My Single Mom Life

I just got back from my CT scan for my shoulder, where we did the cervical portion first.
Not bad, lay down, head in a padded sorta vice grip contraption, 3 minutes, done.
W00t!
Then we did the thoracic which required me to have my knees bent up and my arms above my head.

"Please raise your arms above your head and grab each wrist with your other hand, and hold that."
Are you serious?
"Yes. We need your arms above your head so we can get a good look at the thoracic portion of your spine."
But the whole reason I'm here is because my left shoulder is going through this really horrific pain thing, and if I put that arm above my head, it's gonna be really bad.
"I'm so sorry, but we have to. We'll make it quick. Promise."

Really quick my ass.
The cervical portion was over in 3 minutes.
The thoracic was done in 10 minutes.
10 minutes of pure fucking hell with the muscles in my shoulder spasming and twitching, and burning and throbbing, and yes I'm whining again.
I really hate whining, I'm sick of hearing myself whine, but god fucking dammit, the whole reason I had the CT was because it hurts, and holding it above my head for 10 fucking minutes was pure torture.
It's killing me again now.
The pain had started to subside a little bit, it wasn't burning quite as much, and now it's on fucking fire again.
Bastards.

And they made me take out all my jewelry.
Do you have any idea how ridiculous it is to make me take out all my titanium piercings, when my whole spine is filled with titanium?
Do you?
I tried explaining how difficult it is getting some of them out, and that when they do the scan, they are going to see a whole hell of a lot of titanium anyway, so what is the point?
I do love their faces though when I tell them the length of the fusion.
They get this WTF look on their faces, and they ask how it happened of course.
Everyone always assumes that I was in a really bad car wreck or something, and that is the reason I had to have the fusion.
When I explain that it was because of scoliosis, they say they've never seen one that long ever, they usually see the mid thoracic or the lumbar, but not from the top of the shoulder blades to the coccyx.
After explaining it all, they then understand why I'm in pain and they apologize for causing me more pain.

It's all ok, I just want the pain to stop.
I just want all these weird aches and pains that just happen, to stop happening.
I am so ultra careful all the time.
I don't lift anything above 5 pounds, I don't go crazy and over do things, I'm like a little old lady, I walk super careful, I make the teens clear things out of my way, I make them pick up practically everything that ends up on the floor, and yet these stupid aches and pains still keep happening and I'm fucking over it.

I will try not to whine about this again this week.
I can't make any promises that I won't whine, but I'll try.
The doc will have my scans in time for my next appointment on Thursday, and hopefully it's nothing wicked serious.

Ok, off to catch up on like everything.
Later days.