Update coming after dinner.
After we get done with dinner tonight, I will come back here and do an update, let you all know how things are going, as they stand today.
I did go see my pain doctor, talked about everything, the pain meds, the depression, all of what's been happening and happened last week, so I will update you all on that stuff.
Both the teens are home, we've done a lot of talking, I'll let you know how all of that is going too.
I finally got some decent sleep even though it took awhile to fall asleep.
Good thing that I charged up my Mp3 players battery and added some new songs, because it took forever to fall asleep, so I laid there listening to music until I did, but once I did, it was good.
I'll be back with a major update after I get done eating.
Comments
Gee reading from the bottom of the page up, I kept thinking to myself if only this girl could get some sleep....glad to read this post.
Here are a few things that I know to be true for myself that I would like to share (for what it's worth):
I need at least 8 hours of sleep to begin to stay on top of my backpain. Less and forget it. I can't imagine how it must be to live with chronic pain and not be able to sleep.
When I am not on top of my pain I am a total bitch and then I beat myself up about being a total bitch and then I am just a miserable pathetic bitch.
I hide in my room...a lot.
I take a low dose of elavil (anti-depressant) for pain management at bedtime and it seems to help me without making me feel "numb".
I take opiate pain killers and no one gets it so I rarely tell anyone. I never feel high. I am totally dependent. This does not equal addiction.
Pain Management folks I've met want to focus on injections and don't deal with meds.
Surgeons are starting to get in trouble for prescribing meds long term (anything past the postop period). They are in danger of losing their licenses at least in MA. It's serious and it's crazy. My Primary Care physician is forcing me to cut back not because she thinks I should but because she has been cited.
I am glad you found someone to listen to you and work with you on meds.
My daughter started to understand what I go through on a daily basis when she met some other scoliosis/flatback sufferers. I think it is hard for kids to see us as anything but Moms. My teenager can't see much of anything beyond her "teenage" world and others tell me that she is better than most.
Anyway, I am glad that you got some sleep and that things are looking up a bit for you.
I truly feel for you...
Ann
Posted by: ann | July 14, 2009 11:02 PM