Let's add another doc to the mix.
Aaaarrrggghhh!!!!
Ok.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
*inhales deeply*
*exhales deeply*
Apparently I was already sick on Tuesday at the time of the blood tests, because my white cell count was through the roof again.
I tried explaining to doc F., that every single blood test I've had in the last year and a half, has shown elevated white count, but he was all nope, you have an infection somewhere and we need to find it.
Ok. Fine. No problem.
But I am not having another tube shoved down my throat and up my ass again.
No more scopy anythings!!!
And my hormones are all outta whack, so now I get to go see a hormone specialist who does NOT take insurance.
YAY!
*grrr*
It's going to cost me $150 per office visit.
Guess I need to start working more eh?
That really kinda sucks because there are just some paid blogging gigs, I just will not do.
But anyway, my testosterone is extremely low.
My testosterone level is at 15. It should be between 30-50 for women.
This means I have to take a testosterone supplement of some kind. I guess the new doc will decide which way it's going to be delivered.
Either patch, pill, or monthly injection.
I'm really not looking forward to that, because my hair already grows like a mofo.
Can you imagine adding more testosterone to me?
I'll be having to shave my legs every hour instead of every day.
That's going to suck.
But he believes that because my levels are so low, I have an increase in pain.
He gave me a bunch of stuff to read where it does say that low testosterone levels can cause pain levels to increase, can cause extreme fatigue, and can also cause feelings of depression.
I tried explaining to him that yes, I am always tired, and yes, I have high pain levels, but I'm not depressed.
He asked; "Why then did you put off having these blood tests done?"
I said; "Because I'm tired of doctors. Put yourself in my place.
For the last 5 and a half years, I have seen 21 different neurosurgeons and orthopedic surgeons. I have had over 100 x-rays. I have had 15 MRIs. I have had so many blood tests, I lost count. I spent 18 days in the hospital for surgery, then spent 4 days in the hospital for my stomach, and they did a ton of blood tests, barium x-rays, a barium cat scan, and the endoscopy and colonoscopy.
I'm sick and tired of being in doctors offices and hospitals. Yes, I postponed the blood tests, you ordered 23 of them! They took 9 vials of blood! I'm sorry doc, but I'm sick of being poked, prodded, and having things done to me. When does it stop for me?!
That's not depression, that's fucking fed up! And now, I have another new doctor, who's going to take more blood, more urine, do more tests, and put me on some new meds to add to the shit ton of meds I'm already on, and he doesn't take fucking insurance!!"
He was all, "Kat, calm down. It's going to be ok. We just need to get to the bottom of what's going on with you, and your testosterone levels being so low, we are this much closer to figuring things out. Your high white cell count concerns me a lot. We need to know what's going on there. Do you think you might have a UTI?"
Me: "No. I don't think I have a UTI, unless I do and I'm not showing any symptoms. It doesn't burn when I pee, I am not having any pain in the bladder area etc. My white cell count has been high since surgery. But after the blood tests on Tuesday morning, I came home, feeling like I got hit by a truck, and am feeling sick. Maybe I was already sick on Tuesday morning and it was just starting or something. Please doc, no more tests today. Please?"
I was near tears.
I'm just so tired of testing.
I know, suck it up.
But I don't think many people who have not been through all that I've been through, can even possibly begin to understand how tiring it is always having something wrong with you, and no matter how many tests they do, they can't figure out what's wrong with you.
They know something is wrong, but they can't nail it down.
It just really sucks, and it's frustrating having so many tests and having to take so many medications. I have 7 different pill bottles here. I have to take all of those daily, and some of those, I have to take multiple times a day, and now, I get to add another one.
Comments
Hang in there Kat... They have to find something soon. If there is anything you NEED me to do for you just yell, or better yet call me!
Posted by: Mindy | August 23, 2007 1:16 PM
I feel for you, I really do.
And no, we don't need you growing hair on your palms. lol
Posted by: lattegirl | August 23, 2007 2:21 PM
*hugs* I'm having the same problem right now, I'm sick to death of seeing the damn doctors (although our problems are completely different). I just told the Dr. I didn't want surgery (again) but if we couldn't get anything straight then screw it I'd rather have the surgery than keep coming into the damn office. I completely know how you feel. I'd rather stick a pencil in my eye and the rub salt on it and then pour lemon juice all over it than see the damn doctor again.
Posted by: Tasha | August 23, 2007 2:56 PM
I feel for you. That would really suck ass! Stay strong!
Posted by: Jules | August 23, 2007 6:52 PM
*hugs*
I know exactly what you're going through. Hubby's been through the exact same thing, as he suffers from chronic pain which is caused by adhesions in his side. Unfortunately, NONE of the doctors we've been to have yet to give him a definitive answer that adhesions are the problem, even though that's what WE know is the problem. After being poked, prodded, bled, needles in the spine, almost paralyzed, and more meds than would fit in a shot glass, hubby and I both said ENOUGH! He's now doing an alternative therapy that's been working for the last year or so.
It's all a freakin' guessing game with the doctors, I swear.
Posted by: Lisa | August 24, 2007 12:48 PM