I am completely exhausted and my back is twitching,
but do you think I can sleep?
Hell no.
I went in there to lay down and my mind began thinking about everything I have to do tomorrow.
I have to clean out the fridge and make room for the turkey and sides I have to go pick up along with the cake, the dishes, the laundry, cleaning the house, wrapping some last minute presents for the boys etc etc.
I'm hoping by writing it all down that I can let it off my mind and be able to sleep. I need to sleep. The last few days have been sucky in the sleep department.
Every few hours, I was wide awake and then it would take another hour or so before I fell back to sleep again.
I even took my script for sleeping pills which I try to avoid taking because I really do think I am on too many scripts, and they didn't work.
Bleh.
Heh, all the cats are sitting here staring at me. They know it's past bedtime. I get up to pee or get a drink they run to the bedroom and when I don't follow them, they give me this look like "what the hell woman? it's bedtime, let's goooo!"
I'm going. Again. Soon. I hope.
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I'm also a single mom. I raised a child alone on a college campus and went from a GED to a Ph.D. without sleeping and while raising my hyperactive son. Sometimes I didn't sleep in my bed for weeks at a time, living on only a couple hours rest on the couch before getting up to make the next deadline.
As my son's 18th birthday nears, I can still see the glimmer of normalcy mocking me accross the horrizon "you'll only catch a glimpse from far away and just enough to know what you can't have."
Posted by: Bren | December 22, 2006 4:20 AM
My insomnia is worse lately as well.
Having Xmas songs in my head 24/7 doesn't help matters...sigh.
I'm also stressed about things to do.
I like my sleeping pill though, when it kicks in at night, hehe. It relaxes me.
Hope you got some sleep.
Posted by: Nancy | December 22, 2006 7:43 PM