My Single Mom Life

It's been an absolutely crappy last few days, a total roller coaster, and pain, both physical and emotional.

I had my doctor appointment Wednesday morning at 9:45am, and I forgot to take my drink with me, and I have to have a drink just in case I have to take a pee test, so I asked my friend to stop anywhere between my house and the doc's so I could get a drink.
Well, we're flying down Bee Ridge Road, she sees a gas station, and with no warning, she just pulls a wicked right hand turn, I don't even think she used a blinker, and she went up and over one of those parking lot curbs on just the passenger side of the car, my side.

The right tire went up and over, and all of my titanium felt like it went up into my skull and slammed back down into my tailbone, and then the back right tire went up and over, and again, the titanium felt like it went up into my skull and slammed back down again.
I am still in a world of hurt from hitting that curb around 65mph, days later.

Then!
I was so upset about some text messages that I received, approximately 27 of them over the course of just an hour, that when I went to get out of the car at the pharmacy, I fell out, landed on my hands and knees, and again, all of the titanium felt like it got slammed around in there.
I am still in so much pain.

Those text messages, ugh.
A so-called friend of like 7 years, was ripping into me because I said no to her latest request of wanting more of my time and things that I have.
She's always asking me for stuff, cigs, laundry soap, to fix her computer, all kinds of stuff, and this time, she knew that I got my food stamps on Wednesday, so she asked me to let her buy them off of me for .50cents on the dollar, I said no, I don't sell them, ever, they are for me to buy my family food.
She started texting in all caps that she needed the food stamps to buy food for her house because she spent the money her husband gave her for groceries on drugs, and so if she didn't get the groceries, he was gonna be furious and know that she was using.
I said that wasn't my problem, I wouldn't be selling her my stamps, no, sorry.
She spent the next 20 some-odd text messages absolutely berating me, calling me names, telling me that I was a terrible friend to her, that I never help her, that she's always helping me, doing things for me, so I owed her this, that technically, I should just give her ALL of my stamps, so many really horrible things, I was just absolutely crushed, devastated, that she was saying all of that to me.
The friends that I was with who took me to the doc's, they read the messages and were just floored, telling me that wasn't right for her to be talking to me like that, and also to do it by text message was just super cowardly too.
I just had such a horrible day on Wednesday between the curb accident, falling out of the car, and those messages, just a really, really, super bad day.
My blood pressure has been through the roof, I haven't been sleeping hardly at all, but insomnia is nothing new for me.
But then today around 11am, I passed out cold on the couch and didn't wake up until almost 8pm.
I just passed out from total exhaustion I guess.
I am also an emotional eater.
When I am really super sad and stressed out, I eat, and eat, and eat.
I had bought a red velvet cake on Wednesday when I went shopping, the cake WAS slightly smaller than a pound cake in width and length, and it WAS to die for.
Because of how upset I was, crying, yelling, screaming, and in so much physical pain too, I just ate that entire cake all by myself in 3 sittings/slices.
I can't believe that I did that, I haven't stuffed like that in years and years, but Wednesday, everything that happened, all of the pain, physical and emotional, I stuffed big time and ate an entire cake all by myself.
I feel really horrible about doing that because I've done so well with my weight loss, so the emotional stuffing, wow, that was just so bad and I really haven't done that in years.

Anyway, when I went to the store, I only got a few things to make a few meals, so I do need to go back and I was hoping that the coupons my mom said she sent me would have come today, but oh well, they didn't, so I'll just wait until they come to do the rest of my shopping.
I need to and like to save as much money on groceries as possible.
I am still so upset about what my "so-called friend" did and said, all over MY food stamps.
She behaved like I should have just given them to her, like I should have just done it so that her husband didn't catch her doing drugs again.
She's been doing them for a long time and he said if he caught her again, he was going to leave, so she just expected me to cover for her, let her go buy their groceries so she didn't get caught, and when I said no, she accused me of wanting her to get caught.
I don't give a crap what people do, but just don't expect me to fix it for them, ya know?
Just don't demand that I fix your mistakes, and that's what she did to me, demanded that I let her spend my food money so she doesn't get caught, and all of the things that she said to me, still hurt me, I am still so so upset by it all, it still hurt really bad.