My Single Mom Life

It doesn't matter anymore that plane tickets were bought for my sons without my consent, things got even uglier around here, so so much worse.
The tickets have been taken away from the teens, and it was said that it was all my fault.

The boys were told that they were going, they were so excited to be going, it has been over 2 years (February 2007) since they last saw their grandparents, Ninny, Pop-pop, Great-Gram, and their Aunt Heather, they were very excited and looking forward to be able to see them all.
I was angry that the tickets were bought without my permission, I wrote that post on the night that I found out about the tickets, my emotions were reeling, I was really upset that I wasn't asked, that the plan was to keep it a secret for awhile, "until I calmed down and got over it and myself", but I did say that the boys could go, I said that they could go in that post, I agreed that they should go and they need a vacation, they need to go and be with their grandparents for a week or so.
It was discussed and agreed upon with no arguing or other problems, that they would be able to go and spend 3 days with their Great-Gram and Aunt Heather, they do need to see their family on their father's side of the family too.
Great-Gram and Aunt Heather have been a part of their lives since they were born, they love and miss them, and vice versa.
But the tickets have been taken away, they were canceled.
I apologized, I said that I was sorry about 15 times for the post I wrote, I begged for the teens to be allowed to go, and nope, just more of the same.
They were told this by way of private messaging on their video game.
They were told they weren't going and it was all my fault, that I am a crazy and irrational person with mental problems, while they were playing WoW.

Don't.
Even.
Get.
Me.
Started.
On.
That.
Just don't.

There is simply no excuse, no reason, and totally unacceptable that the teens were told they weren't going to Maine over the World of Warcraft message service while they were playing the game.

I admit that I have some problems right now, I haven't ever denied it, I've been posting all along on this blog and on KatScan, that I was feeling sad and depressed, I even posted that I knew that my body was physically addicted to the pain meds, but I am working on my issues with my doctor now, he's going to fix my pain meds next month by either upping the dose or changing me to something that will work better and for longer, I am now taking an antidepressant every single night, and I'm seeing a counselor every week now.
It took some time to get some help, but I have known all along what was happening to me, I just couldn't get the help I needed until now.
I'm sorry, so incredibly sorry that it took so long to get the help that I needed, but I knew what the problem was, and I knew what I needed, I took the steps to get the help that I needed, and I am getting help now.

The boys are extremely upset, Mark is absolutely furious, and Sebastian has cried for hours now, he feels like he's being punished and no one loves him, so I am going to do whatever it takes to get the boys to Maine to visit their grandparents and their aunt.
I have to do it, the boys are just so upset, they had their hopes up, they were excited, and it all came crashing down, I have to get them there.

I found the absolute cheapest flight from SmartFares for the only dates that we can do before Sebastian starts school again on August 24th.
I have to see my doctor on August 14th at 2pm, this is with my doctor, so I have to go to that appointment, and Mark's 18th birthday is on Saturday August 15th, and that is the day that we would be flying out, and we could stay until Saturday August 22nd.
I found some really low rates though, and I am pretty sure that I can pull this off.
Click for bigger for the itinerary and price.

It comes out to $170.23 per person, and then with taxes, fees, insurance, and I even found one that gave us a $10 discount per person, it comes out to a total of $734.43 to fly with Jet Blue, for 8 days.
We could spend about 3.5 days with each side of the family.
It's from Tampa to Portland Maine, and we wouldn't be leaving here until 7pm, so we wouldn't get to Maine until midnight, with a stop at JFK on the way up.
It sucks to get there so late at night, but I needed a cheap flight.
The way back kinda sucks too, we'd be leaving Maine at 6am and get to Tampa at 11am, with 1 stop at Reagan National in DC.
Those take-off and landing times kinda suck, but again, I need cheap.

I will have a $500 payment the first week of August that I can use toward the tickets, and I will just have to save and use up all of my pay from now until a little before we need to go, and hope that we can get the same prices.
I can't buy the tickets now, I don't have a credit card, I only have debit cards that can be used as credit cards, but only if you actually have the amount of purchase on your card at the time of purchase.
I have a loan that I need to pay off first, but I can do this, I can just work really super hard to come up with this money, I'm even going to have a yard sale in a few weeks and see how much I can make from that to put toward this trip too.
This is something that I have to do, the boys really need this trip, they need to see all of their grandparents, cuz let's face it, none of them are getting any younger.
My parents are in their 70's, and Great-Gram is in her 80's, so yeah, I need to get the boys up there to see all of their grandparents as soon as I can.
Every time that I talk to Heather, she tells me that Great-Gram is doing less and less, and that she doesn't leave the house to do things much anymore.
Great-Gram used to do a lot of stuff for someone her age.
She used to go to church every Sunday, she used to deliver meals on wheels 3 days a week, she volunteered at the senior center serving meals and helping other seniors a few days a week, and would drive herself all over the place running her errands and doing her shopping.
Now she tells Heather how tired she is all of the time, Heather is now the one driving Great-Gram to make her errands and do her shopping, and Heather has told me that if I can somehow get the boys up to see her, it would probably be a good thing to do it as soon as possible.
So yeah, I am going to use that payment that I get the first week of August and any pay I make from working, any money that I might make from the yard sale, and if I get any child support between now and then, I'll use that money too.
I'll pay off that loan that I have first, but then all the rest of any money that I get, will go toward this trip.
If I end up not making the full amount plus about another $200 to have to spend to feed the boys at the 2 airports on our layovers, and a little spending money for them while we are there, I will only buy 2 tickets and send the boys by themselves.

So tickets for the 3 of us are $734.43, plus I'll need about $200 for spending money, so the total that I need is $934.43.
I will have $500 of it the first week of August, so I need a total of $434.43.
I CAN do this, I can, I have to do this, the boys need to go visit all of their grandparents, and they were so upset to be told that they are not going and the tickets got canceled, so this is something that I have to do for them.
I can't stand seeing my sons so upset, I hate seeing them cry and be hurt like this, so I am going to do this for them.
It's going to be tough, money is tight right at the minute, but it is getting better, I have more work this week than I have had over the last month or so, and I am going to have that yard sale, so I am pretty sure that I can pull this off, and like I said, if I can't get enough for all 3 of us, I will just send the boys.
This is going to work.
I will make it work.