My Single Mom Life

Yesterday, Walgreen's was out of the testosterone injection stuff, (yes, I get to inject it myself! ACK!) and so they had to order it.
Then they sent me an email telling me one of the scripts was ready, so I login to Walgreen's to see which one, and notice the testosterone is in the list.

So I click on it, it's in process, and not charged to my insurance yet, and oh my!
I almost choked.
$379.80.
!!!

I pay $20.00 a month to my insurance for drug coverage, and in exchange they give me a really small co-pay for the drugs, so I was like man, this better be a covered drug on their drug list, or I'm gonna have to call stuttering doc and be like, hey doc, I can't pay for this, even with insurance, so I guess I'll just be dealing with all these issues with no medical help.

So I get up this morning, there's an email saying they are all ready, the Ambien, the testosterone, and the case of syringes, and was able to breathe way easier.
With the insurance applied, the testosterone is only $15.00, the needles, $5.00, and the Ambien, $2.50.
*phew!*

But yeah, once a week, I get to measure out a tiny amount of the testosterone, and inject it into my thigh, ass, or stomach.
I've had to inject a few times before, different meds, but it was a short lived kinda thing.
Like 3 injections over the course of a few days, done.
This amount he prescribed, is enough for like months of injections, not just 6 weeks.
I'm kinda skeered.
Seriously, it's a case of 200 syringes, and a 200ml bottle of the stuff, and I only have to inject like .0001 of the stuff, once a week.

This means I have to get a bigger drug safe now though.
The one I have right now, because all of the meds I am on are controlled substances, is only large enough to hold about 10 pill bottles, not a case of syringes.
I don't feel safe just leaving any of this stuff out anywhere like a bathroom cabinet, or a drawer in my dresser, I keep everything locked up all the time.
I'll either have to look on line for one, or go back to wally's and see if they have a slightly larger safe.

I don't keep the stuff locked up because I'm afraid the boys might dabble in it, they know better than to touch anything I have to take, it's a discussion we've had many times.
I'm one of those moms who talks about drugs and what they do, and why they shouldn't. I speak from experience when I tell them about drugs, I don't lie to them about my past at all, so they know not to touch anything I have in this house. Period.
But I keep everything locked up because other peoples kids come over, because I do fear other people coming in to my house and stealing stuff.

So anyway, I'll either wait till the boys come home from school, or I'll just pick them up tomorrow when I do teh grocery sopping.