September 07, 2004
It's raining again.
It's dark and blah outside and everyone is still sleeping.
I'd like to do that myself but I know it won't happen because once I'm up, I'm up.
So I have some laundry to do and I need to hit the post office and then who knows.
It's just so boring here and everyone is like sorta wiped out emotionally from watching and waiting on storms and it gets a little draining so forgive me if I sound like all dull and shit.
I am just wiped out.
It was a long and exhaustive weekend.
September 04, 2004
I'm over at my sisters house
for about half the day doing some stuff here.
Her keyboard stopped working and stuff so I figured that out and basically just hanging out.
I'm watching Along Came Polly cuz I'm bored.
Anyone see it?
Thoughts?
September 03, 2004
Home again home again jiggidy jig.
Sis and I went and paid the bill that I needed to pay and then went where she needed to go and then she bought me another air conditioner to replace the one in the boys room that is broken. (Fan motor died)
Yay!
Landlord said he'd come hook it up sometime next week.
I'm still not in a good place. I really can't even begin to tell you how much rage I have and the only people who know what I am like in person and have seen me this mad, could tell you that this is not good.
Hurricane Kat is exactly what happens.
Calm down Kat, feel better Kat. I'd love too, I really would but it is simply unfathomable to me why you can say one thing to a persons face but say something completely untrue and incredibly fucking mean behind their back and still call that person friend to their face.
Maybe I'm just a different kind of person.
I just tell the truth. I have never been a good liar and I have never seen the need to lie and back-stab and be mean and petty and all that shit but ya know what? If that's how people want to play that game, I will play so hard and so well and I will win and they will be the sorriest mother fucker on the planet when I am done.
See? Kat still in a rage. It would be pretty cool if when I got in a rage like this, I actually turned a color like the hulk so people would know to run for the hills.
Maybe invent like mood clothing like mood rings.
A t-shirt that would change color when mad or happy or in a violent homicidal rage so the the offending person would know to get the fuck out of the way or make it all better ASAP.
There ya go happy little inventors. Get cracking on that.
September 03, 2004
I just woke up.
I don't have the slightest clue what the weather is cuz the stupid daily news programs are talking crap.
I am tired, I am even more angry today than I was yesterday.
I do not tolerate lies very well at all.
What a weekend to be in a pissy mood.
If hurricane Frances doesn't wipe everyone in this house out, maybe hurricane Kat will.
And yes, this is me being as honest as the day is long.
I say my shit for everyone to fucking hear.
Why?
Cuz you are all the people that I have and if I can't tell shit to you, why fucking say it at all?
I don't hide, I don't lie, I just fucking say it.
I feel like the hulk this morning.
Grr. Kat mad. Kat crush bad things. Kat squash you like little bug.
September 02, 2004
Ok. I feel better.
I just needed to get all that out of my system before Frances gets here.
Shit just gets overwhelming and it's better to snap now than during the storm.
I went to check on a site I visit and it had a message for me when I logged in.
It told me it was 11am and not to forget to eat breakfast.
Thanks.
I just might have forgotten that I need to eat to live in my emotional state last night. /sarcasm
I'm keeping the kids home tomorrow just because shit needs to get done to get ready and I will need their help and I also have a bill I need to go pay.
Can't go alone especially now that my fucking leg keeps going numb.
I see the doc again on the 9th. Have many questions to ask her.
I'm alright. I am alright.
Can I blame it on the weather or something?
We did have a full moon and now the hurricane is sucking out all the air and shit.
Yeah.
I'm gonna blame my nuttiness on the weather.
September 01, 2004
Toss some salt, wish on pennies, say
August 31, 2004
Heidi and I went and voted,
came home, ate, read emails and then went and rented The Passion of the Christ and Kill Bill 2.
I had watched Kill Bill 2 over at my sisters house but kept getting interrupted so we are watching it again and I wanted to see Passion because I really want to know what all the hype is about.
I will let you know what I think about it after I watch it.
I'm pretty wiped out now and want to just kick back for a bit.
Don't forget to vote if you have elections in your area today.
August 31, 2004
Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you. *
*Quote/ Princess Diana (July 1, 1961-August 31, 1997)
The kids are getting ready to head off to school after a really lame attempt of faking sick.
Cough cough, my stomach.
So which is it?
I don't know, can you take my temperature.
98.2.
Go to school.
Today is local election day so if it's your local election day, get out there and vote.
It's your duty as an american to vote.
Make your voice heard.
You may think your one little voice doesn't matter but it does. One voice can totally change the course of history.
Later days.
*Update*
August 30, 2004
I did my shopping,
mailed my stuff. Those of you who emailed me your home addys, your box tops are on the way. The one person who didn't send me the addy, well, you will have to wait until I save more.
You snooze, you lose and as any of my snail mail friends can attest to, I suck at snail mail so getting these out today was a miracle in itself.
Shell, I got your mail. Thank you.
Oh, I bought a new flashlight. Thrilling eh? Publix had those lantern style flashlights for like $5.50 so I bought one. The boys pretty much broke my other small hand held ones so this one will stay with me in a safe place till it's needed.
I am so boring today eh?
Really, I have nothing much to say today at all.
I have to go back up to my sisters house in about a half hour or so and do some stuff there.
Later days.
August 30, 2004
Ok. Off to the store.
I have to get a few things and stuff and then come back home to make phone calls and wait for phone calls etc etc.
Hope you all have a good monday.
Later days.
August 28, 2004
It has been a very long day.
I am so tired.
I really didn't do much at all but what I did do made me tired.
No takers on all those free box tops?
Okey dokey.
No worries, I just felt like offering them up.
Oh and Bob, no matter what terms you throw in here to spam me with, I will blacklist them all.
I will give you credit for being so persistent but I am just as persistent.
August 27, 2004
I better not get sick or people are gonna die.
This is to remind you that people are still without power in parts of Florida. Namely where we went in Hardee county. They are looking at a few weeks longer and hoping for less. Please help if you can with recovery efforts.
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It was a sniffle fest in here last night. I had it in surround sound.
Heidi sneezing and hacking from her room. Mark sneezing, sniffling and hacking to the left and Sebastian sniffling to the right while watching that movie.
I thought I was going to go insane.
I mean it, if I get sick, I will hurt someone.
Nothing gets done when the mom is sick and you other moms can testify to that.
It's like they all forgot how to pick things up or wash a dish or something and they all kinda suck at picking things up and keeping it neat when I'm not sick.
The world basically stops turning when moms get ill.
Time to get Sebastian out the door. Mark will be home today and I need to give him some more Advil. He's running a touch of fever.
Later days.
August 26, 2004
Someone wanna come give me a ride?
I need to go to the store and get more advil or tylenol and some Nyquil for all these sickies but everyone here is sick and I am not allowed to go walking alone.
Yeah.
I'm a hazard to myself.
Actually, it's cuz of the meds. I am not allowed to drive or go walking alone on the robaxin cuz it makes you super fucking loopy stupid and at 4 pills a day, guess how loopy stupid kat is right now? ;)
I keep trying to reach my sis but am getting that horrid no signal message. What is the fucking point of having a cell phone if you can't have a fucking signal?
Grr.
August 25, 2004
Everything is done.
Heidi and I got everything done that we needed to and then came home to a massive thunderstorm that had the power flickering for about 45 minutes.
What fun.
So it was cold sandwiches and chips for dinner.
Sebastian gets to make up the test he missed tomorrow. Yay!
He had a great day at school. He is getting used to it more and more. It's very hard for him because he had the same teacher for 2 years. She taught 4th and 5th grade and got to keep all her students. So here he was, used to one teacher, all the same kids and fun in 1 classroom and then going into middle school with 6 teachers and 6 different classrooms and no fun..lol
He's getting it though.
Mark is doing great this year so far.
Doing all his work, making new friends who call here all the time. (Coley)
He does his chores with only the smallest of attitude now.
I did get some lip today but as soon as I reminded him that I wasn't yelling but talking and therefore he needed to stop raising his voice with me, he calmed right down.
Later days.
August 25, 2004
Going to head out soon.
This is a line of trucks from electric companies from all over working on the downed power lines. I was so happy to see so many trucks from across the country working hard to restore power to the area.
It is going to be awhile before things get better down there so help out if you can by going to Strentghen the Good and donating something to help at the link they have up.
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Heidi and I are headed out soon to take care of a few errands that she needs to do and I need to go so I can move a little and not get so stiff.
I have been sitting in the house and resting but my back just locks up after awhile.
The boys are off to school and I found out Sebastian missed a FCAT screener test yesterday by being sick.
That sucks. Hopefully they will let him make it up.
It's like to see where they are and where they need to be before the real FCATS later on.
Later days.
August 24, 2004
Such a quiet day.
As we were heading in Arcadia central, there was this guy selling hurricane Charley t-shirts. It wouldn't be so bad to sell this stuff if the proceeds were going to help with relief efforts but I sincerely doubt it as he was selling water too.
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Sebastian stayed asleep until almost 10:30 but has been feeling much better since then.
He helped me move around some stuff like the N64 and their old tv to my room so I could lay in there and watch tv when my back is really bugging.
Getting ready to make dinner in a bit here.
The boys are cleaning their room and then they have regular chores to do after that.
Not much else here at all.
Later days.
August 24, 2004
Sebastian is sick today.
He's just not doing so great. Fever, headache, stuffy in the head. It's a stay home day for him and his kitty is just all over him being a protective little mother to him like when his arm was broken, she never left his side.
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There is a deadly batch of drugs on the street here in SRQ. A 17-year-old girl and four other young men dead after taking a cocktail of drugs.
Now detectives are trying to quickly find where those drugs came from before other lives are lost.
There were five deaths in less than a week. Young people who all knew each other and all had the same deadly mixture of drugs in their systems. All five people had methadone in their systems, and traces of cocaine, OxyContin, and several other drugs.
It's like the new trend to mix shit together and sell it to unwilling dope smokers.
How fucked up is that?
I mean, you can't even go smoke now unless you know and trust the source it comes from cuz some asshole is cutting shit together.
The five did know each other and probably all bought their stuff from the same person(s) but had no idea when the first couple died, that it was all tied into what they bought.
The next couple of kids did it and died and then another friend was found dead in a motel room.
*I'm not condoning drug use. I am a have been there done that. I do think pot should be legal. Ya know, quit wasting money catching pot smokers and growers and go after the really important shit like illegal guns and stuff. But mixing of shit is bad, really bad.
August 23, 2004
The house smells so yummy.
This house lost it's roof and one of it's walls. The living room furniture now sits where once was a room.
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It's all banana yummy in here. Mmm.
I love making bread!
The kids are home and Mark is off to a friends house and Sebastian is just hanging out with me watching the tube.
It's been a really dull day around here.
I kind of like that after a long and tiring weekend and people constantly misunderstanding my pain grimace for anger.
Everyones always, Kat are ya mad at me? Did I do something wrong? And I'm all how many times do I have to tell you that I'm in pain and nothing is wrong but if you ask me one more freaking time I'm gonna get pissed and shove this 2x4 up your hind end.
I don't actually say that but man I want to sometimes. That makes me angry. People like expect me to be all talkative and perky and let me tell ya, I don't do perky. Never have.
I just like to be left alone most of the time. I like my peace and quiet and I don't like to be bothered unless it's really necessary.
Anyway, I'm trying to have a good day, making bread, hanging out, gonna take a shower after I turn the oven off. It's hot in here man.
Later days.
August 23, 2004
Hey.
This is a restaurant that lost all it's windows and it's roof. The table cloths are still strangely in place.
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Just thought I'd say hey.
It's another boring Monday around here.
Trying to fix Heidis electronics but without all the right remotes, it's a pain in the ass. Not her fault, shit gets lost when you move and Greyhound who shipped her stuff actually broke and opened several of her boxes. Bastages.
The kids went off to school after telling me about the fish stick twins.
What? I said.
They smell like fish.
I told them to be nice and if I ever catch them saying that to those 2 girls, I'll kick their teeth in.
Some parents, need to do a better job of teaching hygiene to their kids. These girls smell bad and now have a nickname and Travis stinks to high heaven.
Hello parents??
Didn't you ever hear of teaching your kid to take a shower and wash with soap and water everyday? Or how about brushing your teeth and putting on deodorant?
Gawd. I feel bad for some of these kids.
I mean, middle school is hell enough without smelling bad. Do you have any idea what it's like for the smelly kids? They can have all the right clothes and the right sneakers and even some stupid bling (I hate that word. It's called jewelry you fucknuts) but if they smell bad, it's pure fucking hell. It's a nightmare everyday of school. They are teased mercilessly and if they get a nickname like Fish stick, it sticks until high school is over. That's a long time to be teased.
My back is still fried but I am going to make banana bread later on for my new neighbors. They have a daughter who goes to school with my boys and she just moved here and there are no girls on my street at all so she wants to hang with the boys. I'm going to make some bread to take over. It's nice to have nice neighbors unlike the fuckers that I currently have on both sides of me.
August 19, 2004
I am having a blah moment.
You know.
You feel blah and absolutely nothing comes into your head when you sit down to type.
It's not writers block.
It's blah.
There's a million things you could say but you feel so blah that you don't even care to type it all out because you just go fuck it all today and curl up with a blanket.
I curled up with a sheet.
It's hot.
I have things I should be doing and things I could be doing but fuck it all.
I don't feel like it.
I am blah today.
August 16, 2004
It has been such a long hot day.
I wanna die now.
My docs office (the one in the ghetto) called this morning to tell me the doc wants me to take a different muscle relaxer and that the pharmacy out there, has it filled already and I need to come get it.
Ugh. So off I go.
2 buses later, I arrive only to find the pharmacy people on lunch break.
For an hour.
So I'm like totally starving and the little store on the corner was making something that smelled so good.
I asked the plump short black woman with graying hair what she's cooking because it smells fabulous.
She laughed at me and said fried chicken.
For $3.45 I had 10 of the hugest fried chicken wings I have ever had in my whole life.
And were they good?
Oh honey, I think I may take trips to the docs more often. Shit that was fucking fantastic.
Mmmm, mmff. Yum.
Got my new pills and headed back home on my 2 buses and several hours later trip and went to the store cuz I know i forgot stuff yesterday and got home at 4:30 sweaty, tired and feeling like I was hit by a truck.
I'm going to take my new meds and get something to snack on and rest.
August 15, 2004
The kids came back from seeing
ALIEN vs. PREDATOR and said it was really good. They liked it a lot and I told them I didn't want to know how it ends or who wins cuz I want to be surprised when I watch it on video at some point.
Minnesota was here and is way stressed out. Rents are very high in our area but cheaper rents are out in the ghetto area. Sure it's only like $300 a month but you gotta put up with a lot of shit living out there.
We're gonna make phone calls and stuff tomorrow to see what kind of rooms for rent there are around here.
That's about all from here. Haven't really had a chance to catch up on hurricane news at all today.
August 15, 2004
Remember how I said I was
going to adopt Minnesota?
Well, I did.
We went to the store this morning and he had been thrown out of his dads house this morning with all his stuff. He took his suitcases to work with him and had nowhere to go and it being Sunday, no homeless shelters are open and stuff. So we brought his stuff home with us and when he's done working, he's going to come crash here for a few days.
I can't see letting some nice kid have to crash on the street tonight.
Maybe I'll snap a pic of him if he'll let me.
It's a shame and really fucking shitty the way some families treat their own flesh and blood.
August 11, 2004
It was such a long day.
I had a very long, very boring day with a few humorous moments.
I have just a few pictures to share. but I'm too tired to upload them right now.
There was a woman who was so uppity and so uptight and so racist, you could smell the fear in her words to her daughter that if anyone even so much as spoke to her, she was to scream as loud as she could.
There was a guy who looked like Tony Pierces little brother. I mean that in the way that he looked like him and was easy going and as talkative as Tony blogs. He was cool and saw the humor and the racism in that lady.
Not humorous as in it was funny that she was racist but humorous in the way that she was acting like she was better than everyone else and she was above us all and she couldn't believe that she needed some sort of welfare or child support collection help. Like she wasn't supposed to be there.
Oh, but she was there and it was humorous to watch her act like bitch.
Then I rode the bus home with a kid on his cellphone and he talked on that thing for 22 straight city blocks.
I wanted to grab his phone and beat him with it because it was stupid shit he was talking and wow, was he dull and if that's all he could talk about, I felt bad for the person on the other end of the phone and maybe by beating him with his cellphone, I would have somehow spared that person that hour long snoozefest.
I also sat next to a woman with an obvious mental disorder of some kind.
How do I know?
She clapped twice every 2 minutes without fail for the entire hour long bus ride home.
I got off before her.
Clap clap.
August 10, 2004
It's been a long day.
I had a massive migraine for most of the day which prevented me from doing much of anything at all.
Got new insurance stuff so dealt with that.
Have an appointment downtown tomorrow so maybe you'll get pictures.
Have a docs appointment thursday so I know you'll get pictures on that day.
New docs is in the ghetto.
Yup, you read that right. The ghetto.
I am so excited I can't even tell you.
Supposed to be really great doc from what I have been told it's just in a shitty part of the city.
Heidi will be going with me for support and so I'm not all alone.
Hey, I'm not afraid to admit I get scared in that part of town, you would too if you could see it.
Sarasota may have the whitest, cleanest beaches in the world, a paradise, but it also has it's high crime areas as well.
The bus gets damn near close to the docs so it shouldn't be too bad.
That's all for now.
Later days.
August 09, 2004
It's really early.
Well earlier than we have been getting up all summer but man am I excited for school today.
Everyone is up each others butts and driving me insane.
School is a good thing for many reasons.
The boys are eating breakfast and getting ready and then it will be quiet here.
Yay!
I may actually have time to blog and stuff now.
I have phone calls to make around 9ish and a routine will be nice to get back into.
August 07, 2004
Morning.
I am feeling a bit better. Got tons of rest last night and have no plans to do anything at all and I'm keeping it that way. If people need to go places, they can go alone. I can't do anymore.
Finally updated the calendar in the sidebar. Took me long enough. The calendar is courtesy of Keanuvision.
May make a new skin for this later on and dump an old one.
Halloween is coming (2 1/2 months but it's my fave holiday) and I am a huge fan of the independent film(s) Ginger Snaps. I found some great stuff that I want to work with and make a skin out of. If you haven't ever seen those movies and like bloody and werewolves, check out Ginger Snaps and Ginger Snaps 2 unleashed. The prequel, part 3, is coming out this September.
That's it for now.
Oh, the pictures of Sebastian are ones I have just been taking here and there. He lets me take pictures of him, Mark doesn't.
I don't want anyone thinking I'm playing favorites. Mark is becoming angsty teen boy.
August 06, 2004
Blah.
My back is just majorly sucky today and for the last few days. It's just hurting more than I want to deal with.
Maybe if someone could come rip off my left leg right at the hip, it would feel better. At least nothing would be getting pinched.
Bleh.
Nothing much else is going on here.
The kids are getting haircuts with sis and Heidi is out with a friend and I feel old.
It's just a phase. It will pass.
I'll be back to my normal self when the pain subsides some.
It really sucks when the majority of your time is dealing with pain. You have no idea. And I hate bitching about it too but it truly is all consuming and I know bitching does nothing for it but it's all I got....lol
I haven't replied to comments. I haven't answered emails.
I did the dishes though.
August 06, 2004
The kids went and slept over Mikeys last night.
I had time alone and it was nice and then Heidi came home and we watched Elephant. It's powerful See it.
We are going to head out when she wakes up and go to her bank and I'm gonna see if I can find Minnesota.
Minnesota, not his real name, moved here from, can you guess? That's right, Minnesota.
He was going to go back and go to college but when I saw him 2 days ago I asked him when he was going and he said that wasn't going back.
I asked him why and he said that his dad was getting re-married and his mom told him not to come back.
The look in his eyes was heartbreak and I felt horrible for the guy.
Don't come back.
How hard it must be to hear that when that is all you were looking forward to doing. Going home to family and they tell you don't come back.
He knows no one here so I have decided to allow him to know us.
Taking in stray kids... and he is just a kid. Just about college age but he seems like a nice enough kid and I'm not really gonna take him in (don't worry mom) but if he'll let me, become his friend and then maybe it won't be so lonely around here for him.
I knew he was cool the first time I heard him speak and he did that Minnesota accent and I did it back and instead of getting mad like most people would do thinking you're making fun of them, he came back with a 'you betcha' full on accent and I nearly died.
He's polite and sweet and no one deserves to feel unwanted.
I can't imagine treating my kids like that even years from now no matter what they may do with their lives. Even if I were to ever re-marry (don't hold your breath) I could never ever tell my boys to not come back to me. If they need me, I will always be here open armed and waiting.
So hopefully he's working today and if not, I'll just have to catch him another day.
August 05, 2004
Getting ready to head downtown this morning.
Have to go pay a bill.
I hate going downtown but at least it's more interesting that the other bill place.
Just 5 more days till the boys go back. They are starting to really drive each other bonkers.
August 03, 2004
It's still raining.
I have things I have to do today too. Not too much. I do need to go get a money order to pay a bill with and go buy some food.
Tomorrow I need to go out and head downtown.
Not looking fwd to it.
The weather here is all rainy, it's officially storm season and so it rains during the times of the day when you need to get up and go somewhere.
Like now.
Not much else is happening here.
Later days.
July 31, 2004
I want to talk about something
that I'm sure many single women go through whether you're a single mom or just a single woman trying to make a life for yourself.
How many of you single women out there get asked all the time how come you don't have a man?
Or how do you survive without a man? What is wrong with you that you don't have a man?
You know what? There is nothing wrong with me for not having a man.
My roomie asked me this question about a week ago and although I supplied her with a rather funny anecdotal reason, it was true for the most part.
I also got some comments yesterday from someone who made it seem like a crime that I didn't have a man. That I somehow must be a dried up bitter old hag with no friends because as the commenter put it, I haven't "gotten laid".
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July 30, 2004
I was in the middle of this weird dream.
About MT for some reason. I don't even fucking understand it myself.
Mikey is due over at some point this morning.
Heidi is still sleeping and miracle of all miracles, Mark is awake before noon.
Life is dull here today so far.
Maybe something exciting will happen worth blogging about.
Later days.
Oh hey, I did this little quizzie thingy cuz I'm bored and I do quizzie things when I am bored.
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July 29, 2004
It's been a rather boring day.
Been resting and clicking between soaps. Heidi and Sebastian still aren't back yet.
Better be some damn good shoes if it takes all day...lol
I need to go do the dishes and start prepping for dinner etc.
Later days.
July 28, 2004
Maybe you younger women can help me out here.
Someone posted a comment using a word that I did not know.
The word is mack.
I went to urban dictionary to see what it meant and apparently, it means to flirt or hit on etc etc.
Now, what I want to know ladies is this, do you find guys who talk in urban slang attractive?
Does it do anything for you?
See, I read the comment and was immediately put off not even knowing what it meant and then even more turned away when I looked it up.
I find men who speak normal everyday english sound slightly more intelligent.
Maybe the guys who are speaking that way are smart but it doesn't sound smart to me and I know that this is the time we live in and lots of people and teens speak like that but please tell me if you personally find that way of speaking even remotely attractive.
Does it turn you on cuz you might just be getting a bad boy from the hood or does it turn you off cuz he's probably an ass with a 5th grade education?
I don't mean to be sounding all uppity or anything I'm just asking if women really find this style of talk and stuff attractive.
July 26, 2004
Back is sucky.
Back is crap.
I was able to move this morning so I guess I'm lucky.
People are sleeping.
How nice for them.
I'm sure they'll wake up when I start cleaning.
July 25, 2004
It has been a most boring day.
But in a good way.
I have been resting which was sorely needed.
The house is quiet and I have been alone which was needed too.
Hope you all had a great weekend and hopefully, things will be more normal around here this coming week.
Later days.
July 24, 2004
This house is so clean..
you could suck your spaghetti out of my rug.
I have been cleaning like crazy and well, it's clean.
I feel good.
In other news, I lost another 5 pounds.
I am not starving myself or even cutting too much out. Just eating smaller.
Yay me!
Now that it's the weekend when most of you bloggers take off and do other stuff, I have time now to come visit. This will give me a chance to really catch up with all of you.
Have a great weekend, stay out of the heat if you can.
Later days.
July 23, 2004
Time. Where does it go?
Time on the puter has been a little less this week due to a multitude of reasons and some are explained elsewhere.
I have been cleaning and and doing what needs to be done and I'm very tired and all that shit.
I can't even really explain it all because well, I don't want to.
I have more cleaning to do and the boys are currently attempting to buy vacuum bags for me.
I will be back around again when I get things done enough for me to come play again.
I apologize for not visiting any of you.
It is not my intention to not visit you and see how you are. I have just been very busy, so busy that I haven't had time to take care of my own sanity which at this point is near thread bare.
I would have been unhappy visitor at your place anyway.
Later days.
July 22, 2004
Went out.
Paid the elec bill.
Took many pictures.
Sweat near to death.
Post more later.
Must rest.
Later days.
July 20, 2004
Do I hear an amen?
I went to the store with Heidi today and did some general shit with her and then did a little bit of food shopping.
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I bought a special treat for dinner for all of them and did not get any of it myself because I don't eat fish. Simple.
This shit cost $12.00 and they all told me they love it before I bought it ya know so it's not like I went and bought shit that they hate.
I made it the same way it's supposed to be made and the same way they have all eaten it before.
Should be no problem right?
Wrong.
Half eaten, complaining, considering tossing it in the trash.
$12.00 in the trash folks.
Kat not a happy woman.
And to make it all the more fun, while I was making it and while they ate it, we were watching a movie about starving kids in fucking Africa!
Do you think that had an impact on any of them?
Do ya? huh huh?!!
Do you know what I can buy with $12.00?
Let me tell you what I can buy with it.
I can buy 36 fucking packages of ramen noodles, 4 boxes of macaroni and cheese and 1 pound of hamburger and a gallon of milk.
That is just an example of how much I can buy with $12.00 not that I would buy 36 fucking packs of ramen noodles but just so you get the point.
I mean, hey, if we are gonna waste $12.00 fucking bucks, can we at least waste it on something I want like smokes or a dvd?
I swear to fucking god people are just trying to piss me off.
I mean, they actually tossed shit in the trash rather than say feed it to the cats who would have fucking appreciated it a whole lot more I think.
July 19, 2004
I was sitting outside watching the pretty sunshower
when it quickly turned from pretty to holy shit.
It started coming down sideways and heavy and ripping leaves on the bushes.
It soaked my whole carport and scared the cat.
Now it's thundering and lightning and it looks like it's going to be a bit nasty for awhile.
I was going to go to the store.
I need some borax for an ant problem that we have every summer but I guess I won't be venturing out today or at least not right now.
I guess it's supposed to rain most of the day.
That sucks.
I guess it will give me time to do the chores around here.
I have dishes and vacuuming and stuff like that. Some laundry too.
Later days.
July 17, 2004
Take your baby by the heel and do the next thing that you feel.
Yes that is a padded, shaped bra. Why do ask? Well because I am pierced and when you just wear any old bra and have pierced your nipples, people tend to stare. So rather than deal with any unwanted comments or looks from uppity bitches, I keep it covered. I didn't get them done for the general public to view anyway.
I still owe you a picture of my hair don't I? It's kind of sort of reddish but not really. It more or less evened out my hair and covered some of the grey. WTF is up with that? Bah.
This song has been stuck in my head all fucking night. It's my own fault. I cannot fall asleep at all unless I hear music and it can't be no namby pamby soothing crap, no it has to be loud and doesn't have to be metal per say but I can fall to sleep in minutes listening to Pantera with my headphones on at full blast. It's just what works for me.
So anyway, last night was shit night for radio and my cd player didn't feel like cooperating so I was scanning the stations and heard some good stuff, stay, listen, end, scan and as I was dozing off, I hit scan one last time sorta by sleepy finger accident and I heard this lovely piece of music seconds before hitting the power button.
Nothing like dreams where monsters are after me and I'm stuck wearing some dumb ass frilly, feathery fucking ball-gown and screaming that I must get to Wang Chung.
Dance Hall days.
You know the rules right? Don't be a dick, always right click.
There is an update elsewhere.
July 16, 2004
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So this morning we had a few errands to run which didn't get done right because Washington Mutual, (sucks donkey balls) which is Heidi's bank, fucked her over.
So we came home and on the way there was a yard sale and at the yard sale I found a happy meal toy I didn't have.
The big black social worker from Lilo and Stitch.
Had to have him. So here he is. Shitty picture but cool toy on top of my monitor.
Happy thing, pissy thing.
So here's the pissy thing.
This is my home. I own this site. What I say here doesn't have to be politically correct or polite or nice or kind or anything that anyone other than me finds appropriate.
I get to say what I want. It's mine.
Comment-ors on the other hand, need to sort of think of this as they are a guest in my home.
So if you come here and tell me that I am being childish in my little book turning that I do, you get the answer back that you get.
If you think it's childish, then don't do it. I wouldn't want you to feel silly or childish at all. Cuz you know, having a little fun while doing something naughty like turning a book around is just so grown up for you and you've never ever done anything at all that could be construed as childish right?
I have comments here so that people can respond and while I allow you the freedom to say whatever you want and I never delete anything unless it's just downright fucking terrible and horrifyingly mean, I will respond to you in the same manner in which you commented here.
You play nice, I play nice.
99% of the comments are from like minded people meaning we share the same value systems and beliefs etc.
I know there are people out there who disagree with me and that's fine, feel free to disagree but just keep in mind that I can and will reply to 99% of the comments I get and this site is completely biased and one sided because well, it's obvious by now isn't it? Only one person, me, owns it.
There are a gazillion blogs out here in the big wide net and there are so many diverse people and blogs, I am sure if you don't like what's written here, you can find something that is more along your line of taste and approval.
As far as the grocery store book turning, I have asked them to try and cater to everyone or remove it and guess what? They don't have to, they OWN the store just like I OWN this site and so I could shop somewhere else but they have the best prices in town where you don't need to be a card carrying club member to get a decent price. I turn the books around as a form of protest and no one, not me, not a group of atheists anywhere or any other religious group that isn't christian, has told you that YOU have to do it.
It's what I do. Childish to you, form of protest to me.
And to even suggest that I buy all the books and have a book burning, sarcasm or not, was the most stupid and asinine thing I have ever heard.
I may not agree with what's in those books and I may disagree with the bible etc, but I would never, ever condone censorship or book burnings.
That was childish.
July 15, 2004
Multipost.
Okey dokey.
Jenni has requested Rico Suave so there it is. Get it while it's hot.
What have I done today?
I have just watched movies all day long. Too hot to go out, too hot to do anything but lay around so we watched:
The Scorpion King, then The Lion King 1 1/2, then Gothika then The Dead Zone and now the boys are watching Freddy vs. Jason.
We borrowed a ton of dvds from a friend and man, am I in movie heaven. I am so loving this.
Later days.
It's like my own personal video store.
July 15, 2004
*Yawn*
I had a rough time falling asleep and then I wanted to get up early so here I am, up early so I can go to the grocery store before it gets hot.
Too late. It's already hot.
Fucking Florida in the summer.
My horriblescope had this to tell me this morning;
The message arrives, but no one can understand the messenger. Remember that although he or she doesn't speak your language, you don't speak theirs, either. It makes for an interesting interaction. New information may or may not have anything to do with your private vision of a perfect world. It could, though, provide you with clues that help you further define your utopia. This is a time to include others in your process. Their ideas could spark your creativity.
Ya know, I have really had enough of the language barrier shit so the messenger, can just go fuck himself until he learns english.
I don't want to hear no shit about Metallica ok? Someone asked for this song so here it is. Unforgiven II.
We already hashed out the Metallica shit over at Jenni's so if you have something to add, go over there.
And yes, Lars is a little tightassed fucknut who should remove the drumsticks from his ass. I hate him.
But I love James.. Grrr baby.
*update* I fucked the html so now it's fixed. You can take it now.
July 14, 2004
You ever...
Write a whole entry and then read it and think to yourself, gawd, what the hell crawled up your ass today?
I just wrote this huge scathing post about all kinds of shit and then I read it and realized that all that I had written was exactly the type of behavior I was upset about.
So fuck it.
Live and let live and I'm just gonna keep on going cuz in the end, the mortician man ain't gonna give a shit what I stood for.
July 13, 2004
Another day, another pain in the...
I had a painful day from hell yesterday.
Stomach, back and a migraine that wouldn't fucking quit.
I attempted to put myself into a soma coma but it didn't work.
A soma had no effect on any of the pain. WTF.
If that wasn't enough to piss me off, the noise levels in this house did.
Trust me, it was best that I stayed off the pc.
I feel a bit better this morning although the back ache is still with me pissing me off like you would not believe. I think it's just toying with me. Pain, no pain. here, have a spasm.
It's like go the fuck away already.
I laid down all day yesterday and rested, you can leave now.
Fucking miserable thing.
Heidi bought me an Orlando poster to cheer me up when she went out.
Hung it next to my bed. I was cheery all night.
Hennepin, a commenter here, has a blog now. Go say hello. She has this pic of Steve Perry up that doesn't even look like him. Well at least not the way I remember him.
I was a Journey fan.
Shut up.
I am listening to Vh1s rock station right now. I was listening to the 80's but they kept playing shit I hated back then like Papa don't preach (gag) and Funky cold medina (barf) and that's when it hit me that you can't go back. It still sounds the same but if you only tolerated that shit then, it just grates on your nerves now.
At least I can sit here and not want to rip my hair out listening to thunderstruck or some shit like disturbed.
So, yeah. That's what I am up to.
July 12, 2004
Morning.
I am not feeling all that great today so I may or may not be around.
I tossed and turned all night with stomach cramps and a back ache to boot.
I just need to chill for awhile today.
I try to do too much.
Have a great monday.
Later days.
July 11, 2004
Home again home again jiggidy jig.
Just got back home.
Hung out there for awhile and watched movies, cleaned up her pc. Holy shit. There was 471 pieces of spyware on that fucker.
Damn.
So anyway, now I'm home and tired and just gonna watch more movies.
Later days.
July 11, 2004
Headed out again.
Just doing some stuff over at my sisters place and hanging out there watching movies and stuff.
Will answer emails later.
Hope you are all having a great weekend.
Later days.
July 10, 2004
The long day is over.
I had a very long but good day.
I surfed around from my sisters house on dial up so it was kinda of slow so I didn't leave many comments places. But I checked in on most of you.
My back is just fried today.
I have done way more walking this week than I should have. I pushed myself so I could get out and do stuff with Heidi.
Going to the movies with her and the store and drugstore etc etc etc.
I wanted to go. I like going but my body just ain't what it should be. I am so paying for it tonight let me tell ya.
We had to go to the store again tonight and I swear, I must have made her stop walking at least 8 times on a less than 1 mile walk to the store.
It just hurt so fucking much.
I hate whining too. I kept apologizing for making her stop. She said it was ok but man, I feel like shit having to make people wait for me to stretch it out.
The curve wants me to bend over, stay in a leaned forward position but when you walk, you have to be upright so it gets inflamed and pissed off and then I have to stop and bend over and stretch the back muscles until they chill out and then try to walk again.
Walk. Stretch. Walk. Stretch. Repeat 50 times until you get where and to you are going. It's a bitch and I feel embarrassed when I have to do this.
I just want my life back.
I just want it back. If I could have any wish, it would be to have a strong, healthy back. Fuck money. Fuck love. I just want a strong body.
This ain't no pity party tonight so don't think of this post like that. It's just me bitching because I hurt and I am angry that I hurt and the hurt doesn't go away and it just gets more and more hurty everyday that passes.
The boys slept over Mikey's again tonight.
2 nights in a row of silence. It feels like an eternity.
I really do miss the noise.
I am going to be one of those moms who go through empty nest syndrome when they grow up and leave. It's going to be awful...lol
Well, I guess that's all for now.
Later days.
July 10, 2004
Headed out for awhile.
Headed out today to do various errands. May try to post later on.
Later days.
July 09, 2004
It's been relatively quiet here all day.
Mark went off and mowed his lawn that he does for $10 a cut. He has 4 lawns that he does every week. Not bad huh?
Sebastian was helping him by raking and bagging the grass but he decided he no longer wanted to help so he got some trash bags and attached them to the back of the mower to catch the clippings.
He doesn't mind not getting paid anymore cuz it's so hot out there but he didn't want Mark to have to rake too.
Smart little bugger. I would have never thought of that.
They are getting ready to go sleep over Mikey's house and I am going to be bored to death.
I love them. They bug me to pieces but even just one night away and I miss the sounds they make and the fights they get in.
*sigh*
July 07, 2004
Just some stuff.
I have done the dishes, 2 loads of laundry and cleaned the bathroom, taken out the trash and hung all my clothes and am now waiting to vacuum cuz some peeps are still asleep.
I have been using Firefox and trying like hell to get the spell checker to work.
It's installed. I right click and the spell check box shows up but it's not checking any of the words. It just sits there.
I love spell checker. I need spell checker.
I right click, it does nothing. I close out of fiirefox and come back to ie, right click and voilą, spelling check.
WTF? is wrong with the Firefox spell checker?
Anyone? Anyone?
July 06, 2004
I am tired.
We went out and paid the bill and came home. I have just been laying around resting for the most part. It's so damn hot out there. Ugh.
Heidi and Mark went out because she had an errand to do and he tagged along.
Mikey is supposed to sleep over tonight.
Later days.
July 06, 2004
I'm up. Really.
I am getting ready to head out and go pay that damn phone bill. All the way down there for that one fucking bill. I hate them.
Sebastian is going with me.
I'll be back later on. It's supposed to feel like 105 degrees out there today.
Ugh.
Later days.
July 05, 2004
Ack. Cough.
Morning.
I was cleaning yesterday instead of playing like I'm sure most people did.
I had some black mold to kill and so I set to work killing said mold with bleach.
I scrubbed and rubbed and soaked and scraped and the mold is now dead.
But in the process of killing said mold, I inhaled bleach fumes and my lungs have been on fire ever since.
They ache, my nose is stuffed and runny and I keep sneezing in my bodies attempts to rid itself of the offending bleach.
I will live.
The boys lit off their fireworks last night and we watched our neighbors set off theirs.
Mother nature had her own show that was better than any fireworks I think.
She lit up the sky with bolts of blue and white and ripped them across the dark night skies over and over again competing with the man made ones shooting off from the surrounding beaches and streets.
She kept up her show longer than anyone else and when she saw that she was victorious in her display of light, she opened the sky a little more and let down the rains in gentle showers and put out any still burning sparks left on the ground by careless men.
We went to sleep tired and hot and they all still sleep but me who tossed and turned and sneezed bleach fumes all night long.
I woke up feeling like the kind of chemical hangover I used to get back in the day of sniffing rush from little brown bottles.
The high was always weird and clouded your head and the next day you felt a little groggy, a little less smart, a little more confused.
Some people in my town sniffed more than me and it was obvious. They were ones with the sort of glazed donut looks in their eyes.
I hated spending money on that shit. One stumble on the uneven sidewalks of the square and your bottle falls from your hand, purse, back pocket, $15 was wasted.
It never seemed worth it to me anyways because of the groggy, achey hangover the next day.
Sniffing was stupid and I know that now as I sit here feeling like I used to the day after and wanting to crawl back into bed. Wanting to block out light and noise and start over without the head pounding and confusion.
Tony say it with pictures.
While I was lighting shit off, they got me pretty bad too.
July 03, 2004
Bills paid. Check.
Groceries bought. Check.
Free comics gotten. Check.
Lawn mower fixed. Check.
Bike fixed. Check.
Mail MT login info to myself. Check.
Back aching from over doing it. Check.
Hungry from not eating all day. Check.
Will catch up with everyone a bit later on.
I am headed to my sisters house for a few hours tonight so I may blog and bloghop from there.
Later days.
July 02, 2004
It won't go away.
Mommy, make the nasty head pounding stop now please.
July 01, 2004
I had a dream that woke me up.
I was at some hotel that had an open pavilion type thing in the middle.
Water fountain, palms, multiple hallways leading to different parts of the hotel and elevators, an open ceiling like a sky light without glass.
I wanted to leave, I needed to leave but I was told I couldn't go back to my room to get my bags and I could not just walk out the main entrance because they couldn't be held responsible if I got hurt.
What? Hurt? From what I demanded. I recall screaming at the bellhops and front desk people.
What, how, could I possibly get hurt?
People, other guests at the hotel started sitting on the chairs and sofas and on the floor locking arms with each other.
I was told to do the same so I sat on the floor near a hallway and locked my right arm with some older man leaving my left arm free.
I heard the noise before I saw anything.
It was loud and booming and people stared up at the open ceiling and started to get excited like they were waiting for fireworks.
The noise got louder and louder. It was loud and booming and like a jet engine.
I looked up to see what could be coming our way that had these people interlocked and thrilled.
The nose of a jet fighter came into view of the open skylight and the noise was deafening.
It wasn't right on top of us but so close you could feel the power of the engine and the heat coming off of it.
It hovered above us and people cheered and then it took off.
Then more came into view and people did the same thing.
I unlocked arms and crawled my way across the floor.
It was windy from the engines and I fell over a few times.
I made my way over to some bellhop and asked what was going on, why were these fighters above us, is it a show, what the hell is going on and what does any of this have to do with me leaving the hotel or even getting my bags.
He said the hotel was close to a military base and these planes were being sent to war. They were loaded with bombs and other weaponry. The hotel decided to be patriotic and show support for the war by making everyone sit there and send these planes off to war and most of the people were cheering and screaming go USA over and over. The sounds of the engines was interspersed with cheering.
But why can't I go back to my room? I didn't want to see this. I don't need to see this. I just want to get my things and leave.
Where are you gonna go he asked? Why don't you just go sit back down and watch.
I want to leave.
Where are you going to go he asked again. There is nowhere to go. We are one of the safest places right now.
What are you talking about I screamed at him.
We're at war he yelled back. Most of the country is under attack, millions already feared dead on the east coast. We are so close to the base, we are sort of under protection. Just go sit back down. After all the fighters have taken off, you can go back to your room but you can never leave.
The sounds of more and more fighters over head was more than I thought I could take.
I broke free from the bellhop who had now grabbed my arm and ran to the exit.
I busted through the doors to look off to the east.
The sky far off in the horizon was lit up a bright orange glow. I could hear bombs dropping. More and more jet fighters screeched over my head.
I fell to the ground and just watched as the sky grew brighter in the distance from fires.
They were dropping bombs on us.
They were dropping bombs on us.
I just laid there frozen watching, listening.
That's when I woke up in a panic.
It took me about 2 hours to get back to sleep.
June 30, 2004
Boredom.
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June 29, 2004
I'm seriously starting to get ticked.
Heidi shipped her tv and puter here by UPS.
Usually, UPS knocks at my door.
For the amount of money they charged her to ship these 3 boxes, I should have gotten a knock.
The one box this morning and then the other two boxes this afternoon, no knocks.
Expensive items sitting, baking in my driveway all day and no knocks at all.
I called and complained.
They said it's the drivers discretion to knock or not.
Hrm.
Large boxes, very heavy, placed directly at front door, 2 more steps and you could rap tap tap real fast and leave but noooo, no rap, no tap. Just dump and leave very expensive electronics to bake in sun all day but charge the sender an ungodly amount to ship.
These are probably jam packed with peanuts too.
grr.
June 29, 2004
Morning.
I have no idea what we're going to do today. Just sort of waking up still.
Heidi has left for work and Sebastian and I are just sitting watching the news.
Mark is still in snoozeland.
It's just another quiet day here so far.
June 28, 2004
It's been a fairly quiet day around here.
Did my cleaning and laundry and was just hanging out when berry showed up again. That makes twice this month...lol
He needed me to go run and errand with him so I went.
It's not a bad thing. We get along and we are friends still.
We talked a bit in the car but he is still too much of a country bumpkin for my tastes. All country music and the twang in his voice..lol
Making burgers for dinner and waiting for the storm to hit.
It's really loud out there right now.
Well, that's all from here.
Hope you all had a good monday.
June 28, 2004
Monday monday.
Morning.
Not a hell of a lot going on here again today.
Have some light cleaning to do, emails to answer. Sorry everyone but there are a bunch of us trying to use the puter now and so I'm sort of just taking my time getting around to shit.
Things are fine here. Everyone is doing ok and stuff.
Need to get cracking on my emails and then dishes and then the floors.
Later days.
June 26, 2004
Holy crap is it boring here today.
Not doing anything really. Just hanging out.
There's a big storm headed our way. You can hear it stomping around up there like it's throwing a fit.
I don't mind the daily thunderstorms but I wouldn't mind them a whole lot more if they actually cooled shit off when they were done.
June 26, 2004
Where have I been?
I have been busy.
My friend showed up so I have been busy visiting and talking and stuff.
Just like it always was.
We had a good time.
Everyone is still sleeping so I have all this quiet time to myself and don't know what to do with myself...lol
Isn't that the way it always is?
Later days.
June 25, 2004
Where does the time go?
We went to the store pretty early this morning and then when we came home, I ate and fell asleep.
Bad.
It's the heat I tell ya.
Makes me so tired.
I have that cleaning to do.
Little general stuffs.
Something cool is happening today but I can't say what because certain assholes may be reading.
Check elsewhere.
Later days.
June 25, 2004
It is so very quiet around here.
There is nothing much going on around here.
Just have some general cleaning to do today and that's about it.
The boys are starting to get on each others nerves which just makes me want to push for year round school a bit more.
They get antsy during the summer.
Nothing to do except play games or go run around in the heat outside so they start aggravating each other and have a few fights.
They ended up in bed a bit early last night.
I simply can't put up with the constant battles so nite nite ya all.
They are still sleeping so I am not going to wake them up yet.
Let' em sleep so the battles of the bored boys don't start too soon.
That's about it for here.
Hope you all have a great friday.
June 24, 2004
Awake.
Watching tv, reading blogs, answering emails, looking for breakfast food in fridge.
Talking on phone.
Still tired.
Must clean the house.
Have someone stopping by later today.
House is mess.
Later days.
June 23, 2004
I have been sleeping all day.
I have had a headache since yesterday and then it developed into a migraine today so I have been asleep for most of the day.
I have just been laying in my pitch black room with the fan on trying to kill the raging migraine which incapacitates me for hours.
I hate them.
I did manage to get up an
