demon comes out occasionally.
Ric, do I know you? You obviously know the situation on a somewhat personal level or your comment wouldn't have been so dead on.
Email me if ya want.
Went out today to a Passion party. That was fun.
It was something to do and it made me giggle so yeah, I'm cheered up a bit.
Just chilling at home now. Nikki and Griffin are here for the night so we are on both pcs as we usually do and talking on yahoo and the kids are watching a movie.
Just relaxing.
Hope y'all had a good one.
Later days.
Comments
Believe me I understand.. and none okay most of us are not out here to judge you.
I won't give you my Nancy Regan 'just say no' speech but please.. try not to numb yourself like that. M'kay?
Posted by: momof2 | October 5, 2005 3:23 AM
I don't do it all that often as a matter of fact, never. I was really emotionally a basket case and crying over the stupidest crap so I needed to be done with it. I needed that shit gone from my head so I dosed myself once an hour until I was wasted. I stopped once I couldn't properly type anymore...lol
Posted by: kat | October 5, 2005 6:28 AM