My Single Mom Life

I have been having some really serious pain from my shoulder thingy, and it moved to the front, in my chest.
My ribs feel like they are broken, but they're not.
The Norflex injection I had on Monday, never kicked in to take the pain away.
All it did was make me vomit while I was waiting at Walgreen's to pick up my script for the Norflex pill muscle relaxer.
I had to excuse myself and run to their restroom.
Mindy has been running me back and forth to the doctors, the pharmacy, and last night, her husband drove me to the ER.
The pain was so intense all day yesterday, and I kept refusing to go to the ER, but Sebastian called Mindy and told her I really needed to go, that the pain was so bad, I could barely move.

So her husband Chris came over and drove me there, where the doctors were concerned that I may have had a heart attack.
My blood pressure was through the roof, so they did an EKG, an angiogram, a chest x-ray, and another CT scan with contrast this time.
They thought maybe a heart attack or a blood clot, but it was neither.
I kept telling them and my own doctor, that this is the muscle or a pinched nerve, by the way it feels.
If I bend over or even move too quickly, even just a tiny movement, it feels like my muscles are ripping and they burn.
No one has the slightest clue what is going on with this, the ER doc said perhaps it's too much muscle growth around the fusion, or a pinched nerve, or maybe a tear in the muscles, but he really doesn't know.
His parting words to me last night at 11pm were, "I have never seen a fusion this big or anyone with this much hardware inside. Your spine is beyond the realm of my medical education. You really need to go see your surgeon. I think he's the only one who is going to be able to figure this out."

I went back to my pain doc today, told him about last night, and he's just as stumped as the ER doc was.
He suggested that I may have to go to the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, to have them run a full battery of tests. He's thinking it's an ulcer or my pancreas, maybe my gallbladder.
He just doesn't know.
I've had an ulcer, this does not feel anything like an ulcer.
I'm not throwing up, I'm not getting the diars, my stomach does not hurt.
This is my shoulder blade right next to my spine, and my chest between my breasts, and under my left breast, it's the muscles, not the stomach, and the gallbladder is on the right side of the body, not the left.
It could be the pancreas, that's in the middle, like right below the rib cage, but I don't have pain there.
He gave me a much stronger pain pill this time, 15mg oxycodone, and to take 1 tab 3 times a day as needed for pain.
I just got home a little bit ago, and took one, I'm waiting and hoping for it to kick in soon.
It hurts to sit, lay down, pee, and OMG, typing is absolutely killing me.
Any movement of my left arm is sending shooting, stabbing, burning pain into my chest and shoulder blade.
It feels like the muscles are ripping apart.
I can't take much more of this, this new med has got to work, it just has to.
I have work to do, and the boys, the poor boys, have been eating sandwiches and frozen pizzas since Friday.
Mindy said if it still hurts too much, she'll either bring a hot meal over for them, or come cook something for them here.
I'm hoping that I can at least walk Mark through cooking something, and when it's done, I'll take it out of the oven.
Both the boys have this fear of getting burned when taking something out of the oven.
It's silly I know, but they are always so afraid they will burn themselves on the pans or the rack.

I have to call my surgeon and set up an appointment for as soon as possible.
I'll do that in a little bit, I need to rest a bit first, I'm tired and in agony.
I need to see if my sister can take me, and if she can't, Mindy said she can do it.
I hate asking people to give me rides and ask for help, his offices are so far away.
He has one in Safety Harbor, and one in Tampa, but both are a pain in the butt to find.
Sis and I get lost every single time, and we've been there multiple times now.

We take for granted the various muscles in our body, and what they allow us to do, until those muscles get injured.
Simple tasks like pulling up and down your pants to pee, it's such an easy movement, we do it all day long, but even that so easy movement, is torture right now.
Brushing my hair after a shower, sends waves of pain through my shoulder, washing my hands, brushing my teeth, such easy tasks, are murder.