My Single Mom Life

This week's topic: "New Year's Resolutions"

I do not make resolutions because I feel they set you up for failure.
People always say I want to lose weight, exercise more, do this, do that.
They end up not doing them.
So instead of saying I want, I say, I am going to, or I will.

I am going to keep working on getting stronger and healthier.
I will keep taking all those calcium supplements to help my bones get stronger and my fusion heal.
I will keep wearing that hideous brace and bone stimulator because even though it's uncomfortable and icky looking, I want my bones to heal.

I am going to get back into my jewelry making slowly.
It's still very hard for me to sit in one place very long and it frustrates me that I can't just sit down like I used to and whip out 10 pieces a day.

I am going to make and save money as much as I can.
Some people feel and have told me, that they are annoyed with ads on blogs.
Too bad. I live on SSDI and it doesn't keep you afloat.
If they allow me to make so much money every month, and I am not allowed to work a conventional job, I will take whatever kind of paying "jobs" I can to pay my bills and stay afloat.
I'm sorry if that causes people to stop reading my blog but come live in my house for a month and see if you can figure out how to live on such a piddly amount and maybe you'll change your mind about paid advertisements.

I am going to stop over analyzing myself so much.
I get criticisms about what I write on my blog and I all too often take it as a personal attack on me. I allow other people's opinions to get to me. This is my blog about my life and I need to stop worrying about what people think of me so much.
I know how I live my life and what I'm doing or not doing, and I know that I'm doing the absolute best I can.

I will be a better parent this year.
I am not a bad parent, but this past year was the first time in all my years raising them alone that I slacked on certain parental duties like being more forceful about education.
I was so out of it after I came home from surgery, that I wasn't paying much attention to homework and class schedules and the like.
I take the problems the boys have had this past year on my shoulders just as much as I place it on theirs.
We are all equal in not doing what we needed to be doing.
Now that the fog has lifted, I will be far more attentive to their schooling and help them get out of the educational ruts they are in.

I will try to be a better friend.
I have trust issues with people and that tends to make me withdrawn and antisocial.
I will try to open up more to the people who have stayed in my life and to the new ones who have entered.
I owe it to them to be more open and to give trust with parts of my life which I hide away from people.

So there ya go, my list of things I will do this year.