My Single Mom Life

I had a very rough night of sleep last night, I couldn't get comfortable to get much of any rest, and no matter how many pillows I used or where I slept, it just wasn't working out for me.
I want one of those memory foam mattresses or some memory foam bed wedges to try and see if they will help.
This one looks like it would actually work out well for me, for how my body is right now, and would help after the next surgery too.

See how that is shaped?
At an angle like that?
That's how my body is able to rest the best, at an angle, raised up just slightly, but my pillows eventually flatten and squish throughout the night, so I don't stay like that, I end up laying flat by morning, and then my back is all flattened and stiff.
With a bed wedge like that, it could go right at my lumbar curve, instead of at the hips where she's got it in the picture, and then my lumbar curve would have the support it needs to stay curved instead of trying to flatten like it wants to while I sleep.
Now, my back can't actually flatten, my spine doesn't bend because of the titanium rods, but the muscles want to, they want to totally relax at the lumbar curve, and because the rods are there preventing the spine from relaxing, only the muscles relax and flatten out.
Then in the morning, my muscles are totally flattened out around the rods, and it's extremely painful to get them back in place and straightened out so that I can stand up straight and walk upright instead of half-hunched over for the first hour or two every morning.

With a wedge like that, my back would be getting the support it needs in the lumbar area, the thoracic area would be at a comfortable angle, and then with a regular pillow, my head would be getting the support that it needs to stay raised instead of trying to lay flat which it can't due to the collapsed vertebrae at C1 and C2.
Every morning my lumbar is stiff and sore, and my neck and shoulder muscles are stiff and sore from the muscles relaxing and attempting to lay flat, and they really can't either due to the rods.

I'm sure that after the next surgery, the stiffness every morning will be even tighter because I'll be fused to the occipital bone, and so no part of my spine will be able to move all of the way from my tail bone to my skull, but the muscles will still want to relax all of the way down to the mattress and pillows.
I think I'm just going to try and get a bed wedge like this between now and the surgery, or even after if I have to, so that maybe I'll be able to sleep without so much stiffness and pain every morning.
This post is basically a bookmark of the site that sells that wedge so that I can find it easily when I am ready to buy 1.
That is definitely the kind of wedge I think my body needs, it is perfectly angled right how my body is able to rest the very best.