I'm having a harder time being at home than
I thought, or wished I was going to.
I have not been feeling well, sleeping mostly, needing my sons for every little thing and feeling useless.
Teary eyed non-stop.
As I get better, my posts will improve. Please don;t leave me.
I need you you all.
Later days.
Comments
Kat, we're all right here! Hang in there. It's got to get better. I'm sure it takes a really long time to heal. I can't even imagine the pain you feel. I hope they gave you some decent drugs.
Posted by: Jaime | March 2, 2006 2:17 PM
We're not going anywhere. *hugs* :)))
Posted by: Karri | March 2, 2006 3:07 PM
Not going anywhere Kat. Nope!
Posted by: tiiana | March 2, 2006 3:24 PM
Poor sweetie, emotion is bound to be there after such a big operation and with that pain. All I can say is I hope it gets better soon. {hug}
Posted by: Terry | March 2, 2006 6:33 PM
hi kiddo -chin up. i know it is very hard. do you know that depression, feeling blue and sad is an effect of being under anesthetic esp for a long time. Being under for 15 hrs means there is a lot of it still in your system plus then you were put under again. Also your body suffered a major trauma and that affects the amount of seretonin that the brain produces plus the neuronal membranes cease uptaking the seretonin that is being produced resulting in feeling sad, wanting to cry and hide under a rock and make the world go away and the stress go away.
In short you are experiencing changes in your brain chemistry. With time, the cocktail they shot you up with will be expelled by the body and things will not seem so awful. You can't help but be sad. Do you have access to a professional therapist/counsellor to discuss the changes your body is experiencing? It would be very good if you ask the doctor for a referral to a Psychologist to help you go through the entire healing process. Know that I am here and understand well the effects of stress and pain on the body. Talk to me Kat- I have broad shoulders and listen well. My best, Zammer (Annette)
Posted by: Annette | March 2, 2006 7:52 PM
Don't you worry, we aren't going anywhere! You are going through so much and I am damn proud of you! (HUGS)
Posted by: Sueellen | March 2, 2006 10:03 PM
We're all here! Agree with Terry, the emotions have to come out after such a life-changing experience. Take things easy, enjoy your sons, let them take care of Mom for a while.
Give yourself time...
*hugs*
Posted by: bakednudel | March 2, 2006 10:20 PM
Awww, hopefully it will all be worth it in the end. Hang in there. You will feel better soon.
Posted by: KELLI | March 2, 2006 10:21 PM
It took a lotta time for your body to get in the shape it was before surgery so it's bound to take some time to undo it!
Posted by: Chickie | March 2, 2006 10:58 PM
I'm not going anywhere. I'm sorry for all the pain you're in and all you're going through. This WILL get better. Sending lots of healing energy your way.
Love & hugs!!!
Posted by: Karen | March 2, 2006 11:02 PM
Kat
Sorry to hear you've been sick. I'm taking laxatives full time now to cope with the morphine etc and today I think they worked - yay! Try wiping your ass with your other arm - it may work. Yes, I know its not a good subject to tackle, but not being able to do it yourself really does suck - I'm managing now but heck its no joke.
I too have been a bit teary - hang in there - we will get better and in a few weeks will be sending each other cyber high fives at how we got through it!
Posted by: Warped Woman | March 3, 2006 6:26 AM