My Single Mom Life

Today is June 16th, I am now 4 months post op.
It feels like it's been a whole lot longer than that doesn't it?
In March, I posted all the things I couldn't do.
I still can't get socks on, but I can now put on my panties and shorts or pants without an aid, I can feed the cats, I can get stuff off the floor without the grabber, I can get my blankets if they fall, I can do most personal hygiene things without a problem now.
I still can't lay on the couch. Oh well.
I've come a long way since then.
I can do the laundry, the dishes, I can cook but still can't lift heavy pots. I tried vacuuming, it was ok, hurt a bit afterwards so I won't push it and do it all the time. The boys are still helping with the major stuff.
Today, Sebastian and I went shopping and he helped pick up all the low shelf stuff and the heavy stuff and then when we got home, Mikey had slept over so all 3 of the boys unloaded the cab of groceries and the bags one at a time and placed everything on the counter so I could reach it. Mikey and Mark had also cleaned up the house while I was gone including vacuuming the rugs.
Such good kids.

It's kind of overwhelming sometimes. It's only been 4 months.
It will be another 8 months before I am cleared for most major activities that I enjoy doing. I hope it flies by. I need it to fly by.
I spent 5 years waiting for this surgery and living my life inside these walls and now another 8 months before I can fully have my life back just seems like such a long time to wait. And then I think, what if there are things I'm never allowed to do again?
What if I go to do something because I get the all clear and it's something the surgeon would have never in a million years expected anyone to want to do.
Like what you're thinking. I don't know, I'll know it when I want to go do it...lol
There's something I want to do now, I want to go to a firing range and get a gun and a permit, but what if the trigger weight is too much for my back and shoulders? I have to ask. I think I'll ask in email and not over the phone just in case it's a resounding NO.
I just don't know about some stuff. Like if vacuuming is a task, will firing a gun be? I'm sure it will, and I'm sure he'll have something to say about it.

Ok, I can't think of anything else to say about my 4 month anniversary of sorts so I'll just go goof off some more online.
Every month of my anni, I get this burst of insomnia and can't get to sleep to save my life.
I have so much I want to do, so much life to go live and it sort of depresses me that I still have so much time to wait.

Later days.