My Single Mom Life

I am leaving here in about an hour for my full day of pre-op testing for my next spine fusion on June 29th.
I have a very long meeting and testing with the anesthesiologist for like 2 hours, then MRIs, xrays, blood and urine work ups, and whatever the hell else they want to do to me.
Then at 1pm, I meet with the surgeon to go over all of the details of the surgery and everything else.
I am wicked nervous, probably more than I've been for the previous 2 surgeries because of what happened last time, and because of the halo brace.
I've been doing some research and been in touch with a woman who had 1 for 3 months, and it wasn't a pleasant experience at all.
Sores from the brace, crashing into things, lack of balance, having to lay totally flat, clothes not fitting, scarring on the forehead from the screws, and having to cut my hair really super short, like pixie short because long hair is just not going to work with the brace at all, hell, hair can't even be washed for the time you are wearing the brace, and I'm scheduled to wear it for 3-6 months.

So yeah, a bit nervous, a bit emotional, terrified, a giant bag of emotions and all I want to do is drown them out, I'm exhausted from feeling this way.

Ok, I have to go take a shower now even though my body is still no where near ready to move yet, we have to leave here at 7am for the long car ride.
I will do my best to update everyone when I get home.
Later days