My Single Mom Life

"We have an *eclectic* tradition in the United States... Christians of
various stripes are part of this, as are humanists and agnostics, but
this does not make the United States a Christian nation or even a Judeo-
Christian one. We are a mixed accumulation of our past, and it is the
Christian dogmatists, not the secularists, who are the major threat to
our pluralistic democratic tradition."
[Vern Bullough, "Do We Have a Judeo-
Christian Heritage?" in Free Inquiry]

I mean that in the non-sexual way. Like I'm fucking sick man. I feel like hell. I could use a hand here. I need to do shit around the house and I can't and meals need to be made and I can't. I'm so feverish I swear I have pneumonia now. I hurt like everywhere. It hurts to breathe.
I swear she just gave me those meds to make me quit smoking or some shit. Here, let's make the bitches lungs hurt so bad she won't be able to smoke for 2 weeks and by that time, she'll have gone through withdrawals and be done with it.
I think she was scamming me man.
I was not sick until I started the meds. I had a sniffle but that was it.
Fucking psycho quit smoking people. Oh it's good for you, blah de blah. Fucking bite me asshats!
I really do think the meds were a conspiracy to make me quit. I have never felt so horrible in all my life.
Well wait, there was that one time with the stomach flu from hell that put me in the hospital for a few days but that was different. At least I could still breathe dammit!

The teens are only willing to do so much housework ya know.
Asking for much more may get me left entirely alone. They might just run outside and say screw you mom, you coughing, hacking, wheezing, fevery bitch.
If I had some extra cash today, I'd just order food all day so I didn't have to attempt cooking.

I'm not gonna use the inhaler today and see if that makes a difference. It's either the pills or the inhaler making me feel like I'm dying. Today no inhaler, if that's not it, tomorrow, no pills.
I'll test myself. I'll see why/which one is causing me to have so much trouble on my own.
Knowing my luck, I'm allergic to one of them and actually giving myself walking pneumonia or some shit.
If this keeps up, I'll be in the hospital by thanksgiving.
Ugh.
Someone take me out back and shoot me please.