I'm fed up.
I'm sick with whatever the boys had and not doing so well at all.
And I'm tired and cranky, so yeah, another whiny post.
Sorry.
Between now and March 7th, I have 7 appointments.
That's 7 trips back and forth to the doctors that I just can't afford.
I'm over it.
I'm tired of trying new meds that make me spaced out and irritated, stupid fucking back massages that don't do shit for me other than cause me more pain, and injections that don't work, and now I'll be doing some new therapy.
I'm fucking over it.
Over it all.
I can't afford any of this shit.
I can't.
The stress of even trying to pay for all of this has probably attributed to me being miserable as well.
I'm just over this shit.
I am so tired of these meds that make me shaky, make me feel like I'm strung out.
Yes, he gave me another new one today, and one new pill and I'm a freaking mess again.
I can't take this.
I just can't.
I feel very bad, very very bad inside.
I'm getting depressed on top of feeling strung out, I really can't do this anymore.
I'm about to crack.
Comments
We are so sorry that you have so many appointments in one week. I can see why you want it all to stop. Do what you can and then forget the rest. Take just one day at a time. Remember that you are loved.
Posted by: Mom | February 25, 2008 3:32 PM
I'm sorry you have to go through all of this. Health care in this country sucks ass, it is a national disgrace. People should just be able to concentrate on getting well, and not about how they're going to afford the bills, co-pays, etc.
I wish I had an easy answer, but I don't. The best thing I can say is that I'm with your mom here. Do the best you can, one day at a time. That's all you really can do.
Posted by: Christine | February 25, 2008 6:33 PM
I'm sorry you're having a rough time, Kat. I agree that pain management and the overall health care scene is extremely frustrating. If they would just invent pills without side effects.....! Hope you're able to get some rest.
Posted by: Chris (Singer) | February 25, 2008 8:15 PM
I'm so sorry. Thinking of you! *HUGS*
Posted by: Kirsi | February 26, 2008 12:11 PM