My Single Mom Life

I am definitely going to the ER today, Saturday, even if I have to call a cab to get there and back.
I was going to go on Friday, but everyone was working and I feel like a huge pain in the ass asking for people to help me again and again, and it looked as though it was going away.
I swear it looked a thousand times better by Friday afternoon around 3pm.
I absolutely have to get looked at, I know this now, I thought it would go away, I thought it was going away, but as I sit here right now, at 2:32am, the severe pain, hot to the touch, and swelling up like balloons, is back.
It really had started to go away, the swelling was mostly gone, the pain was gone, the redness was gone, I thought it was finally going away and I could avoid the doctor or hospital, but it now looks like I may actually have what the pain doc was worried about, DVT, Deep Vein Thrombosis, aka, blood clot in the leg.

DVT is as described;
A clot blocks blood circulation through these veins, which carries blood from the lower body back to the heart. The blockage can cause pain, swelling, or warmth in the affected leg.
The exact symptoms I have been experiencing, and even though I have a blood clot filter (vena cava filter) it can't stop all clots, or the filter itself is clogged up which is the cause of the DVT.
I have been reading up on both DVT and pulmonary embolisms, and I am not liking what I'm reading, so I need to go to the ER today.
I'm scared, I don't want any more health problems, I have enough of them already.
I'm sick of being sick, I'm sick of having hives from allergies, I'm sick of being in pain, and now this?!
I possibly, more than likely really do have DVT, the symptoms all match up, things that the doctor said, things friends have said, things my sister Jo said to me on Friday, all of it points to DVT without any of them actually saying it.

With all of the things I have wrong with me now, I wonder if I would be denied for social security disability like I was when I first applied.
They denied me twice, it took almost 5 years of fighting and lawyers to get it, and I know a couple of people who are going through it right now, they are on their second denial/second appeal, and could probably use a good lawyer like I had who has major experience fighting the denials.
I swear the SSA loves to deny everyone who applies at least twice.
I think they like to test people, to see if you file the appeals to prove that you're serious.
If you give up after being denied the first or second time, then maybe you're not really disabled or something.
It's a theory.

Anyway, I am going to call a friend in the morning, see if she can just drop me off and I'll call a cab to come back home when they release me, if they release me.
Oh man, what if they keep me because it's a severe clot and they gotta open up my right upper thigh/groin area, to clean out my vena cava filter?!
I swear, I can't take much more of this stuff, it's all just really too freaking much man.