My morals are good thanks.
I want to get away, or maybe send other people away, maybe to the Outer Banks or the far outer limits of space where they freeze up and die a painful death.
I just don't understand people sometimes and it frustrates me.
I don't understand the violence and abuse people do to each other, the neglect, the hatred, the killings, any of it.
I don't get it.
I'm often accused, because I'm an atheist, that I live my life without morals, that simply because I don't believe in a god, that I must believe in doing whatever I want whenever I want, hurt people, steal, kill, cheat on my significant other, all kinds of things, simply because I don't believe in a god.
But I do live my life better than most people do.
I don't lie, cheat, steal, kill, I don't intentionally harm others, I don't just live my life freely doing whatever I want whenever I want, I actually take other people into consideration.
I consider their feelings before saying or doing anything.
I spend countless hours worried about other people, wondering if they are ok, wanting to help them in some way, not just a thought or prayer saying I'm thinking of them, but really wanting to help if it's within my abilities to do so.
And it bothers me so much when other people don't, when all they care about is themselves, when they don't care who they hurt or trample on in an effort to the make themselves feel better.
I've spent hours tonight being hurt, being greatly upset by the actions and statements of others.
I try so hard to be a good person, to help people.
Sure, I talk a lot, I can't help it.
I've been unable to work outside the home since 2001, my kids are at school all day, I have no spouse or significant other to talk to, my blogs, the internet, forums, are ways for me to talk to people, so I am not so alone, not feeling so alone, and there are some out there who see that as a great fault, as something to attack me over, and say other things about me.
But it does bother me, and if that's what they were hoping to accomplish, I hope they are happy, that they will sleep better knowing they hurt someone.
I am upset tonight, hurt, but tomorrow, after I get home from the docs, I am going to do what is needed to put an end to it.
I allow myself some time to go through all of the emotions, and right now I'm a combo or hurt and angry, but mostly angry, and mostly determined to fight this crap.
It's all just so wrong, and it's cowardly, it's petty and childish.
Comments
I subscribed to your blog due to your giveaway.. and I am SO HAPPY I DID!! You tell 'em, girl! A lot of us atheists are stable, friendly, happy, moral people. We just don't want to be judged.
Keep Calm and Carry On! :)
Posted by: Becky | February 12, 2009 3:00 AM
To the people whom are making these defamation statements....what kind of person are you to say these accusation about a Single Mom whom is raising her Boys, the best way she knows how. Does it make you feel better putting someone else down? Does it? How would you feel if it were your Mother being put down and made fun of? Probably not very good.
Leave Kat ALONE. She works the best way she knows how, her boys are fed, have a roof over their head and they have plenty of love.
The definition of Athesist doesn't mean she has no heart. Kat by far has the biggest heart in the world. Everybody is entitled to their own beliefs, one shall never be judged for their beliefs. EVER!!!!
I honestly don't feel sorry for the person making these accusations, because they obviously have low self esteem and NO MORALS themselves. How pathetic. As for Kat, she will find out who you are and you know what.....Someone better have mercy on your soul...
Kat, don't let this fool get you down. They must get a rise out of pissing people off. Don't let it. Be strong, and I know you are.
Posted by: Christie | February 12, 2009 9:45 AM
Kat,
I support you! Hang in there and be strong. Don't listen to the venom those others are spewing.
You're doing the best you can and that's all that matters!
The Constant Complainer
Posted by: The Constant Complainer | February 12, 2009 12:15 PM
Some people who consider themselves to be *good Christians* are among the most immoral people I've ever heard of. You probably know who many of them are.
Christie is right, whoever is making these false accusations has no morals themselves.
Your true friends will always see you for what you really are, and that's the most important thing of all.
Posted by: Christine | February 12, 2009 6:13 PM