I wish I wasn't such a weepy mess.
I want to just feel better right now.
I feel just plain awful.
I can't take a shower till my stitches come out which is Wednesday so I'm pretty grody.
My nails are a mess, my leg hair is a frigging mile long, my skin is disgusting.
All I want to do is sleep.
I need to be eating to get my strength back but the thought of food makes me want to vomit.
I think I still have anesthesia running through me or something cuz seriously, my brain is in a fucking fog.
God, I hate complaining like this. This is the surgery I've been begging for for years and years and now I have it and I'm miserable.
I want the 3-6 months to just be over with already so I can feel great ya know?
It's been 3 weeks post op and I feel like fucking hell.
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Kat try to think of bright and happy things when you're feeling down. Think of your children who love you sooo much. Think of us who always pray for you.
Try to have a good weekend ok? :)
Posted by: JK :) | March 3, 2006 8:17 PM
I imagine the pain has a lot to do with your foggy head. I really wish I could do something to help. You have every right to feel ornery with all you're going through. Have you tried some protein drinks, like Ensure? That might be easier on your tummy and will give you the nutrition you need.
Not being able to shower is awful! I know you'd feel so much better if you could.
Sending you BIG HUGS and lots of love!
Posted by: Karen | March 3, 2006 8:48 PM
Complain all ya want, girl. We're listening. I wish I could take some of your pain and frustration away. Or, at least find a way to help you cheat and sneak a shower tonight.
Posted by: Jaime | March 3, 2006 10:01 PM
Kat- do not fight the need to sleep. Sleep helps to heal the body, helps us handle the chronic pain, and helps psychologically re dealing with feeling depressed. Sleep makes us stronger and better able to face the trials of the day. It also helps you be more patient with yourself and others. Speaking as one who is in daily, severe, chronic pain and on meds more potent that morphine, I have learned the value of not fighting and letting myself take naps and long sleeps. There are times, too often, where the pain and nausea are so overwhelming that it prevents me from being able to sleep. It can last 3 days. Not only am I exhausted, I get very sad, blue, depressed and it is very hard for me to act like things are normal to the rest of the world. I do not want pity, just understanding. What is hard is giving yourself compassion and understanding and patience. I am often in a fog and unable to do the most normal of activities because of the medication I need to manage the pain to some degree
Posted by: Annette m zamoyski | March 3, 2006 10:26 PM
hey! hope you feel better soon. its hard being laid up and not feeling well. really hope u feel better soon.
Posted by: prerona | March 4, 2006 4:57 AM
Just try to hang in there Kat! You know in the end it will all be so worth it. *hugs*
Posted by: Kelly | March 4, 2006 11:51 AM