September 07, 2004

It's raining again.

It's dark and blah outside and everyone is still sleeping.
I'd like to do that myself but I know it won't happen because once I'm up, I'm up.
So I have some laundry to do and I need to hit the post office and then who knows.
It's just so boring here and everyone is like sorta wiped out emotionally from watching and waiting on storms and it gets a little draining so forgive me if I sound like all dull and shit.
I am just wiped out.
It was a long and exhaustive weekend.

September 04, 2004

I'm over at my sisters house

for about half the day doing some stuff here.
Her keyboard stopped working and stuff so I figured that out and basically just hanging out.
I'm watching Along Came Polly cuz I'm bored.
Anyone see it?
Thoughts?

September 03, 2004

Home again home again jiggidy jig.

Sis and I went and paid the bill that I needed to pay and then went where she needed to go and then she bought me another air conditioner to replace the one in the boys room that is broken. (Fan motor died)
Yay!
Landlord said he'd come hook it up sometime next week.

I'm still not in a good place. I really can't even begin to tell you how much rage I have and the only people who know what I am like in person and have seen me this mad, could tell you that this is not good.
Hurricane Kat is exactly what happens.
Calm down Kat, feel better Kat. I'd love too, I really would but it is simply unfathomable to me why you can say one thing to a persons face but say something completely untrue and incredibly fucking mean behind their back and still call that person friend to their face.
Maybe I'm just a different kind of person.
I just tell the truth. I have never been a good liar and I have never seen the need to lie and back-stab and be mean and petty and all that shit but ya know what? If that's how people want to play that game, I will play so hard and so well and I will win and they will be the sorriest mother fucker on the planet when I am done.
See? Kat still in a rage. It would be pretty cool if when I got in a rage like this, I actually turned a color like the hulk so people would know to run for the hills.
Maybe invent like mood clothing like mood rings.
A t-shirt that would change color when mad or happy or in a violent homicidal rage so the the offending person would know to get the fuck out of the way or make it all better ASAP.
There ya go happy little inventors. Get cracking on that.

September 03, 2004

I just woke up.

I don't have the slightest clue what the weather is cuz the stupid daily news programs are talking crap.
I am tired, I am even more angry today than I was yesterday.
I do not tolerate lies very well at all.
What a weekend to be in a pissy mood.
If hurricane Frances doesn't wipe everyone in this house out, maybe hurricane Kat will.
And yes, this is me being as honest as the day is long.
I say my shit for everyone to fucking hear.
Why?
Cuz you are all the people that I have and if I can't tell shit to you, why fucking say it at all?
I don't hide, I don't lie, I just fucking say it.
I feel like the hulk this morning.
Grr. Kat mad. Kat crush bad things. Kat squash you like little bug.

September 02, 2004

Ok. I feel better.

I just needed to get all that out of my system before Frances gets here.
Shit just gets overwhelming and it's better to snap now than during the storm.

I went to check on a site I visit and it had a message for me when I logged in.
It told me it was 11am and not to forget to eat breakfast.
Thanks.
I just might have forgotten that I need to eat to live in my emotional state last night. /sarcasm

I'm keeping the kids home tomorrow just because shit needs to get done to get ready and I will need their help and I also have a bill I need to go pay.
Can't go alone especially now that my fucking leg keeps going numb.
I see the doc again on the 9th. Have many questions to ask her.

I'm alright. I am alright.
Can I blame it on the weather or something?
We did have a full moon and now the hurricane is sucking out all the air and shit.
Yeah.
I'm gonna blame my nuttiness on the weather.

September 01, 2004

Toss some salt, wish on pennies, say

rabbit rabbit.

August 31, 2004

Heidi and I went and voted,

came home, ate, read emails and then went and rented The Passion of the Christ and Kill Bill 2.
I had watched Kill Bill 2 over at my sisters house but kept getting interrupted so we are watching it again and I wanted to see Passion because I really want to know what all the hype is about.
I will let you know what I think about it after I watch it.

I'm pretty wiped out now and want to just kick back for a bit.
Don't forget to vote if you have elections in your area today.

Strentghen the Good updates.

August 31, 2004

Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you. *

*Quote/ Princess Diana (July 1, 1961-August 31, 1997)

The kids are getting ready to head off to school after a really lame attempt of faking sick.
Cough cough, my stomach.
So which is it?
I don't know, can you take my temperature.
98.2.
Go to school.

Today is local election day so if it's your local election day, get out there and vote.
It's your duty as an american to vote.
Make your voice heard.
You may think your one little voice doesn't matter but it does. One voice can totally change the course of history.
Later days.

*Update*

August 30, 2004

I did my shopping,

mailed my stuff. Those of you who emailed me your home addys, your box tops are on the way. The one person who didn't send me the addy, well, you will have to wait until I save more.
You snooze, you lose and as any of my snail mail friends can attest to, I suck at snail mail so getting these out today was a miracle in itself.

Shell, I got your mail. Thank you.

Oh, I bought a new flashlight. Thrilling eh? Publix had those lantern style flashlights for like $5.50 so I bought one. The boys pretty much broke my other small hand held ones so this one will stay with me in a safe place till it's needed.

I am so boring today eh?
Really, I have nothing much to say today at all.
I have to go back up to my sisters house in about a half hour or so and do some stuff there.
Later days.

August 30, 2004

Ok. Off to the store.

I have to get a few things and stuff and then come back home to make phone calls and wait for phone calls etc etc.
Hope you all have a good monday.
Later days.

August 28, 2004

It has been a very long day.

I am so tired.
I really didn't do much at all but what I did do made me tired.
No takers on all those free box tops?
Okey dokey.
No worries, I just felt like offering them up.

Oh and Bob, no matter what terms you throw in here to spam me with, I will blacklist them all.
I will give you credit for being so persistent but I am just as persistent.

August 27, 2004

I better not get sick or people are gonna die.

This is to remind you that people are still without power in parts of Florida. Namely where we went in Hardee county. They are looking at a few weeks longer and hoping for less. Please help if you can with recovery efforts.
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It was a sniffle fest in here last night. I had it in surround sound.
Heidi sneezing and hacking from her room. Mark sneezing, sniffling and hacking to the left and Sebastian sniffling to the right while watching that movie.
I thought I was going to go insane.
I mean it, if I get sick, I will hurt someone.
Nothing gets done when the mom is sick and you other moms can testify to that.
It's like they all forgot how to pick things up or wash a dish or something and they all kinda suck at picking things up and keeping it neat when I'm not sick.
The world basically stops turning when moms get ill.
Time to get Sebastian out the door. Mark will be home today and I need to give him some more Advil. He's running a touch of fever.
Later days.

August 26, 2004

Someone wanna come give me a ride?

I need to go to the store and get more advil or tylenol and some Nyquil for all these sickies but everyone here is sick and I am not allowed to go walking alone.
Yeah.
I'm a hazard to myself.
Actually, it's cuz of the meds. I am not allowed to drive or go walking alone on the robaxin cuz it makes you super fucking loopy stupid and at 4 pills a day, guess how loopy stupid kat is right now? ;)
I keep trying to reach my sis but am getting that horrid no signal message. What is the fucking point of having a cell phone if you can't have a fucking signal?
Grr.

August 25, 2004

Everything is done.

Heidi and I got everything done that we needed to and then came home to a massive thunderstorm that had the power flickering for about 45 minutes.
What fun.
So it was cold sandwiches and chips for dinner.

Sebastian gets to make up the test he missed tomorrow. Yay!
He had a great day at school. He is getting used to it more and more. It's very hard for him because he had the same teacher for 2 years. She taught 4th and 5th grade and got to keep all her students. So here he was, used to one teacher, all the same kids and fun in 1 classroom and then going into middle school with 6 teachers and 6 different classrooms and no fun..lol
He's getting it though.

Mark is doing great this year so far.
Doing all his work, making new friends who call here all the time. (Coley)
He does his chores with only the smallest of attitude now.
I did get some lip today but as soon as I reminded him that I wasn't yelling but talking and therefore he needed to stop raising his voice with me, he calmed right down.

Later days.

August 25, 2004

Going to head out soon.

This is a line of trucks from electric companies from all over working on the downed power lines. I was so happy to see so many trucks from across the country working hard to restore power to the area.
It is going to be awhile before things get better down there so help out if you can by going to Strentghen the Good and donating something to help at the link they have up.
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Heidi and I are headed out soon to take care of a few errands that she needs to do and I need to go so I can move a little and not get so stiff.
I have been sitting in the house and resting but my back just locks up after awhile.
The boys are off to school and I found out Sebastian missed a FCAT screener test yesterday by being sick.
That sucks. Hopefully they will let him make it up.
It's like to see where they are and where they need to be before the real FCATS later on.
Later days.

August 24, 2004

Such a quiet day.

As we were heading in Arcadia central, there was this guy selling hurricane Charley t-shirts. It wouldn't be so bad to sell this stuff if the proceeds were going to help with relief efforts but I sincerely doubt it as he was selling water too.
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Sebastian stayed asleep until almost 10:30 but has been feeling much better since then.
He helped me move around some stuff like the N64 and their old tv to my room so I could lay in there and watch tv when my back is really bugging.
Getting ready to make dinner in a bit here.
The boys are cleaning their room and then they have regular chores to do after that.
Not much else here at all.
Later days.

August 24, 2004

Sebastian is sick today.

He's just not doing so great. Fever, headache, stuffy in the head. It's a stay home day for him and his kitty is just all over him being a protective little mother to him like when his arm was broken, she never left his side.
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There is a deadly batch of drugs on the street here in SRQ. A 17-year-old girl and four other young men dead after taking a cocktail of drugs.
Now detectives are trying to quickly find where those drugs came from before other lives are lost.
There were five deaths in less than a week. Young people who all knew each other and all had the same deadly mixture of drugs in their systems. All five people had methadone in their systems, and traces of cocaine, OxyContin, and several other drugs.

It's like the new trend to mix shit together and sell it to unwilling dope smokers.
How fucked up is that?
I mean, you can't even go smoke now unless you know and trust the source it comes from cuz some asshole is cutting shit together.
The five did know each other and probably all bought their stuff from the same person(s) but had no idea when the first couple died, that it was all tied into what they bought.
The next couple of kids did it and died and then another friend was found dead in a motel room.

*I'm not condoning drug use. I am a have been there done that. I do think pot should be legal. Ya know, quit wasting money catching pot smokers and growers and go after the really important shit like illegal guns and stuff. But mixing of shit is bad, really bad.

August 23, 2004

The house smells so yummy.

This house lost it's roof and one of it's walls. The living room furniture now sits where once was a room.
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It's all banana yummy in here. Mmm.
I love making bread!
The kids are home and Mark is off to a friends house and Sebastian is just hanging out with me watching the tube.
It's been a really dull day around here.
I kind of like that after a long and tiring weekend and people constantly misunderstanding my pain grimace for anger.
Everyones always, Kat are ya mad at me? Did I do something wrong? And I'm all how many times do I have to tell you that I'm in pain and nothing is wrong but if you ask me one more freaking time I'm gonna get pissed and shove this 2x4 up your hind end.
I don't actually say that but man I want to sometimes. That makes me angry. People like expect me to be all talkative and perky and let me tell ya, I don't do perky. Never have.
I just like to be left alone most of the time. I like my peace and quiet and I don't like to be bothered unless it's really necessary.
Anyway, I'm trying to have a good day, making bread, hanging out, gonna take a shower after I turn the oven off. It's hot in here man.
Later days.

August 23, 2004

Hey.

This is a restaurant that lost all it's windows and it's roof. The table cloths are still strangely in place.
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Just thought I'd say hey.
It's another boring Monday around here.
Trying to fix Heidis electronics but without all the right remotes, it's a pain in the ass. Not her fault, shit gets lost when you move and Greyhound who shipped her stuff actually broke and opened several of her boxes. Bastages.

The kids went off to school after telling me about the fish stick twins.
What? I said.
They smell like fish.
I told them to be nice and if I ever catch them saying that to those 2 girls, I'll kick their teeth in.
Some parents, need to do a better job of teaching hygiene to their kids. These girls smell bad and now have a nickname and Travis stinks to high heaven.
Hello parents??
Didn't you ever hear of teaching your kid to take a shower and wash with soap and water everyday? Or how about brushing your teeth and putting on deodorant?
Gawd. I feel bad for some of these kids.
I mean, middle school is hell enough without smelling bad. Do you have any idea what it's like for the smelly kids? They can have all the right clothes and the right sneakers and even some stupid bling (I hate that word. It's called jewelry you fucknuts) but if they smell bad, it's pure fucking hell. It's a nightmare everyday of school. They are teased mercilessly and if they get a nickname like Fish stick, it sticks until high school is over. That's a long time to be teased.

My back is still fried but I am going to make banana bread later on for my new neighbors. They have a daughter who goes to school with my boys and she just moved here and there are no girls on my street at all so she wants to hang with the boys. I'm going to make some bread to take over. It's nice to have nice neighbors unlike the fuckers that I currently have on both sides of me.

August 19, 2004

I am having a blah moment.

You know.
You feel blah and absolutely nothing comes into your head when you sit down to type.
It's not writers block.
It's blah.
There's a million things you could say but you feel so blah that you don't even care to type it all out because you just go fuck it all today and curl up with a blanket.
I curled up with a sheet.
It's hot.
I have things I should be doing and things I could be doing but fuck it all.
I don't feel like it.
I am blah today.

August 16, 2004

It has been such a long hot day.

I wanna die now.
My docs office (the one in the ghetto) called this morning to tell me the doc wants me to take a different muscle relaxer and that the pharmacy out there, has it filled already and I need to come get it.
Ugh. So off I go.
2 buses later, I arrive only to find the pharmacy people on lunch break.
For an hour.
So I'm like totally starving and the little store on the corner was making something that smelled so good.
I asked the plump short black woman with graying hair what she's cooking because it smells fabulous.
She laughed at me and said fried chicken.
For $3.45 I had 10 of the hugest fried chicken wings I have ever had in my whole life.
And were they good?
Oh honey, I think I may take trips to the docs more often. Shit that was fucking fantastic.
Mmmm, mmff. Yum.
Got my new pills and headed back home on my 2 buses and several hours later trip and went to the store cuz I know i forgot stuff yesterday and got home at 4:30 sweaty, tired and feeling like I was hit by a truck.
I'm going to take my new meds and get something to snack on and rest.

August 15, 2004

The kids came back from seeing

ALIEN vs. PREDATOR and said it was really good. They liked it a lot and I told them I didn't want to know how it ends or who wins cuz I want to be surprised when I watch it on video at some point.
Minnesota was here and is way stressed out. Rents are very high in our area but cheaper rents are out in the ghetto area. Sure it's only like $300 a month but you gotta put up with a lot of shit living out there.
We're gonna make phone calls and stuff tomorrow to see what kind of rooms for rent there are around here.
That's about all from here. Haven't really had a chance to catch up on hurricane news at all today.

August 15, 2004

Remember how I said I was

going to adopt Minnesota?
Well, I did.
We went to the store this morning and he had been thrown out of his dads house this morning with all his stuff. He took his suitcases to work with him and had nowhere to go and it being Sunday, no homeless shelters are open and stuff. So we brought his stuff home with us and when he's done working, he's going to come crash here for a few days.
I can't see letting some nice kid have to crash on the street tonight.
Maybe I'll snap a pic of him if he'll let me.
It's a shame and really fucking shitty the way some families treat their own flesh and blood.

August 11, 2004

It was such a long day.

I had a very long, very boring day with a few humorous moments.
I have just a few pictures to share. but I'm too tired to upload them right now.
There was a woman who was so uppity and so uptight and so racist, you could smell the fear in her words to her daughter that if anyone even so much as spoke to her, she was to scream as loud as she could.
There was a guy who looked like Tony Pierces little brother. I mean that in the way that he looked like him and was easy going and as talkative as Tony blogs. He was cool and saw the humor and the racism in that lady.
Not humorous as in it was funny that she was racist but humorous in the way that she was acting like she was better than everyone else and she was above us all and she couldn't believe that she needed some sort of welfare or child support collection help. Like she wasn't supposed to be there.
Oh, but she was there and it was humorous to watch her act like bitch.
Then I rode the bus home with a kid on his cellphone and he talked on that thing for 22 straight city blocks.
I wanted to grab his phone and beat him with it because it was stupid shit he was talking and wow, was he dull and if that's all he could talk about, I felt bad for the person on the other end of the phone and maybe by beating him with his cellphone, I would have somehow spared that person that hour long snoozefest.
I also sat next to a woman with an obvious mental disorder of some kind.
How do I know?
She clapped twice every 2 minutes without fail for the entire hour long bus ride home.
I got off before her.
Clap clap.

August 10, 2004

It's been a long day.

I had a massive migraine for most of the day which prevented me from doing much of anything at all.
Got new insurance stuff so dealt with that.
Have an appointment downtown tomorrow so maybe you'll get pictures.
Have a docs appointment thursday so I know you'll get pictures on that day.
New docs is in the ghetto.
Yup, you read that right. The ghetto.
I am so excited I can't even tell you.
Supposed to be really great doc from what I have been told it's just in a shitty part of the city.
Heidi will be going with me for support and so I'm not all alone.
Hey, I'm not afraid to admit I get scared in that part of town, you would too if you could see it.
Sarasota may have the whitest, cleanest beaches in the world, a paradise, but it also has it's high crime areas as well.
The bus gets damn near close to the docs so it shouldn't be too bad.
That's all for now.
Later days.

August 09, 2004

It's really early.

Well earlier than we have been getting up all summer but man am I excited for school today.
Everyone is up each others butts and driving me insane.
School is a good thing for many reasons.
The boys are eating breakfast and getting ready and then it will be quiet here.
Yay!
I may actually have time to blog and stuff now.
I have phone calls to make around 9ish and a routine will be nice to get back into.

August 07, 2004

Morning.

I am feeling a bit better. Got tons of rest last night and have no plans to do anything at all and I'm keeping it that way. If people need to go places, they can go alone. I can't do anymore.

Finally updated the calendar in the sidebar. Took me long enough. The calendar is courtesy of Keanuvision.

May make a new skin for this later on and dump an old one.
Halloween is coming (2 1/2 months but it's my fave holiday) and I am a huge fan of the independent film(s) Ginger Snaps. I found some great stuff that I want to work with and make a skin out of. If you haven't ever seen those movies and like bloody and werewolves, check out Ginger Snaps and Ginger Snaps 2 unleashed. The prequel, part 3, is coming out this September.

That's it for now.
Oh, the pictures of Sebastian are ones I have just been taking here and there. He lets me take pictures of him, Mark doesn't.
I don't want anyone thinking I'm playing favorites. Mark is becoming angsty teen boy.

August 06, 2004

Blah.

My back is just majorly sucky today and for the last few days. It's just hurting more than I want to deal with.
Maybe if someone could come rip off my left leg right at the hip, it would feel better. At least nothing would be getting pinched.
Bleh.

Nothing much else is going on here.
The kids are getting haircuts with sis and Heidi is out with a friend and I feel old.

It's just a phase. It will pass.
I'll be back to my normal self when the pain subsides some.
It really sucks when the majority of your time is dealing with pain. You have no idea. And I hate bitching about it too but it truly is all consuming and I know bitching does nothing for it but it's all I got....lol
I haven't replied to comments. I haven't answered emails.
I did the dishes though.

August 06, 2004

The kids went and slept over Mikeys last night.

I had time alone and it was nice and then Heidi came home and we watched Elephant. It's powerful See it.

We are going to head out when she wakes up and go to her bank and I'm gonna see if I can find Minnesota.
Minnesota, not his real name, moved here from, can you guess? That's right, Minnesota.
He was going to go back and go to college but when I saw him 2 days ago I asked him when he was going and he said that wasn't going back.
I asked him why and he said that his dad was getting re-married and his mom told him not to come back.
The look in his eyes was heartbreak and I felt horrible for the guy.
Don't come back.
How hard it must be to hear that when that is all you were looking forward to doing. Going home to family and they tell you don't come back.
He knows no one here so I have decided to allow him to know us.
Taking in stray kids... and he is just a kid. Just about college age but he seems like a nice enough kid and I'm not really gonna take him in (don't worry mom) but if he'll let me, become his friend and then maybe it won't be so lonely around here for him.
I knew he was cool the first time I heard him speak and he did that Minnesota accent and I did it back and instead of getting mad like most people would do thinking you're making fun of them, he came back with a 'you betcha' full on accent and I nearly died.
He's polite and sweet and no one deserves to feel unwanted.

I can't imagine treating my kids like that even years from now no matter what they may do with their lives. Even if I were to ever re-marry (don't hold your breath) I could never ever tell my boys to not come back to me. If they need me, I will always be here open armed and waiting.
So hopefully he's working today and if not, I'll just have to catch him another day.

August 05, 2004

Getting ready to head downtown this morning.

Have to go pay a bill.
I hate going downtown but at least it's more interesting that the other bill place.
Just 5 more days till the boys go back. They are starting to really drive each other bonkers.

August 03, 2004

It's still raining.

I have things I have to do today too. Not too much. I do need to go get a money order to pay a bill with and go buy some food.
Tomorrow I need to go out and head downtown.
Not looking fwd to it.
The weather here is all rainy, it's officially storm season and so it rains during the times of the day when you need to get up and go somewhere.
Like now.
Not much else is happening here.
Later days.

July 31, 2004

I want to talk about something

that I'm sure many single women go through whether you're a single mom or just a single woman trying to make a life for yourself.
How many of you single women out there get asked all the time how come you don't have a man?
Or how do you survive without a man? What is wrong with you that you don't have a man?
You know what? There is nothing wrong with me for not having a man.
My roomie asked me this question about a week ago and although I supplied her with a rather funny anecdotal reason, it was true for the most part.
I also got some comments yesterday from someone who made it seem like a crime that I didn't have a man. That I somehow must be a dried up bitter old hag with no friends because as the commenter put it, I haven't "gotten laid".

July 30, 2004

I was in the middle of this weird dream.

About MT for some reason. I don't even fucking understand it myself.
Mikey is due over at some point this morning.
Heidi is still sleeping and miracle of all miracles, Mark is awake before noon.
Life is dull here today so far.
Maybe something exciting will happen worth blogging about.
Later days.

Oh hey, I did this little quizzie thingy cuz I'm bored and I do quizzie things when I am bored.

July 29, 2004

It's been a rather boring day.

Been resting and clicking between soaps. Heidi and Sebastian still aren't back yet.
Better be some damn good shoes if it takes all day...lol
I need to go do the dishes and start prepping for dinner etc.
Later days.

July 28, 2004

Maybe you younger women can help me out here.

Someone posted a comment using a word that I did not know.
The word is mack.
I went to urban dictionary to see what it meant and apparently, it means to flirt or hit on etc etc.
Now, what I want to know ladies is this, do you find guys who talk in urban slang attractive?
Does it do anything for you?
See, I read the comment and was immediately put off not even knowing what it meant and then even more turned away when I looked it up.
I find men who speak normal everyday english sound slightly more intelligent.
Maybe the guys who are speaking that way are smart but it doesn't sound smart to me and I know that this is the time we live in and lots of people and teens speak like that but please tell me if you personally find that way of speaking even remotely attractive.
Does it turn you on cuz you might just be getting a bad boy from the hood or does it turn you off cuz he's probably an ass with a 5th grade education?
I don't mean to be sounding all uppity or anything I'm just asking if women really find this style of talk and stuff attractive.

July 26, 2004

Back is sucky.

Back is crap.
I was able to move this morning so I guess I'm lucky.
People are sleeping.
How nice for them.
I'm sure they'll wake up when I start cleaning.

July 25, 2004

It has been a most boring day.

But in a good way.
I have been resting which was sorely needed.
The house is quiet and I have been alone which was needed too.
Hope you all had a great weekend and hopefully, things will be more normal around here this coming week.
Later days.

July 24, 2004

This house is so clean..

you could suck your spaghetti out of my rug.
I have been cleaning like crazy and well, it's clean.
I feel good.

In other news, I lost another 5 pounds.
I am not starving myself or even cutting too much out. Just eating smaller.
Yay me!

Now that it's the weekend when most of you bloggers take off and do other stuff, I have time now to come visit. This will give me a chance to really catch up with all of you.
Have a great weekend, stay out of the heat if you can.
Later days.

July 23, 2004

Time. Where does it go?

Time on the puter has been a little less this week due to a multitude of reasons and some are explained elsewhere.
I have been cleaning and and doing what needs to be done and I'm very tired and all that shit.
I can't even really explain it all because well, I don't want to.
I have more cleaning to do and the boys are currently attempting to buy vacuum bags for me.
I will be back around again when I get things done enough for me to come play again.
I apologize for not visiting any of you.
It is not my intention to not visit you and see how you are. I have just been very busy, so busy that I haven't had time to take care of my own sanity which at this point is near thread bare.
I would have been unhappy visitor at your place anyway.
Later days.

July 22, 2004

Went out.

Paid the elec bill.
Took many pictures.
Sweat near to death.
Post more later.
Must rest.
Later days.

July 20, 2004

Do I hear an amen?

I went to the store with Heidi today and did some general shit with her and then did a little bit of food shopping.

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I bought a special treat for dinner for all of them and did not get any of it myself because I don't eat fish. Simple.
This shit cost $12.00 and they all told me they love it before I bought it ya know so it's not like I went and bought shit that they hate.
I made it the same way it's supposed to be made and the same way they have all eaten it before.
Should be no problem right?
Wrong.
Half eaten, complaining, considering tossing it in the trash.
$12.00 in the trash folks.
Kat not a happy woman.
And to make it all the more fun, while I was making it and while they ate it, we were watching a movie about starving kids in fucking Africa!
Do you think that had an impact on any of them?
Do ya? huh huh?!!
Do you know what I can buy with $12.00?
Let me tell you what I can buy with it.
I can buy 36 fucking packages of ramen noodles, 4 boxes of macaroni and cheese and 1 pound of hamburger and a gallon of milk.
That is just an example of how much I can buy with $12.00 not that I would buy 36 fucking packs of ramen noodles but just so you get the point.
I mean, hey, if we are gonna waste $12.00 fucking bucks, can we at least waste it on something I want like smokes or a dvd?
I swear to fucking god people are just trying to piss me off.
I mean, they actually tossed shit in the trash rather than say feed it to the cats who would have fucking appreciated it a whole lot more I think.

July 19, 2004

I was sitting outside watching the pretty sunshower

when it quickly turned from pretty to holy shit.
It started coming down sideways and heavy and ripping leaves on the bushes.
It soaked my whole carport and scared the cat.
Now it's thundering and lightning and it looks like it's going to be a bit nasty for awhile.
I was going to go to the store.
I need some borax for an ant problem that we have every summer but I guess I won't be venturing out today or at least not right now.
I guess it's supposed to rain most of the day.
That sucks.
I guess it will give me time to do the chores around here.
I have dishes and vacuuming and stuff like that. Some laundry too.
Later days.

July 17, 2004

Take your baby by the heel and do the next thing that you feel.

Yes that is a padded, shaped bra. Why do ask? Well because I am pierced and when you just wear any old bra and have pierced your nipples, people tend to stare. So rather than deal with any unwanted comments or looks from uppity bitches, I keep it covered. I didn't get them done for the general public to view anyway.

I still owe you a picture of my hair don't I? It's kind of sort of reddish but not really. It more or less evened out my hair and covered some of the grey. WTF is up with that? Bah.

This song has been stuck in my head all fucking night. It's my own fault. I cannot fall asleep at all unless I hear music and it can't be no namby pamby soothing crap, no it has to be loud and doesn't have to be metal per say but I can fall to sleep in minutes listening to Pantera with my headphones on at full blast. It's just what works for me.
So anyway, last night was shit night for radio and my cd player didn't feel like cooperating so I was scanning the stations and heard some good stuff, stay, listen, end, scan and as I was dozing off, I hit scan one last time sorta by sleepy finger accident and I heard this lovely piece of music seconds before hitting the power button.
Nothing like dreams where monsters are after me and I'm stuck wearing some dumb ass frilly, feathery fucking ball-gown and screaming that I must get to Wang Chung.
Dance Hall days.
You know the rules right? Don't be a dick, always right click.

There is an update elsewhere.

July 16, 2004

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So this morning we had a few errands to run which didn't get done right because Washington Mutual, (sucks donkey balls) which is Heidi's bank, fucked her over.
So we came home and on the way there was a yard sale and at the yard sale I found a happy meal toy I didn't have.
The big black social worker from Lilo and Stitch.
Had to have him. So here he is. Shitty picture but cool toy on top of my monitor.

Happy thing, pissy thing.
So here's the pissy thing.
This is my home. I own this site. What I say here doesn't have to be politically correct or polite or nice or kind or anything that anyone other than me finds appropriate.
I get to say what I want. It's mine.
Comment-ors on the other hand, need to sort of think of this as they are a guest in my home.
So if you come here and tell me that I am being childish in my little book turning that I do, you get the answer back that you get.
If you think it's childish, then don't do it. I wouldn't want you to feel silly or childish at all. Cuz you know, having a little fun while doing something naughty like turning a book around is just so grown up for you and you've never ever done anything at all that could be construed as childish right?
I have comments here so that people can respond and while I allow you the freedom to say whatever you want and I never delete anything unless it's just downright fucking terrible and horrifyingly mean, I will respond to you in the same manner in which you commented here.
You play nice, I play nice.
99% of the comments are from like minded people meaning we share the same value systems and beliefs etc.
I know there are people out there who disagree with me and that's fine, feel free to disagree but just keep in mind that I can and will reply to 99% of the comments I get and this site is completely biased and one sided because well, it's obvious by now isn't it? Only one person, me, owns it.
There are a gazillion blogs out here in the big wide net and there are so many diverse people and blogs, I am sure if you don't like what's written here, you can find something that is more along your line of taste and approval.
As far as the grocery store book turning, I have asked them to try and cater to everyone or remove it and guess what? They don't have to, they OWN the store just like I OWN this site and so I could shop somewhere else but they have the best prices in town where you don't need to be a card carrying club member to get a decent price. I turn the books around as a form of protest and no one, not me, not a group of atheists anywhere or any other religious group that isn't christian, has told you that YOU have to do it.
It's what I do. Childish to you, form of protest to me.
And to even suggest that I buy all the books and have a book burning, sarcasm or not, was the most stupid and asinine thing I have ever heard.
I may not agree with what's in those books and I may disagree with the bible etc, but I would never, ever condone censorship or book burnings.
That was childish.

July 15, 2004

Multipost.

Okey dokey.
Jenni has requested Rico Suave so there it is. Get it while it's hot.
What have I done today?
I have just watched movies all day long. Too hot to go out, too hot to do anything but lay around so we watched:
The Scorpion King, then The Lion King 1 1/2, then Gothika then The Dead Zone and now the boys are watching Freddy vs. Jason.
We borrowed a ton of dvds from a friend and man, am I in movie heaven. I am so loving this.
Later days.
It's like my own personal video store.

July 15, 2004

*Yawn*

I had a rough time falling asleep and then I wanted to get up early so here I am, up early so I can go to the grocery store before it gets hot.
Too late. It's already hot.
Fucking Florida in the summer.
My horriblescope had this to tell me this morning;
The message arrives, but no one can understand the messenger. Remember that although he or she doesn't speak your language, you don't speak theirs, either. It makes for an interesting interaction. New information may or may not have anything to do with your private vision of a perfect world. It could, though, provide you with clues that help you further define your utopia. This is a time to include others in your process. Their ideas could spark your creativity.
Ya know, I have really had enough of the language barrier shit so the messenger, can just go fuck himself until he learns english.
I don't want to hear no shit about Metallica ok? Someone asked for this song so here it is. Unforgiven II.
We already hashed out the Metallica shit over at Jenni's so if you have something to add, go over there.
And yes, Lars is a little tightassed fucknut who should remove the drumsticks from his ass. I hate him.
But I love James.. Grrr baby.

*update* I fucked the html so now it's fixed. You can take it now.

July 14, 2004

You ever...

Write a whole entry and then read it and think to yourself, gawd, what the hell crawled up your ass today?
I just wrote this huge scathing post about all kinds of shit and then I read it and realized that all that I had written was exactly the type of behavior I was upset about.
So fuck it.
Live and let live and I'm just gonna keep on going cuz in the end, the mortician man ain't gonna give a shit what I stood for.

July 13, 2004

Another day, another pain in the...

I had a painful day from hell yesterday.
Stomach, back and a migraine that wouldn't fucking quit.
I attempted to put myself into a soma coma but it didn't work.
A soma had no effect on any of the pain. WTF.
If that wasn't enough to piss me off, the noise levels in this house did.
Trust me, it was best that I stayed off the pc.
I feel a bit better this morning although the back ache is still with me pissing me off like you would not believe. I think it's just toying with me. Pain, no pain. here, have a spasm.
It's like go the fuck away already.
I laid down all day yesterday and rested, you can leave now.
Fucking miserable thing.

Heidi bought me an Orlando poster to cheer me up when she went out.
Hung it next to my bed. I was cheery all night.

Hennepin, a commenter here, has a blog now. Go say hello. She has this pic of Steve Perry up that doesn't even look like him. Well at least not the way I remember him.
I was a Journey fan.
Shut up.

I am listening to Vh1s rock station right now. I was listening to the 80's but they kept playing shit I hated back then like Papa don't preach (gag) and Funky cold medina (barf) and that's when it hit me that you can't go back. It still sounds the same but if you only tolerated that shit then, it just grates on your nerves now.
At least I can sit here and not want to rip my hair out listening to thunderstruck or some shit like disturbed.

So, yeah. That's what I am up to.

July 12, 2004

Morning.

I am not feeling all that great today so I may or may not be around.
I tossed and turned all night with stomach cramps and a back ache to boot.
I just need to chill for awhile today.
I try to do too much.
Have a great monday.
Later days.

July 11, 2004

Home again home again jiggidy jig.

Just got back home.
Hung out there for awhile and watched movies, cleaned up her pc. Holy shit. There was 471 pieces of spyware on that fucker.
Damn.
So anyway, now I'm home and tired and just gonna watch more movies.
Later days.

July 11, 2004

Headed out again.

Just doing some stuff over at my sisters place and hanging out there watching movies and stuff.
Will answer emails later.
Hope you are all having a great weekend.
Later days.

July 10, 2004

The long day is over.

I had a very long but good day.
I surfed around from my sisters house on dial up so it was kinda of slow so I didn't leave many comments places. But I checked in on most of you.
My back is just fried today.
I have done way more walking this week than I should have. I pushed myself so I could get out and do stuff with Heidi.
Going to the movies with her and the store and drugstore etc etc etc.
I wanted to go. I like going but my body just ain't what it should be. I am so paying for it tonight let me tell ya.
We had to go to the store again tonight and I swear, I must have made her stop walking at least 8 times on a less than 1 mile walk to the store.
It just hurt so fucking much.
I hate whining too. I kept apologizing for making her stop. She said it was ok but man, I feel like shit having to make people wait for me to stretch it out.
The curve wants me to bend over, stay in a leaned forward position but when you walk, you have to be upright so it gets inflamed and pissed off and then I have to stop and bend over and stretch the back muscles until they chill out and then try to walk again.
Walk. Stretch. Walk. Stretch. Repeat 50 times until you get where and to you are going. It's a bitch and I feel embarrassed when I have to do this.
I just want my life back.
I just want it back. If I could have any wish, it would be to have a strong, healthy back. Fuck money. Fuck love. I just want a strong body.
This ain't no pity party tonight so don't think of this post like that. It's just me bitching because I hurt and I am angry that I hurt and the hurt doesn't go away and it just gets more and more hurty everyday that passes.

The boys slept over Mikey's again tonight.
2 nights in a row of silence. It feels like an eternity.
I really do miss the noise.
I am going to be one of those moms who go through empty nest syndrome when they grow up and leave. It's going to be awful...lol
Well, I guess that's all for now.
Later days.

July 10, 2004

Headed out for awhile.

Headed out today to do various errands. May try to post later on.
Later days.

July 09, 2004

It's been relatively quiet here all day.

Mark went off and mowed his lawn that he does for $10 a cut. He has 4 lawns that he does every week. Not bad huh?
Sebastian was helping him by raking and bagging the grass but he decided he no longer wanted to help so he got some trash bags and attached them to the back of the mower to catch the clippings.
He doesn't mind not getting paid anymore cuz it's so hot out there but he didn't want Mark to have to rake too.
Smart little bugger. I would have never thought of that.
They are getting ready to go sleep over Mikey's house and I am going to be bored to death.
I love them. They bug me to pieces but even just one night away and I miss the sounds they make and the fights they get in.
*sigh*

July 07, 2004

Just some stuff.

I have done the dishes, 2 loads of laundry and cleaned the bathroom, taken out the trash and hung all my clothes and am now waiting to vacuum cuz some peeps are still asleep.

I have been using Firefox and trying like hell to get the spell checker to work.
It's installed. I right click and the spell check box shows up but it's not checking any of the words. It just sits there.
I love spell checker. I need spell checker.
I right click, it does nothing. I close out of fiirefox and come back to ie, right click and voilŕ, spelling check.
WTF? is wrong with the Firefox spell checker?
Anyone? Anyone?

July 06, 2004

I am tired.

We went out and paid the bill and came home. I have just been laying around resting for the most part. It's so damn hot out there. Ugh.
Heidi and Mark went out because she had an errand to do and he tagged along.
Mikey is supposed to sleep over tonight.
Later days.

July 06, 2004

I'm up. Really.

I am getting ready to head out and go pay that damn phone bill. All the way down there for that one fucking bill. I hate them.
Sebastian is going with me.
I'll be back later on. It's supposed to feel like 105 degrees out there today.
Ugh.
Later days.

July 05, 2004

Ack. Cough.

Morning.
I was cleaning yesterday instead of playing like I'm sure most people did.
I had some black mold to kill and so I set to work killing said mold with bleach.
I scrubbed and rubbed and soaked and scraped and the mold is now dead.
But in the process of killing said mold, I inhaled bleach fumes and my lungs have been on fire ever since.
They ache, my nose is stuffed and runny and I keep sneezing in my bodies attempts to rid itself of the offending bleach.
I will live.

The boys lit off their fireworks last night and we watched our neighbors set off theirs.
Mother nature had her own show that was better than any fireworks I think.

She lit up the sky with bolts of blue and white and ripped them across the dark night skies over and over again competing with the man made ones shooting off from the surrounding beaches and streets.
She kept up her show longer than anyone else and when she saw that she was victorious in her display of light, she opened the sky a little more and let down the rains in gentle showers and put out any still burning sparks left on the ground by careless men.

We went to sleep tired and hot and they all still sleep but me who tossed and turned and sneezed bleach fumes all night long.
I woke up feeling like the kind of chemical hangover I used to get back in the day of sniffing rush from little brown bottles.
The high was always weird and clouded your head and the next day you felt a little groggy, a little less smart, a little more confused.
Some people in my town sniffed more than me and it was obvious. They were ones with the sort of glazed donut looks in their eyes.
I hated spending money on that shit. One stumble on the uneven sidewalks of the square and your bottle falls from your hand, purse, back pocket, $15 was wasted.
It never seemed worth it to me anyways because of the groggy, achey hangover the next day.
Sniffing was stupid and I know that now as I sit here feeling like I used to the day after and wanting to crawl back into bed. Wanting to block out light and noise and start over without the head pounding and confusion.

Tony say it with pictures.

Chocolate and #1.

While I was lighting shit off, they got me pretty bad too.

July 03, 2004

Bills paid. Check.

Groceries bought. Check.
Free comics gotten. Check.
Lawn mower fixed. Check.
Bike fixed. Check.
Mail MT login info to myself. Check.
Back aching from over doing it. Check.
Hungry from not eating all day. Check.
Will catch up with everyone a bit later on.
I am headed to my sisters house for a few hours tonight so I may blog and bloghop from there.
Later days.

July 02, 2004

It won't go away.

Mommy, make the nasty head pounding stop now please.

July 01, 2004

I had a dream that woke me up.

I was at some hotel that had an open pavilion type thing in the middle.
Water fountain, palms, multiple hallways leading to different parts of the hotel and elevators, an open ceiling like a sky light without glass.
I wanted to leave, I needed to leave but I was told I couldn't go back to my room to get my bags and I could not just walk out the main entrance because they couldn't be held responsible if I got hurt.
What? Hurt? From what I demanded. I recall screaming at the bellhops and front desk people.
What, how, could I possibly get hurt?
People, other guests at the hotel started sitting on the chairs and sofas and on the floor locking arms with each other.
I was told to do the same so I sat on the floor near a hallway and locked my right arm with some older man leaving my left arm free.
I heard the noise before I saw anything.
It was loud and booming and people stared up at the open ceiling and started to get excited like they were waiting for fireworks.
The noise got louder and louder. It was loud and booming and like a jet engine.
I looked up to see what could be coming our way that had these people interlocked and thrilled.
The nose of a jet fighter came into view of the open skylight and the noise was deafening.
It wasn't right on top of us but so close you could feel the power of the engine and the heat coming off of it.
It hovered above us and people cheered and then it took off.
Then more came into view and people did the same thing.
I unlocked arms and crawled my way across the floor.
It was windy from the engines and I fell over a few times.
I made my way over to some bellhop and asked what was going on, why were these fighters above us, is it a show, what the hell is going on and what does any of this have to do with me leaving the hotel or even getting my bags.
He said the hotel was close to a military base and these planes were being sent to war. They were loaded with bombs and other weaponry. The hotel decided to be patriotic and show support for the war by making everyone sit there and send these planes off to war and most of the people were cheering and screaming go USA over and over. The sounds of the engines was interspersed with cheering.
But why can't I go back to my room? I didn't want to see this. I don't need to see this. I just want to get my things and leave.
Where are you gonna go he asked? Why don't you just go sit back down and watch.
I want to leave.
Where are you going to go he asked again. There is nowhere to go. We are one of the safest places right now.
What are you talking about I screamed at him.
We're at war he yelled back. Most of the country is under attack, millions already feared dead on the east coast. We are so close to the base, we are sort of under protection. Just go sit back down. After all the fighters have taken off, you can go back to your room but you can never leave.
The sounds of more and more fighters over head was more than I thought I could take.
I broke free from the bellhop who had now grabbed my arm and ran to the exit.
I busted through the doors to look off to the east.

The sky far off in the horizon was lit up a bright orange glow. I could hear bombs dropping. More and more jet fighters screeched over my head.
I fell to the ground and just watched as the sky grew brighter in the distance from fires.
They were dropping bombs on us.
They were dropping bombs on us.
I just laid there frozen watching, listening.

That's when I woke up in a panic.
It took me about 2 hours to get back to sleep.

June 30, 2004

Boredom.

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June 29, 2004

I'm seriously starting to get ticked.

Heidi shipped her tv and puter here by UPS.
Usually, UPS knocks at my door.
For the amount of money they charged her to ship these 3 boxes, I should have gotten a knock.
The one box this morning and then the other two boxes this afternoon, no knocks.
Expensive items sitting, baking in my driveway all day and no knocks at all.
I called and complained.
They said it's the drivers discretion to knock or not.
Hrm.
Large boxes, very heavy, placed directly at front door, 2 more steps and you could rap tap tap real fast and leave but noooo, no rap, no tap. Just dump and leave very expensive electronics to bake in sun all day but charge the sender an ungodly amount to ship.
These are probably jam packed with peanuts too.
grr.

June 29, 2004

Morning.

I have no idea what we're going to do today. Just sort of waking up still.
Heidi has left for work and Sebastian and I are just sitting watching the news.
Mark is still in snoozeland.
It's just another quiet day here so far.

June 28, 2004

It's been a fairly quiet day around here.

Did my cleaning and laundry and was just hanging out when berry showed up again. That makes twice this month...lol
He needed me to go run and errand with him so I went.
It's not a bad thing. We get along and we are friends still.
We talked a bit in the car but he is still too much of a country bumpkin for my tastes. All country music and the twang in his voice..lol
Making burgers for dinner and waiting for the storm to hit.
It's really loud out there right now.
Well, that's all from here.
Hope you all had a good monday.

June 28, 2004

Monday monday.

Morning.
Not a hell of a lot going on here again today.
Have some light cleaning to do, emails to answer. Sorry everyone but there are a bunch of us trying to use the puter now and so I'm sort of just taking my time getting around to shit.
Things are fine here. Everyone is doing ok and stuff.
Need to get cracking on my emails and then dishes and then the floors.
Later days.

June 26, 2004

Holy crap is it boring here today.

Not doing anything really. Just hanging out.
There's a big storm headed our way. You can hear it stomping around up there like it's throwing a fit.
I don't mind the daily thunderstorms but I wouldn't mind them a whole lot more if they actually cooled shit off when they were done.

June 26, 2004

Where have I been?

I have been busy.
My friend showed up so I have been busy visiting and talking and stuff.
Just like it always was.
We had a good time.
Everyone is still sleeping so I have all this quiet time to myself and don't know what to do with myself...lol
Isn't that the way it always is?
Later days.

June 25, 2004

Where does the time go?

We went to the store pretty early this morning and then when we came home, I ate and fell asleep.
Bad.
It's the heat I tell ya.
Makes me so tired.
I have that cleaning to do.
Little general stuffs.
Something cool is happening today but I can't say what because certain assholes may be reading.
Check elsewhere.
Later days.

June 25, 2004

It is so very quiet around here.

There is nothing much going on around here.
Just have some general cleaning to do today and that's about it.
The boys are starting to get on each others nerves which just makes me want to push for year round school a bit more.
They get antsy during the summer.
Nothing to do except play games or go run around in the heat outside so they start aggravating each other and have a few fights.
They ended up in bed a bit early last night.
I simply can't put up with the constant battles so nite nite ya all.
They are still sleeping so I am not going to wake them up yet.
Let' em sleep so the battles of the bored boys don't start too soon.
That's about it for here.
Hope you all have a great friday.

June 24, 2004

Awake.

Watching tv, reading blogs, answering emails, looking for breakfast food in fridge.
Talking on phone.
Still tired.
Must clean the house.
Have someone stopping by later today.
House is mess.
Later days.

June 23, 2004

I have been sleeping all day.

I have had a headache since yesterday and then it developed into a migraine today so I have been asleep for most of the day.
I have just been laying in my pitch black room with the fan on trying to kill the raging migraine which incapacitates me for hours.
I hate them.
I did manage to get up and make dinner but the ache still lingers in the front of my head and at the base.
Nothing is getting rid of it.
I have nothing to talk about either.
I go through these phases where life is just one dull minute after another to outside people.
We are doing our thing, hanging, talking, doing the lawn, doing dishes, playing video games and just watching these kids of mine grow older and become more interesting.
Sebastian made a huge decision followed by mountainous tears today.
He is going to cut off his tail before entering middle school so he doesn't get picked on.
He has been growing his tail for years and years and it's down to his ass.
He loves it, we love it, it's a part of him but in middle school, where kids can be less tolerant of uniqueness and be cruel because a kid is comfortable in his own skin, he is going to cut it off.
It took some comforting and lots of hugs and a few reassurances that he is still going to be loved no matter what's on his head.
It's still pretty hard for a kid who is recognized by his hair to make a decision like that.
He's growing up and he doesn't want to but this decision today just shows how much he already has.

June 21, 2004

Morning.

Late start.
Mikey slept over, Mark got home late, I peeled caulking and Mikey entertained himself while waiting for Mark by spreading glue on his hands and then peeling it off.
They are eating breakfast and I am still trying to wake up.
Later days.

June 19, 2004

Gmail anyone?

I just got 6 5 4 3 0 more invitations to give out.
Email me at kattallica@NOSPAMgmail.com and I'll hook you up.
First come first serve.

June 17, 2004

I was going to go lay down

and rest my back again but then I decided that I don't want to. I just won't do any cleaning of shit today.
I slightly over did it yesterday.
But there's a reason for that.
See, I could smell this smell like sour milk and because I am so fucking anally OCD, I could not rest until I found it and destroyed it.
I was on a mission all day to find said offending smell.
I drove the boys insane making them sniff the fridge, meats, the sink and help me wash out the garbage can.
I swear to you, I am not insane but I have a combination of annoyances.
I have the OCD and then I have a super sensitive nose.
I can smell a fart 20 miles away.
The boys understand and work with me and Mark even made a few jokes about how slightly crazed I get. This is true. I get a little bonkers only because I cannot rest until I find the cause of the smell.
I washed every dish, scrubbed the stove, the floors, the garbage can, we washed out the fridge and freezer, vacuumed, dusted etc. all in an attempt to find the smell that was keeping me from just kicking back with the boys.
We did find it.
It was the shelf in the fridge where the big stuff goes.
Like the milk. Apparently, someone had spilled a few drops and that is the one shelf I just sort of missed in cleaning. Figures.
So about an hour after I cleaned this shelf, the smell had faded from the house.
I was finally able to rest.
And now today, I am paying for my stupid compulsions.
They are not quirks when they make you go outside a gazillion times to get giant heaving breaths of fresh outdoor air so when you come back in you will be able to smell the sourness all the better.
It's payback for something I'm sure. Some sort of punishment for being a pain in the ass when I was I teen I suppose.

So I was surfing this morning and came across How to blog by Tony Pierce and agreed, laughed a little and think #14 should be a rule everyone has to follow although I'm guilty of it myself a few times because out of sheer boredom and not having a single fucking thing to say, I became a lemming.
And just because I want to piss him off a little cuz I don't agree with ALL of rule #14, I am currently listening to Velvet Revolver and digging it. If it weren't for Jenni, I wouldn't have had a fucking clue.
I lead a sheltered existence and I don't listen to radio because of the repeat factor.
Bloggers introduce me to new tunes and new bands by telling me what they are listening to and Tony should know that. Tsar Tony? Ring a bell. I wouldn't have ever checked them out if you didn't yap about them so much. So sharing what we are listening to is a good thing.
Music feeds.

June 17, 2004

Good day sunshine.

Not much going on here at all today. Just hanging out. Not sure what I'm gonna do today.
Sebastian finally spent his birthday money and bought himself The Sims Unleashed for their pc in their room. I'm telling ya, it was so nice of that lady to give it to us instead of toss it to the curb. It has saved my sanity.
They have all their games on it except for Runescape which is an online game.
Now that he has his own sims start disk, I can play my sims again.
Yay!
But my back is bugging me this morning so I don't know how long I'm going to sit here.
How are you doing today?

June 15, 2004

Heh heh.

Berry just stopped by again. Every couple of months, here comes Berry...lol
He said he is gonna come back later this afternoon to visit again.
He's out running errands.
Heidi, I will try to stay buddy buddy with him this time so you can meet him.
If I don't yell at him, he comes around more often.
Truth be told, I dig yelling at him and he sort of likes it.
He always says after I get done, thanks for setting me straight, you're the only one who cares.
Bwahahahahaha.

June 15, 2004

Damn cat.

We have been locking up Christine at night because she peed on one of the blankets we have in the living room.
She will only do it if no one is around and night time is the right time for peeing.
I lock her in the bathroom in my room and she starts picking at the door at like 4:30 every morning.
Pick, meow, pick, meow, pick, meeeeeooooow, pick, pick pick, meooooooooooowwww.
I have never wanted to muzzle a cat but this one, I would consider it.
Kali, my cat, is the ideal cat.
She doesn't meow at all. Occasionally, you'll hear a slight mew but that's it. She keeps to herself most of the time and loves to be pet by everyone and anyone.
Nova, used to pee until she lost her tail and now she just lays on the coffee table and is nice sometimes so you can pet her.
Christine is such a fucking pain in the ass.
The only one who can pet her is Sebastian.
She runs away from everyone.
I don't like her at all.

June 13, 2004

It's hot.

It's like 91 out there today with high humidity.
Sebastian is gone to the beach with my sister and Mark and I are hanging out at home watching cartoons and stuff.
Nothing exciting.
Got a load of laundry going.
Weee!
So thrilling.
I love summer.
It's so non-hectic and boring.
The kids are laid back and we just hang out and talk and stuff.
Hope you're all having a great day.
Later days.

June 12, 2004

You ever

just want to choke the living shit out of someone?
Yeah, me too.

June 12, 2004

*yawn*

It's a boring saturday here. Nothing going on at all.
Slept in, haven't eaten yet.
Have a no-caffeine headache.
I really hate those ya know.
They suck.
I'm bored and tired and antsy all at the same time.
I would read a book but I'd probably fall asleep again.
I would play video games but my thumbs hurt after awhile.
So I think I'll just surf the net and watch movies.
Later days.

June 11, 2004

I'm back and just taking it easy for the day.

There's not much going on.
Will get the results next week.
That's really all I have to say.

June 10, 2004

Press and hold play to hear all messages.

I just learned that today. I had like a gazillion messages on the machine but everytime I pressed play, only the newest message would play and then when I would press play again, it would say no messages. I couldn't figure out how it was deleting if I didn't push delete.
So I pressed play and held it.
Lots o' messages.
Shit y'all, I'm sorry. Probably thinking Kat's a stuck up bitch not returning phone calls huh?
What can I say?
I was born a blond.

June 10, 2004

It's gonna be a hot one today.

You can feel it already.
I went outside to throw out some trash and was met by massive humidity.
Ick.
Glad I have no where to go today. Stay home and cool.
I have some light general cleaning to do today. Dishes, vacuum, fold yesterdays laundry.
Really exciting.
I'm trying to save money on the electric bill because the evil money sucker attached to my wall literally raises my bill by $120 during the summer.
So I am shutting it off at night. We all have fans in our rooms that blow directly on us and we are all asleep so we don't even know if it's cold or hot.
I did it last night and no one noticed that it wasn't on and it wasn't stifling out here in the morning either.
I think the fact that I nailed all the windows shut so no air is escaping really helped.
We have been shutting it off when we leave the house even for 20 minutes. No ones here, no one needs to be cool.
I'm hoping all those hours that it's not spinning that dial outside on the meter at 100 miles per hour helps on my next bill.
My last bill in May was $73.00. I'm hoping that it doesn't increase too much with it on and because I am shutting it off. Make sense? It makes perfect sense to me. I also keep the house dark in the summer. All the shades are closed all the time. FPL even sent home a little pamphlet with last months bill on ways to save money and that was one of them. (To cover all windows that get sun) I have always done that though. I like it dark. If I owned this house, my bedroom walls would be painted black.
So that's about it for now.
I'm gonna get started on the dishes and take it one thing at a time. Need to mop the floors too. Sebastian likes doing that.
I have kids who like to clean.
I think my OCD is rubbing off. ...lol

June 09, 2004

It's another quiet morning.

I do love summer for the fact that it is non-stress mornings.
I do have to go to the docs today at 1:45 if they don't call and cancel on me again.
The boys are gonna go with me for something to do.
It's a huge shopping center down there so we can look around while we wait for the bus home.

I found this flash movie which is super cool, thanks to Skits.
Go check it out.

June 08, 2004

Another day.

We went up to the pool for a bit and the boys swam and played and I read a few chapters of a book.
We are home now and just hanging out.
They playing games and I'm just here.
Kind of tired from the sun.
Hope you're having a good day.
Later days.

June 08, 2004

And sometimes, I just have nothing to say.

That alone makes me want to say something about something.
Sometimes, I am just kind of thrown at the way things are and the way people see that it stops me cold and words flood my head but nothing comes out of my mouth.
I think that if you have something to say, that you should say it and wear it proudly.
Stand up for your words if you believe them so strongly.
It's hard to take people serious if they can't even own their own words.
Doesn't mean I won't respond owning my words but it just means that whatever point you are trying to make isn't being taken as strongly as you intended it.
I had some great teachers in high school who taught me that having a belief doesn't mean anything unless you are willing to stand up for it. Not in a mean, belligerent, cruel way, but to be able to say that yes, I said that and I believe that and I wear it. It may be the unpopular belief, it may be the left or the right, it may be the one that others call crazy but it's yours and you should be courageous in your convictions no matter what others may think.

June 07, 2004

Long day done.

The boys and I finished all the cleaning that I wanted to do.
We cleaned out the outdoor closets and threw a lot of empty cardboard boxes away that were all just piled in there.
Mikey is here and we are all just hanging out watching a movie.
The boys are so funny.
They love to sit around and just talk about whatever.
Mikey is a hoot.
He said that if we locked Mark and Sebastian in a room for 24 hours with nothing but a paper bag, a cardboard box, a broom and one piece of scotch tape, they'd be happy playing with it.
They'd pretend it was a magic broom, a magic box and the tape would be used to do something with the paper bag. I don't recall it word for word but I nearly died laughing.
Mikey has quite and imagination and a wicked sense of humor.

June 07, 2004

Did I too turn to stone when you turned pale.

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I had a weird night of dreams and car accidents and horrible things.
Woke up with a stiff back.
Woke up thinking that people are afraid.
Woke up with a plan for today.
Some walls need to be washed and some stuff needs to be picked up and put away and some spiderwebs need to get knocked down with the hose outdoors.
Woke up living in the now.
Woke up and turned on the Daily Buzz instead of my usual Today show because I wanted news and not another eulogy.

Realized today was Monday and I missed last weeks because I simply, honestly, forgot what day I was on.
So I have one today and it's from my beloved Twisted Roots.
Did I too Turn to Stone when you turned pale. And did you put your arms around empty space? Did you cry on nobodies shoulder? Did you put your arms through the fog you see and whisper help me? Did you say help me? help me.. help me Did you say help me. Help me.

*Don't be a dick, always right click

June 06, 2004

The boys are home and we had dinner.

It's truly a lazy sunday around here.
Hope you are all enjoying yours.
Later days.

June 06, 2004

Mark is gone out with George and

Sebastian is still at his friends house.
So I am home alone just chillin'.
I think I'm just gonna go watch a movie now and hang by myself for a bit.

I also want to say that the opinions expressed on this blog are my own. You don't have to like them or me. We are free to disagree in this country. I am not gonna argue with anyone over my opinions or yours.
I am not going to opposing blogs saying I disagree or starting fights. I just hang with like minded people.
I don't fight.
It wastes my time and my doctor says I have to stay calm anyway.
So chill.
Believe and feel anyway you want to.

June 05, 2004

Only me.

Only weird wacky things happen to me I tell ya.
The cop thing yesterday? Only me.
The redneck with the babies? Only me.
Amish women shoving me off a bench? Only me.
Just now, I'm sitting in the driveway and a whole car full of gang banger look a likes pull in and ask me if I'm selling my Chevy.
I don't own a chevy but my neighbors do so I tell the guys no it's not my car but I will ask my neighbors if they are selling theirs.
They leave.
Me thinks they weren't looking for a car for sale.
Me thinks they were scoping out the property.
I honestly have nothing of any value in my house.
The most expensive piece of electronics would be my 5 year old pc.
I don't even own a stereo. I have a boom box and a walkman.
I mean, if you were to pull in my yard, you would have to guess right away, POOR.
My landmans lawnmower is the old cast iron type and it's full of rust and held together with rope and it sits right in my driveway.
POOR.
So I went back and told my neighbors we are leaving for a few hours and to keep an eye on the place anyway.
See anyone pull in, call the cops.
Especially if it's a whole car full of gang bang look a likes.

June 05, 2004

Morning.

It rained all night and was still sun-showering this morning.
The kids all behaved really well last night and are being super good today.
I'm sure by noon the excitement of going to the movies will reach a fevered pitch and I'll have to kick them out of the house until it's time to leave.
We will be going to the 3:40 show so they have a whole day to sit and wait basically...lol

Not much else going on here right now.
Just want to say thanks to Christine.
Later days.

June 04, 2004

I have been a bad girl.

No, I didn't do anything to get arrested or anything.
I mean that I haven't been a good blogger friend this week.
I haven't been visiting much or commenting much.
Just been sort of out of it and doing my best to stay rested and not sweaty.
It's hot dammit.

Mikey is sleeping over tonight and going to the movies with us tomorrow.
We finally got in touch with Sebastians friend and he is going to go too but has been sick so that's why no one called us back. The whole family had bronchitis or something.

Not much else to talk about really.
I will try to catch up with people slowly.
Later days.

June 04, 2004

Various things that amused me today.

A woman had a set of twin boys that she gave nick names to.
One, she called Snaggletooth because he only has one tooth.
The other, she called Hammer because he has a habit of womping his forehead with objects leaving welts and lumps.
Poor kids.

If you ever need your fingerprints taken for any reason in Sarasota, go to the jail, not the Police Station. The JAIL. Are we clear on that? Good.
Next, it will cost you $5.00 for those fingerprints. Doesn't matter why or who you need them for, it's $5.00.
And your ID.
And if you do need fingerprints, get there before noon. Are we especially clear on this? Noon!
If you are even one minute late, they will chew your ass out the whole time they are rolling your fingers.
Also, the abbreviations for brown hair are BRO. Green eyes, GRN, female, F, white, W. Are we super clear on this?
Make sure you get there before noon, have $5.00 in cash and your id and know your abbreviations.
And make super duper sure you go to the JAIL not the Police Station cuz they sure are getting real mad at all the misinformation out there about where you go to get fingerprints done.
Later days.

June 04, 2004

Just woke up on another balmy morning.

It's going to be about 90 today with about 65% humidity. Ick.
I need to get in the shower and start getting ready. Thank goodness she has air in her car.

You all know the Tampa Bay Bolts are in the Stanley Cup playoffs right?
It's something like 3-2 now but that's not what I want to talk about.
The fans.
While at the store yesterday, I saw employees who looked like aliens.
I understand loving your team and all that and wanting to show your support but if I were the owner of a store or a manager, I would have a serious problem if one of my employees showed up wearing silver and blue beads around her neck, little lightning bolt alien antlers attached to her head and bolts painted to her face and big flashing lightning bolt ear rings too.
There needs to be some sort of standards. Like everyone pick a day and dress like a sports fan or no one does it.
This is Publix anyway. They wear navy blue pants, white shirts and green aprons or smocks. Everyone is uniform. It looks good and yes I hated wearing it when I worked there but it looks clean and professional.
When one person steps out of dress to put on sparkly antlers and flashing ear rings which by the way, are not allowed under the dress code, it throws people for a loop. Ear rings are not supposed to hang down to your shoulders or be large and flashy.
I understand fandom, don't get all bent out of shape with me for not understanding your love of your team, but really folks, at work? Not just a grocery store but anywhere.
Save it for the arena or the field or your party.
You look like idiots when you do it at work.

June 03, 2004

It's been dull as ever around here.

In case you couldn't tell by my last 2 posts.
I am just taking it easy. Doctors orders.
I did my errands but that's about all the movement I have done.
I am going with my sis tomorrow to do some errands with her and then home again to do more of the same nothingness that has been my week.
Did you guys know that if you even just click those ads over there, I benefit from it even a teensy bit?
Well now ya know.
And now time for bed I guess.
No nap today. I just laid down and watched tv. I tried to sleep but it didn't happen for me.
Hopefully, it will tonight.
Later days.

June 03, 2004

Man is it hot out there.

The boys and I left early this morning to go pay the bills.
The 3rd is bill day.
Bill needs to take a fucking holiday once in awhile don't you agree?
We just got back after getting everything we needed like toilet paper and toothpaste.
We're good to go.
Now, I need to eat and nap...lol
Later days.

May 30, 2004

I'm being taken away.

My sis is coming to get us to take us to one of her friends house so the kids can swim in the pool and stuff and hang out.
I guess it will be ok but holy mother of god is it it hot out there right now.
Sebastian and I walked to the corner store and shit, I was soaked when we got back. It's bright as hell out there.
I guess I will just have to do my cleaning when I get back.
Later days.

May 26, 2004

I slept until 7:45.

That was awesome...lol
The boys are still sleeping.
I don't care. They have been getting up early every single day all year long and taking their showers and getting ready without me having to yell or dump cold water on them.
They can sleep late.
Here's a question for ya.
Do your vocal cords ever get tight, like owie tight?
I woke up this morning not with a sore throat but with my cords tight as hell and it hurt to swallow or take a drink.
I forced down some advil and they feel ok now but man, that hurt. It was like they were in a vice grip.
I'm thinking it's the air conditioner.
All that weird air coming into the house.
I'm gonna try the recycle setting and see if that helps. I also need to get a new filter when I go to the store later this week. That usually helps.
Oh and I need some tilex.
Mold issues when the air is on too.
Summer in florida, ain't it fun?

On the news front, there are warnings that we are going to get hit. They don't know when or where.
But I for one am not going to spend my summer freaking out and being paranoid when planes fly over head.
What is the point in worrying?
If it happens, it happens.
I'm not saying I want it to happen or that I am on any extreme leftist side or any of that bullshit but seriously, what are you gonna do all summer?
Sit around freaking out that we are gonna get hit but we don't know where or when and no kids, you can't go outside because something might happen?
The world is fucked up these days and it it doesn't seem to be getting any better but I can't, won't live my life in fear of some attack we can't pinpoint down.
And I'm not gonna look at my neighbors of a different religion and think they are bad guys just waiting for word to blow something up.
True story.
My cab company, yeah, after 7 years living here, I have a cab company that I call all the time. They know me by name and always come to get me wherever I am in a hurry and are wonderful people.
The owner is muslim.
Sam and his family are muslim and they have lived here for about 15 years.
After 9/11, his brothers who were working on citizenship, were kicked out of the country. They worked for him, nice guys, no problems. Loved this country.
The owner had been trying to get his whole family here, his parents, his wifes parents.
After 9/11, he was told no more people from his family are ever going to come here and if he ever went back to his home country to visit, he would not be allowed back in. Ever.
His father died last year and he had to make the toughest decision of his life.
He chose to stay here. This is where his wife and children, born citizens now, are.
He knew if he went back to comfort his mother and mourn his father, he would never see his kids again.
After 9/11, people threw rocks at his cabs when he drove by.
He lost business, he lost friends.
I feel bad for him. What is happening isn't his fault, he played no part but his birth nationality and religion made people hate him.
He is one of the nicest people I have ever known.
He lets me charge rides if I need to get home from the store or the docs and I'm a little short on cash.
He always asks how the kids are and how we are doing.
I never thought of him negatively and I still don't.
Not everyone is a bad guy waiting for word to blow something up.
Some people came here and still come here because they want to be free.
He owns his own business, he owns his house, he's a good guy.
I can only imagine how hard this whole post 9/11 affects him and his family.

May 25, 2004

Blah.

It's hot.
Had a long talk with Heidi, she can't wait to come home.
Mark came home from his last day sick. Has a fever of 102.7.
Gave tylenol and lots of water. Keeping an eye on it.
Sis is going to burn the pictures to disc. They came out great.
Just hanging out.
Good things today.
Got a copy of Godsmacks new cd from Karen.
Don't have to wake up at 5:50 again until August.
Yeehaw!!

May 24, 2004

I'm outta here for the docs in about 10 minutes.

Blood work and pee tests and al that jazz. So excited.
Not.
Have a good afternoon and when doing laundry, washing and drying, have all the fans on, the air conditioner, the tv and 2 pcs, don't try to vacuum.
It blows the circuits and then you have to go shut everything off and go outside where it is 90 frigging degrees and flip the breakers.
It's an old house, too much shit on at once with a powerful vacuum does that.
I'm used to it but I forget all the time to at least shut off the tv.
Yes, I have to go outside now and catch the bus but that's different.
Later days.

Tony makes some interesting points.

May 24, 2004

I overslept. Bad mommy.

It's the day before the last day and I overslept so Mark didn't get to go to school.
I was more upset about it than he was. They're not doing anything anyway. He can go tomorrow and get his report card.
Sebastian was off and running because it's party day at school, he wasn't really late anyway. He didn't have to be there until 8.
My back is fried today.
Just fucking twitchy and shit.
Ugh grrr.
Good thing I see the doc.

Oh, I forgot to mention, I uploaded some more pictures to the photoblog. There's some of Mark in there.

Here is todays monday mp3.
I'm afraid of Americans- David Bowie and NIN. Gone.
Don't be a dick, just right click.

May 22, 2004

A.S.C. means After Santa Claus.

Sebastian asked what ASC meant in regards to movies and I said I didn't know so he told me it means After Santa Claus.
You know, BC, before Christ. AC, after Christ. ASC, After Santa Claus.
Okey dokey.

My blog is very slow today eh?
Like seriously dragging ass and I didn't touch a god damn thing.
It is just slow. It even went buh-bye for about an hour today.
That's ok.
It was a boring day here anyway. Did nothing much at all.
But I do have goals for tomorrow.
I need to clean off the kitchen table.
The table that seems to just collect things. It has a little bit of everything on it.
Clothes, pens, paper, cards, a lamp that isn't plugged in, a basket, books, a pair of socks, toys, cups, pez, candles and a wide assortment of crap.
Then I am going to do some general pick up around here.
The place isn't dirty but it could use a wipe down and a pick up.

It also dawned on me today that tuesday is the last day of school for the summer.
They will be home 24-7 eating me out of house and home and bugging each other and telling me how bored they are.
I know how to relieve their boredom but it means me getting offline.
They found a game online where they can chat with their friends and all of Marks friends play it.
For hours.
And hours.
I got kicked off yesterday for about 3 hours and I did get a lot done around here and rested a bit but I wanted to play on here.
Anyway, that's all.
Later days.

May 22, 2004

Bor-ring.

It's been one of those days. Just nothing doing anywhere.
We went to the store. Got my free scrubby bubble thing finally and now we are eating dinner (late) and watching Sweet November.
Yeah, I talked them into watching another Keanu movie.
You don't think this is going to have any negative impact on them when they grow up right?
Nah.
They'll be fine.
They might just have a Keanu complex but that's ok.
Later days.

May 21, 2004

Todays the big day.

My neck and shoulder feel a bit better but I am not going to push it and do anything with it at all.
I can't wait to have this meeting and I have decided that if she lawyered up when I get there, I will thank them and come home and call the ACLU.
I just have a feeling she did and I will not sit in on a meeting with a lawyer without one myself.
That would be stupid.

Sebastian and I made a wand out of a stick for Harry Potter.
We have sanded it all down and it is so smooth and looks great. We just need to seal with so the wood doesn't split or anything.
Looks very cool.
He is super excited about seeing HP3 for his birthday.

Well, that's it for this morning. I will let you all know how this goes.
Later days.

May 20, 2004

And your point is...

Me: Hello?
unknown lady on phone: I have the wrong number.
Me: Ok.
ulop: Can you give me the right number?
Me: To what?
ulop: To the person I need to call.
Me: Who are you trying to call?
ulop:Oh dear, I have the wrong number.
Ulop hung up at that point.
I hate shit like that.
I mean, just fucking hang up and call the operator or whatever.

My neck is still out of whack and it hurts. Good thing I go see the doc on Monday. I'm headed to bed. I just can't stay awake anymore today and I do have to get up and go out tomorrow so later days.

May 19, 2004

Ugh. Grr.

I hurt myself. Wah.
I threw my neck out. That's all this can be. My neck and left shoulder are so fucking killing me and I didn't do anything. I'm just not gonna move them.
Yeah.
I didn't do anything really. Just the normal stuff.
Fuck.
Other than that, not much is going on but I do want to say thank you to who ever bought this.
I have 2 kid birthdays coming this summer and that really helped. Thank you for buying it through my links who ever you are.

May 19, 2004

Not much going on.

Tired, didn't sleep well at all.
Probably going back to bed.
I have a lot of stuff to get ready for tomorrow.
I need to go through all the psychology papers she sent home because I find them just so inappropriate for a english teacher to be giving to kids.
Phrenology? Yin yang and you?
What was this woman thinking?
Anyways, that's all.
Later days.

May 17, 2004

The sound of my voice.

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Hey it's me again. Somethings been sort of bugging me. Everybody who heard my audblog said that I just don't sound like what they picture. Well, what do you picture when you see me? I mean do I look like the frou frou kinda girl who would sound all dainty and barbie like. I actually don't know what people expect when they hear my voice because everyones like Wow, that is so not how I pictured you to sound so it makes me wonder, how do you picture me to sound?. Um, I'm bored and it's raining finally so hopefully it's gonna cool off some. It's a nice big big storm. Heavy heavy rain. Can't flush the toilets cuz we're on septic but hey it might cool stuff off by about 5 degrees which would be nice. Wanna hear Sebastian?
This is what Sebastian sounds like. *very loud hello to the world from Sebastian followed by maniacal laughter*
That is Sebastian the fruit loop.
So anyway, that's it, leave a note in the comments and tell me what you thought I would sound like.
Later days.

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May 14, 2004

Now this is a school I could get in to.

Tom Savini special make-up effects program.

I love gore and blood. This looks like fun.
I have done some pretty cool stuff for Halloween in years past that was pretty good.
I once had my sister run over my clothes and then I glued with face mask stuff, dirt and gravel to my face and arms and had some 'blood' coming out of my nose and mouth and stuff.
I dropped the boys off at school and then walked across highway 41 at the cross walk to go to work.
People just sat in their cars and stared.
I even dragged my leg.
It was good fun.
People were honking their horns and this one lady sat with her mouth open white knuckling the steering wheel.
Tee hee.
I wish I had gotten pictures of my self that day.
The following year, I was a knife fight victim.
That was good...lol

May 12, 2004

I got nothing today.

I haven't done anything or read anything that would be even remotely interesting.
I thought about doing a quiz just to have something up here but I looked at the quizzes and didn't feel like doing any of them.
The laundry is spinning.
See, I am doing something today.
I'm hungry but I don't know what I want to eat.
Just bored and dull and hot.
OOhh, goody, laundry time.
Later.

May 11, 2004

I don't get political often because it's just ugly.

War bloggers and politic bloggers just get so heated and frustrated and you can almost see the veins popping out of their foreheads over some issues.
It's ugly.

May 11, 2004

I do not like the new blogger comments.

I will not be changing any of the blogs that are hosted on blogger, Mark or Sebastians, to the new blogger comment system.
The commenter's have to be registered blogger users or it will show up as anonymous. They are also inline comments which suck.
If Heidi wants to change hers, she can, but in my opinion, that is like taking your blog to live journal. I did try the install on a test blogger blog and it truly sucks ass. I will not change comment systems. People will have to do that themselves if they want the change.
Only registered users will get a 'name' and everyone else is anon. It's like trying to make a community out of blogger users and it just feels odd that way after all this time of not being a forced community like livejournal.
Am I making sense here?

May 10, 2004

We interrupt Maury Povich so you can hear the pres.

Thank you Mr. Rumsfeld, you're doing a great job, *kiss kiss* we thank you blah blah blah.
We want to hand over the Iraqi government on June 30th, we've asked for another $25 billion to help us kick butt before we turn it over but we will turn it over on June 30th.
The people responsible for the pictures and abuse will be dealt with.
I am so proud to be your commander in chief.

Not word for word but that was my summary for ya.
This little speech was in regards to the fact that he just saw some new pictures and he spent all of two minutes talking about how they are going to punish those who committed these atrocities.
Will that include Rumsfeld Mr. President?
See, soldiers do what they are told and there was a line/chain of command and rummy is in it somewhere.
Will you be prosecuting him too sir?
I just get a bad feeling here.
I'm sick over what they did to people, Iraqi soldiers or not, they didn't deserve that. We are supposed to be better than the rest of the world. That's what we tell everyone, that's how we behave and ooops, some pictures of how we really treat people got out and now we back peddle and kiss butt and lose charts showing the chain of command.
How convenient.
It wasn't just a few soldiers acting on their own. They were told to do this but here is some guy getting a trial already and how many low ranking men and women are gonna take the fall before we get right down to the nitty gritty truth that orders came from on high?
And another $25 billion.
Maybe it's for more cameras.

May 10, 2004

Morning.

Kids are off to school.
I stayed up too late. (What's new?)
Muscles hurt.
Going back to bed.
Later days.

May 08, 2004

Not doing much this afternoon either.

Spent some time just slacking off reading old entries and doing a search for a discontinued fragrance from avon, Natori. Can get it off of ebay but I don't feel like trying to outbid people for perfume. It kind of sucks too because it's the only fragrance that doesn't send my perfume allergy into overdrive.
Watching Big Fish again before it has to go back on Monday.
Gonna see if it can be copied. Shhhh.
If so, dad, I'll send you one. It's a great movie that I think dad would like.
Great story. Very moving. Just ask my boys who bawled like their pets had died and Santa didn't come.

May 08, 2004

Nothing to talk about.

Just doing a load of laundry, watching saturday morning kid shows, giving Mark some advil.
He crashed his bike yesterday and now he's a hurting unit.
He's fine.
Nothings broke or bruised, just crashed it and his muscles are a bit stiff now.
The kids are playing games.
Wait.
Why am I watching this power ranger show if they are in the other room playing a game?
ah, whatever. This is usually the way it is.
Luckily I don't really care too much.
Did you guys see what is going to be on ABC Monday night at 8?
A Wrinkle in Time.
The boys are excited. They loved that book.
It looks like it might be alright.
Well, I have been up for hours now and haven't eaten anything so I suppose I'll go find something.
Later days.

May 07, 2004

Hoo ya!

Just thought I'd get all this excitement out of my system.
There ya go.

Mark came home and brought Mikey with him.
The boys are all playing games and hanging out.
It's a typical friday night here.
Boring as usual.

I am guilty of being a bitch today.
(Today. Hell, I am a bitch mostly everyday)
But today, I was a bitch when I should have been more level headed, more emotionless. More logical.
But I let my emotions rule my head and I got it thrown back at me ten fold.
That's what I love about women.
We are bitchy to each other in that way where we can look right at you, put our arm around your shoulder, smile the biggest smile and call you an asshole in all seriousness.
Yes, I am emotional due to my current female issue and I so rightly deserved to be told that my 'personal problems' were affecting my view.
Not that it changes my view but I should have held it.
We women are our own worst enemies ladies.
We are biting and truthful and if not to your face, then catty and scathing behind your backs.
I deserved that slap. Yes I did.
So to anyone whom I may have offended today with my personal, emotional remarks, my sincerest apologies.
Good night.

May 07, 2004

Wasn't that fun?

I can't believe I actually sat through that whole thing with Rumsfeld.
Interesting.
Liked Graham. Very straightforward questions with no bullshit.
It'll be interesting to see who gets it for this won't it?

May 06, 2004

I'm fine. Really.

I just don't have a lot to say.
I'm just physically, mentally wiped out.
I honestly have nothing to say being kind of blank inside.
I did watch Kill Bill.
It was very good. Not what I expected at all.
The way people were talking, I expected a much bloodier movie.
I expected much worse.
Maybe my standards for gore and blood and mayhem are too high.
Horror is my thing and the bloodier a movie, the more I love it.
This wasn't what I expected but still very good none the less.
Now I need to see 2.
I'll be waiting for video.
I can only afford to do one movie once in a great while and Sebastian has his heart set on seeing the new Harry Potter for his birthday so I will scrimp and save for that so we can see it in June when it comes out.
Sebastian will be 11 on June 1st.
Hard to believe that he is that age.
It really seems like only yesterday my little bugger butt started kindergarten.
He's entering 6th grade in the fall.
Where does the time go.

A girl named Catz

P.S. George Bush, will you please shut up.
'How very noble of you to call on an American reporter your majesty.'
George, just stop fucking talking you asswipe. That made you sound stupid. It's a joint press conference, he should call on both sides not just his own.
Gah.

May 06, 2004

Tired.

Blank.
I'll be back later.

Florida Politics

May 05, 2004

I got nothing.

I have absolutely nothing to say this morning.
I woke up empty.

May 04, 2004

Morning.

*yawn* I got like 3 hours of sleep.
Had a nice chat. :)
The kids are getting up and heading to school and then I'm gonna have to go back to sleep.
Tired.
Not much else to say right now.
Later days.

May 04, 2004

See what happens when I fall asleep mid-day?

Up all frigging night.
Sheesh.
At least Or-E-gon is gonna come chat with me again. ;)
Saw the grossest pic on that ok cupid site today.
Nasty.
Won't even tell you what it was but it was clearly against the rules.
Eeek.
So, I'm bored while waiting for him to sign on so tell me what you are doing up this late if you are.
I can't be the only other person online.

May 03, 2004

I went and paid the bills.

I hate the bills.
While waiting for the bus to come home, I had like a 45 minute wait so I spotted this dollar depot place.
The dollar general by my house is false advertising.
Some shit is a buck but a lot of it is just lower priced than the grocery store.
A savings sure but not a true dollar store.
Dollar Depot was.
Everything was a buck.
I got paper plates, shampoo, conditioner, shoelaces for Sebastian, floor cleaner and all for only $5.
At the grocery store, I would have spent $20.
Happy girl I am because I got a disconnect for my water so I had to send them more than I had planned.
Bastards.
All I had to get at the grocery store was toilet paper which was on sale for $5.50 for a 12 roll pack of Scott which lasts forever.
It's little things like toilet paper on sale that make me happy.
I had to get cat litter, store brand for $1.99, some cat food and now I'm home and snail mailed my host fees out and the crappy water bill too.
Started some laundry and gonna find some lunch then answer my emails.
Hope you're having a great monday.
Oh, the big rain storm started just as I got back.
Later days.
P.S. The mail just came and in it was a box of great books for the boys from Diane. Thank you so much Diane! They will love these and it will keep them busy over the summer. Keep those brains working. ;)
And also my coupon for a free scrubbing bubbles fresh brush. They are out of free ones but they have a coupon that you can print for $4.00 off.

May 03, 2004

Monday blah.

Ok, so it's Monday and bill day.
It's going to suck cuz it's hot and sticky and maybe rain later but gotta do what I gotta do.
So have a great monday and I'll post a song when I get back.
Must shower and wake up.
Later days.

May 02, 2004

The kids have gone with my sis to move rocks.

No, really.
I am watching Weekend at Bernies II which is not as good as Weekend at Bernies.
Yes I do love that movie.
I have a weakness for it.

May 02, 2004

Hi, how are ya?

I'm fine thanks.
Sunday morning plans?
None that I know of. Mainly just trying to keep my hair from going haywire.
Why's that?
Oh, I dunno, maybe the humidity levels have something to do with it.
Click for bigger

Don't you know what happens to natural curls on days like this?
Holy shit, my hair is so fucked up, it's frizzy, wild and just going crazy.
I'm just gonna slap it in a tight library matron bun and try to ignore it as it escapes from the bun and wraps itself around my face and beckons other hairs to stray.

May 01, 2004

Bored.

Isn't this what I say every saturday night?
Gawd I need a life.
It's a bit on the humid side tonight.
Sticky sticky.
Mark is sleeping over at Mikeys, Sebastian is in bed due to me not being as entertaining as he wanted me to be.
So anyway, that's it for here.
Hope you're having a better time this weekend than me.
It'd be hard not to have a better time than me this weekend.
You'd have to be a monk in a monastery far away in the frozen tundra of Siberia to have a worse weekend than me.

Karri has a kickin' Electra Woman look going on over at her place thanks to Jenni.
Go check them both out.
Later days.

May 01, 2004

Where the hell did the day go?

I went out to run some errands with my sister and I guess that's where time went.
Oh well.
My bread came out really well. Next time, more cheese though.
Maybe I'll do some Asiago sometime.
That's the good thing about having worked in an italian bakery, I know a shitload of bread recipes for yummy italian flavored breads and stuff.
Need to do some dishes and start on the spaghetti.
Hope you are all enjoying your saturday.
It's simply gorgeous out here today.
86o degrees with a nice breeze.
Hurry up and get home Heidi.

April 30, 2004

Sebastians script is ready

but I am waiting for Mark to get home from school so he can go with us and help bring home some more food than what Sebastian and I can carry.
Haven't really been doing a lot today.
Just doing some dishes in shifts and doing little pick ups around the house.
Nothing major.
It's not too bad temperature wise today.
83o degrees with 63% humidity.
It's the stickiness I can't stand.
Everything sticks to you.
Ick.
Well, need to go shave my legs before I go out.
Yeah, I should have done that in the shower this morning but forgot.
Oh well.
Later days.

Karen

April 29, 2004

Hey.

Sebastian does have pink eye.
It was a long day and then we got to the pharmacy and they won't have his script until tomorrow.
He has a note excusing him until Monday.
I am so frigging tired.
Too much walking, sitting in uncomfy bus seats.
4 buses to go to the doc.
2 there and 2 back and for some reason, people thought I was the fucking cruise director and kept asking me where such and such was and what bus they should be on.
Did I look like I work for the SCAT bus?
Speaking of, you need to go to google and type in sarasota scat bus like I did so I could get the schedule for this bus to the docs which I never take.
I'm warning you ahead of time, the very first link is horribly horribly wrong and you get the same results if you type scat bus sarasota or even scat bus + sarasota.
I am telling you, WARNING YOU, it is not a site you want to click on. If you have never heard of the sex fetish scat before, you are in for quite the lesson.
I nearly vomited.
I ran into a SCAT employee (his shirt said supervisor) in the grocery store to get us some lunch and asked him for an email address because there is something that they need to see and possibly correct if they can.
He asked me what and I said I wouldn't ruin his lunch and I would just email him.
We came home, ate and I passed out.
The heat and the walking combined with the meds that make me bloated and sensitive to the sun, is just a bad combo for me and out go the lights as soon as my bod touches a soft anything.
So that's my day.
I took some pics with my cheap cam and I will upload them and look at them later and if they are any good, I'll post 'em.
Later.

April 28, 2004

Bored.

I am so bored.
That is all.

April 28, 2004

It figures.

It figures that a super nice, normal, cute guy lives all the way on the other fucking side of the country.
He's not an artist, musician or anything in the entertainment field which is a major bonus and according to my horriblescopes and many love tests say I should avoid.
Or-E-gon.
Yuh.

Southern Wench

April 28, 2004

I'm out of conditioner until next week

so I used a packet of mayo I have had in the fridge from some restaurant for like a year.
So far so good but it smells.
I hate mayo.
I'm a miracle whip kind of gal.
I wonder if I could use that instead...

Sunfairy

April 28, 2004

Won't be around much today.

Just hanging with Sebastian and stuff trying to keep him from ripping his eyes out.
Haver a great wednesday.
Later days.

April 27, 2004

It's like a line right out of a movie.

"Good God, am I really filling out another of these stupid things with the thought that the perfect woman will see it? Its about how things are with a person that matters, be you together or apart, ask a question get a straight answer and be prepared to answer in return. Live laugh love, do good for those around you and start the occasional marshmallow fight. Be creative, be silly, be the shoulder for support. Cook, clean, expect the same in return or at least a real shot at learning. Be outgoing but loyal. Smile. Save the sunday comics out for them when you're done with the art section. Bring home ice cream. "

So yeah, I'm still answering questions over at that Ok Cupid thingy and damn, there are a lot of them.
But anyway, I'm not really looking, just sorta goofing off.
Ya know what I mean?
It's like shopping for a new car even though you can't get a loan.
So this guy, above, messages me. He's moving to this area late July. Wants info on the area etc.
I check his profile and read that.
I swear, that was in a movie.
Anyone know or should this guy start writing for chick flicks?

The Baby Chronicles

April 26, 2004

Wow, lazy day posting for me.

Sorry bout that but it's fucking hot and sticky.
Me no likey.
I can't afford the air conditioner so I'm hanging on as long as possible without having to do that money sucking box that FPL is just waiting for me to turn on.
They love it when we have to turn on the air cuz then we owe them more money for their precious power.
Ah, fuck you FPL.
I will sit and sweat and stifle in my house for as long as I possibly can before I pay you more money than I need to.
You hear me FPL?!?! I'd rather sweat to death than turn on that money sucker!

Ok, I'm gonna take a shower now.

April 24, 2004

I had some weird dreams last night.

What's new right?
Well these dreams involved some bloggers who wrote some comments about the fact that I didn't post anything about earth day.
They were like drunken comments.
People were pissed that I missed the event.
None of that happened for real, it was just a weird dream.
But it was kind of funny. The drunken comments chastising me for no earth day post.
It actually woke me up.
Then I had a dream about going back to Maine for a visit and I had won the lottery so I bought a building in downtown Portland and had it remodeled.
I have seen this building for real at some point. It's on the waterfront near Wharf Street.
It looks like hell on the outside but the inside is dark pine. I have seen this building so clearly I should draw it out.
Just weird dreams all night.
Anyway, that's all.
Later days.

April 23, 2004

Morning.

Boys are gone. I'm still tired.
I tossed and turned and had the orange peels in a wastebasket dream again. I can't explain it. For some reason, in the dream, I am carrying around a wastebasket of orange peels.
Maybe it has something to do with how good orange peels clean stuff and it's some sort of mind fuck telling me that I need to clean some part of my life.
Who the fuck knows why we dream the things we do.
Later days.

April 22, 2004

Is anyone else's colleges offering this?

FMU is offering a Homeland Security course.
I saw the ad on tv for FMUs new course and just about spit all over the place.
The ad said that there is an increased need for homeland security personnel and you can train now for a future of unlimited need.
What does that mean?
Does that mean that we are always going to need this Homeland security shit and so we have started offering training at community colleges?
I don't know. The whole thing just struck me kind of funny because this is the school that has all those hokey commercials with people who barely speak english saying how the same day they completed externship, they got hired or the medical billing commercial with the chick with the miss piggy nose.
The commercial that runs 50-60 times a day with annoying music and just general weirdness is going to be teaching homeland security.

April 20, 2004

There is nothing nicer

than someone who can make you smile before you go to sleep.
For whatever the reason may be for saying nice things, thank you.

*updated to add*
That it is just downright bizarre to add people to your messenger and beg them to chat after only viewing their profile.
Not that I'm not flattered and all but uh, dude, that's creepy.
And no, this is not the same person who made me smile.

April 19, 2004

I am just having one of those days.

One of those days where I don't want to do anything and really haven't done anything.
I just feel a little blah.

That card game that I won from the Hasbro LOTR sweepstakes finally showed up today.
That made the kids happy.

This is such a horrible week in history isn't it?
I remembered awhile ago what today was.
I know exactly where I was and what I was doing 9 years ago.
I was sitting on my couch in my tiny little apartment above the dance studio hugging my babies while they tried to save as many lives as they could.
What a horrible day in time.

April 16, 2004

Whoo hoo! It's Friday!

Where the hell is everybody?
It is boring and dull around I know.
Both boys are at school today and I am doing laundry (so exciting)
and basically, just picking up around here.
I did get a coupon for $5 off some Orville popcorn because the 6 pack box I bought about month ago, had 3 bags pop flat.
So I emailed them with the box numbers and stuff and got a coupon.
I picked up 10 packs of their popcorn yesterday for .79 cents my final cost after their coupon.
If you get a bad product, tell the company folks.
They want to know that a product is not up to standard, yours or theirs and they will reimburse you. Most places will anyway.
Ok, off to do some cleaning and search for alternative flea treatments for around the house.
it's flea season and a few snuck in.
The cats have been treated but the beds and carpets need to be treated and I hate bug bombs and foggers. Very unhealthy. Carpet stuff for fleas is dangerous too.
Any natural people out there with good flea treatments?
Later days.

April 15, 2004

Morning.

*Yawn*
Not much going on this morning.
Just have to go get some grocery shopping done.
Mark is going with me.
He has the day off due to a field trip that he failed to raise enough points to go on.
That's another problem with this school.
They have to have points to use the bathrooms, points to go on field trips and they can use points to buy their way out of homework assignments.
I don't even know how the earn these points but Mark is 10 shy for todays trip and rather than have him go to school and have to join a 6th grade class all day, I said screw it, stay home and help me.
But points to use the toilet? Like what if you don't have enough frigging points? Are you supposed to hold the pee or poop all day until you get home?
Sounds a bit sadistic to me.
If you have to pee you have to pee.
People tell me to fight the bigger battles when it comes to this school crap.
Hrm, no use of toilets without points, bullies going unchecked, teachers over reacting to pictures drawn by children.
So many people wish they could be a kid again.
I wouldn't want it.
Not in this day and age.
The shit these kids have to deal with is worse than the shitty teachers I had to deal with.
Mr. Tsomidies kicking his students in the ass with his steal toe boots is nothing compared to the stifling oppression of individuality that some kids face in the public school system.
I should like go to the PTA meetings and cause a ruckus sometime.

I will answer emails later.
Julie, you are too sweet for words.

April 13, 2004

Well, that was fun.

I mean that too.
But yes, I did ban that ip.
I am not going to sit around day after day and defend myself to his latest girlfriend all the time.
They all wake up eventually.

I was up late, I'm tired and I have a docs appointment this afternoon.
Later days.

April 12, 2004

Here, have another.

Hush-TOOL.

I saw something today that made me think of the above song right away.
Go fuck yourself was my first thought.
Post something meaningful. Post something well thought out.
So here's something well thought out and meaningful.
Go fuck yourself.
I refuse to stress myself out over what others consider important, cool, righteous etc.
I'm not gonna hop on your bandwagon.
I march to my own drums.
Heck, I don't march.
I walk along and do what I gotta do.
I'm not an ass kisser.
I'm not a holy roller.
I'm not a warblogger.
I'm not a peace blogger.
I'm not a cat blogger.
I just blog.
I just do my thing and do it the way it feels right to do.
Whatever way the wind blows ya know?
I have thoughts and opinions and I voice them when I feel like it.
I don't do any of this for you.
This is for me.
The comments are nice when people feel like leaving one but it is not a requirement.
This is not a popularity contest kids.
I never did care for those.
The price of being popular is too great.
It carries responsibilities I don't want or need.
This whole thing is for me.
I'm selfish that way.
I get to just get out of my system whatever may be in there needing to come out.
If you agree with it, cool, we share an idea.
If you don't, that's cool too.
Being an individual is something I admire.
I'm not on this side or that side, I'm on my own side.
An old friend long since gone, once talked to her young sons about my way of life, my belief system.
One of her young sons once said to me in all seriousness at the age of 10, "you're a fence sitter."
I don't think he honestly knew what that meant.
But I'm not a fence sitter.
I walk along the top balancing myself carefully making sure to keep both sides weighted evenly.
I can look objectively at both yards.

April 10, 2004

Bored bored bored.

I just finished writing a letter on Sebastians teachers behalf.
The school wants to do away with the class websites and class email system.
It has been a huge help to me this year.
The teacher and I have been emailing each other and sending files back and forth to each other and just general updates about his progress.
They say that not enough parents use them.
Well, when the school only sends out one notice at the beginning of the year packed in with about 50 other pieces of paper, how are parents supposed to remember one website?
His teacher sent home at least 4 notices over the year telling us about the ability to email her and check homework and basically to just see what projects they are working on etc.
The internet is a quick, easy solution to check on your childs progress if you don't have time to stop in and say hello in person every week.
I have used it weekly with her this year.
It's been so easy for me to stay in touch.

But now that I've written the letter, I'm bored to death.
There is nothing on tv, it's hot and no one is blogging.
*sigh*

April 09, 2004

Hey.

Feeling somewhat better. The earache is gone but the throat is still sore and the migraine won't quit.
It's probably caffeine related.
I haven't had any since monday and I know that I should keep some caffeine in the house for emergency headaches like this.
One can soda + 6 tylenol, headache go bye bye.
Sis is going to take me on one of my errands later on this afternoon. I have to drop off some papers for the gov.
Hope everyone has a nice friday (good friday for those of you who celebrate it) and if you all take off for easter, have a good one.
Want to know the slang for easter? Go check it out. Almost made me hurl. Consider that your warning.

April 06, 2004

Bleh.

Just feeling like all icky and stuff so I'm hanging out on the couch.
Later days.

April 03, 2004

My rug shampooer has gone to appliance heaven.

My sis took me out to pay the bill and then we came back to get my rug cleaner and go do her rugs. They needed to be washed.
I have owned that thing for like 3 1/2 years or 4. Can't really remember.
It died today.
The motor completely burned out.
It was all melted and shit.
Oh fucking well.
MSN messenger is pissing me off.
Sign in. Sign out. Sign in. Sign out.
All by itself.
Knock that shit off.
I have a few things to do around the house and then I'm gonna watch a movie that I borrowed off my sis.
Shawshank Redemption.
I love this movie.
That's about it.
Later days.

April 03, 2004

Yay for rides!

Sis has to go out this morning anyway so she is going to give me a ride.
Phew.
I hate the half day bus trip to pay one fucking bill.
Yeah, I'm off to pay FPL.
Bastards.
I need to take a shower and stuff after the kids are done. Yes, this means I will get cold water.
Fantabulous.

April 02, 2004

I am feeling a bit better.

Just had a bout of bitchiness.
It's almost subsided.
I have to go out tomorrow down to my favorite place, Cattleman road.
I love wasting half a day down there.
Not much else going on here.
Later.

April 02, 2004

I have nothing to say.

I am still in a funk and I was a bit on the cruel side as someone pointed out to me.
I was not looking for a fight but if someone says something snotty to me, I will say something back.
I guess it's ok.
Later days.

April 01, 2004

And I'm bored and I'm tired.

And I just wrote a nasty email to FPL.
They can kiss my ass.
I wish I had copied it so I could have posted it here.
It was by far one of the best letters I have ever written.
I highly doubt that they will respond.
They suck donkey balls.
I think I need a nap now.
No, I didn't answer any emails or comments. Matter of fact, I think I emptied my entire inbox out of pure disgust with today in general.
Maybe the stuff will still be sitting in the recycle bin.
I'll check it later.
Later days.

March 31, 2004

Site was acting up.

Stomach unhappy again.
Don't know why.
I wanna talk about obsession but don't feel good.
I will get to it tomorrow maybe.
I do want to say that at one point in my life, I had an unhealthy, but started as an innocent crush, on a bass player for a band in the 80's.
It became something else and I had to know things, had to have things.
What is your obsession?

March 30, 2004

Good morning.

Tired and pained.
Not much going on so not much to say.
It's spring break so I have things to do and kids to kill occupy.
Later days.

No, wait, I do have a question.
How come all the blog spammers attack at night? It doesn't seem to matter what time zone you are in, they seem to know that whoever you are, wherever you are, that you will be sleeping at such and such a time.
Only 1 got through last night, ip is 200.80.216.57 (ban that) but how come it's only at night?

March 29, 2004

The boys have gone up to the pool to swim.

A few of their friends came by and I sent them off to have some fun.
They worked hard today.
They went through all their clothes, cleaned the driveway out, and the trimmed the hedges in the side yard.
They are good boys who help as much as they can for being as young as they are.
I added a couple new pictures to the photoblog of them doing the hedges.
They look so happy.
Not.
Later days.

March 28, 2004

B-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b.

That was me doing that thing with my lips that makes that noise.
You know what noise I mean.
You know what thing I mean.
Don't act like you don't.
I am so bored, that if it were possible to slip into a coma from being bored, that I would be in one.
That is all.

March 27, 2004

Nothing much going on here today.

The kids are cleaning their room so my sister can drop off her old pc desk for them.
We are slowly getting the house reorganized so that when Heidi comes back, she can have her room again.
What's that?
I didn't tell you Heidi is coming back?
Well she is.
Seattle, her home state, is not working out quite the way she hoped it was going to so she will be moving back here by at the latest, September.
They are cleaning their room and then when the desk gets here, we will move their pc in there.
They just use it to play games and Mark does some homework on it.
They have Adobe photoshop on it and so they do art and stuff.
All their kid games are on it and now they will have a nice desk.
They have been using and end table which was kind of low.
Anyway, that's about it from here.
I'm still wicked tired.
Later days..

March 25, 2004

Just stopping in to let

everyone know I am alive.
Had a very long day, perhaps even got a sunburn.
I will be back later.
I am in pain and have a few things that I need to do around here.

March 25, 2004

Ergh. Argh.

It totally figures.
The day I have to get up early with Mark and have an appointment to go to, I slept like absolute shit.
I will answer emails and stuff later in the day.
Grr. I need to wake up.

March 24, 2004

I just finished all that damn paperwork.

It was stupid, time consuming and boring as hell.
I have to go down there tomorrow which totally sucks because it is 3 buses away.
I hate that.
Half my damn day on a bus.
Oh well right?
I'm kind of cranky right now so I'm gonna step off for a bit and come back to visit everyone when I feel more human.

March 22, 2004

Kill the ca-at! Kill the ca-a-at!

I am going to beat Kali within inches of her life.
Not really but she is pissing me off.
Pet me pet me pet me!
All damn day.
I have to lock the bathroom door now because she has figured out how to open it and then proceed to lay down between my feet while I pee.
Fun.
Not.
She follows me around and mews if I look at her.
'Why aren't you petting me? Hello? I know you see me down here rubbing up against your legs and causing you to trip. Hello?'
She sits directly under my chair so when I drop my legs down from the foot stool, there she is and I almost fall trying to stand up.
I try to take a shower and there she is pawing at the curtain.
I try to cook, do dishes, clean something, anything, and there she is.
'Hello! Hey! Lady! Pet Meeeeeeeeeeeee!'
She tripped me coming out of the bathroom just now and now I have a broken middle finger nail.
I banged it on the wall trying not to fall.
These are my frigging nails.
Mine!
I grew them.
All the rest of my nails are nice and long and perfectly shaped and now, the middle finger of my right hand looks like I'm trying to make a statement.
What that statement is, I don't really know but it looks like I'm trying to be all ready to flip off everyone in a very un-lady like way.
I mean, I do flip people off all the time very un-lady like but now it just looks like I'm planning it.
It's short.
Damn you Kali!!

March 20, 2004

Mumble grumble.

I was sleeping soundly, dreaming a bizarre dream. My favorite kind.
There was a girl having to catch fish, I don't know why, but it was interesting.
Then I hear 'mom'.
It sort of worked it's way into the dream and then I hear it again.
Then I woke up.
Sebastian was waking me up to tell me my sis called to see if I needed a ride and yes, I do but man, having that mom word work it's way in was weird.
I am heading out to pay a bill and do a little food shopping that the boys and I couldn't carry.
Will be back.
Later days.

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March 19, 2004

I have nail polish remover.

I am a happy Kat.
I went to the store with the boys and we got a little bit of stuff.
Free for all will remain open in the hopes that Miss Julie (ahem) decides to post.
She misses it all the time.
But feel free to post anything you want but no politics.
Later days.

Filed under general.

March 17, 2004

You ever realize a manicure too late

that you have run out of polish remover and end up having to chip off the nasty ugly polish that has chipped up all gross?
Yeah.
I hate that.

Filed under general.

March 17, 2004

Morning.

I slept ok once I fell asleep. It was weird.
I kept falling asleep and then 'thinking' I wasn't breathing.
I'm sure I was dreaming but it kept waking me up.
I have a bug bite on my middle finger right where a ring would fit.
It hurts man.
I had to take my ring off with soap because it was just aggravating the crap out it.
Neosporin and a band aid should take care of it huh?
It is so dull around here lately.
Nothing going on at all.
Hope you all have a good day.
Happy St. Pat's.
Later days.

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March 16, 2004

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March 16, 2004

I hate my body.

All weekend, no problem falling asleep but last night, I had the worst time again.
It's like my body does not want to sleep on school nights.
It's like it knows I have to get up early so it refuses to go to sleep.
I am tired today.
I will update the Sims later.
Later days.

Filed under general.

March 13, 2004

I just cleaned out my delicates drawer.

Yeah, I said delicates.
I didn't think you'd want me to say underwear and bras.
I threw away 3 bras that I have owned forever and I haven't worn in years because my boobs are bigger.
I hung onto them because, well, I don't really know why.
9 pairs of undies that were just worn out, socks with no mates, holey nylons, trouser socks.
I hate trouser socks.
It's like half nylons and half sock and just icky feeling especially that band at the top so they don't fall down.
I need to do my closet.
Oh god. The closet is a nightmare.
I hate even opening it.
Nothing falls out but there is so much crap in there.
Not today.
No, not today.
Probably not even tomorrow.
Sometime.

Filed under general.

March 13, 2004

The kids are home and we are dying of boredom.

They had a great time.
There is nothing on tv at all tonight so we are just hanging out watching movies.
Nothing much.
What is everyone else doing tonight?

Filed under general.

March 12, 2004

I went out and did my shopping.

Got some stuff I sorely needed. You'll be happy to know I smell like a woman again.
I bought stamps so all you people I promised snail mail too, it's on it's way today (Jenni) and tomorrow (Karri) .
I have soda.
You don't know how happy that makes me.
And paper plates which makes me even happier.
I have been washing plates like a mad woman everyday.
I have a lot of nice plates but I'm so afraid the kids will 'drop' them in the sink or on the floor, that I make them use the set of plastic plates I have. 4 plates.
I got toilet paper. (Yay!)
Soap, laundry soap, toothpaste.
All the needed stuffs and food.
Now, I can sit back and relax for the weekend.
I can catch up on blog reading and my books.
Later days.

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March 12, 2004

Good morning!

Jenni, who suffers from insomnia but is more creative with her time than me, built me a photoblog last night! In purple! ! I love it!
There are only 2 pictures there at the moment but I will be adding all my pics to it soon. Get them off of Ofoto.
Go see. It's so purty. My Single Mom Life in Photos

I have to go out this morning but will be back to add stuff and check in with everyone.
Later days.

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March 11, 2004

It's been another one of those boring days here.

Sometimes, nothing at all happens and as boring as it may be, it can be a good thing.
I got no bills in the mail.
No bill collectors called.
No one got hurt.
No one failed a class.
No cats escaped or pissed on anything.
Nothing broke.

I am saddened by the loss of life and angered that terrorists harmed more innocent people somewhere in the world.
We are not the only country that has this problem yet our media treats these other countries as though their attacks are not as important as ours.
That makes me very sad.
When 9-11 happened, the whole world was with us.
We spent 5 minutes talking about this on the morning, noon and evening news.
We wonder why no one helps us when we ask for world support.
We show no sympathy or respect for anyone.

Filed under general.

March 11, 2004

It's a quiet day in the hood.

I just don't have much to say.
My back has been bothering me a bit so I'm off an on here.
Later days.

Filed under general.

March 10, 2004

I went and took a shower

Click for bigger.

and discovered that I am out of my deoderant.
Great.
So I used Marks.
I smell manly now.
That is all.

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March 09, 2004

So I went and voted

on the local issues but they wouldn't let me vote on the dem noms because, well, I'm not a registered democrat.
I'm an independent.
That's right.
I vote for whoever the hell I want to...lol
Sure, it says Nader under independent but really, the reason I put myself in this category is because when I was a registered dem, I got phone calls all the time and door to door knockers.
Drove me batty.
I just vote for the person I think can do the best job.
It wasn't a wasted trip, I did get to vote on the local issues.

Filed under general.

March 09, 2004

I love it when the mail comes and there is nothing but crap.

It is certainly better than bills.
I am doing basically nothing right now.
The kids and I cleaned the house after school yesterday.
They helped a lot.
Did the floors and dusted and did the bathroom so I could do the dishes correctly and the wash correctly.
Never let little boys do laundry alone.
Not only do whites and colors go in the wash together but the 'folding' they do looks more like crumpled up balls of crud.

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March 09, 2004

It's another blah day in the neighborhood.

But I did catch some sleep last night.
Only woke up 3 times instead of my usual 6 or 7...lol
It's getting better. :)
I am headed off to vote today after the kids get home from school.
It's primary day here and the kids think I never vote.
Well, I do but they are in school when I usually go so that's why they never see me vote.
So, after-school, we will walk around the corner to the church and I will test out the new touch screen system.
Yes, I missed the first set of local elections where I could have used them.
But it's not that difficult.
Touch. It highlights. Ta da.

And oh, to be the masseuse who got to dump the bucket of water.
Later days.

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March 08, 2004

My clock mocks me.

I hate that damn clock.
Maybe if I turn it to face the wall, the numbers won't stay burnt into my mind when I wake up.
My body is like all hyper all night long.
It's like every fifteen minutes asking me if it's time to get up yet.
Now?
Is it time?
Can we get up yet?
No we can't get up yet!
Fucking sleep damn you!
I tried to get more sleep this morning but ended thinking about things past.
Never go down that road.
It's full of what ifs and what could have beens.
Not a fun place.

Here is a bonus music selection.
One of my most favorite Tori Amos songs.
Crucify- Live. Gone gone gone.
Enjoy.

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March 06, 2004

Grow up.

Seems someone is a little bored.
I don't visit porn sites folks. I don't bother with them and in order to get subscribed to this particular list, you actually have to go to the site. Red Hot Sex Tips.
Grow up please.
I don't get junk mail. I have extremely tight filters on my email so anything that I didn't directly asked for is automatically sent to the trash.
This was signed for.
Are you bored?
Do you need something to do?
Have I pissed you off?
If so, why don't you be a grown up and email me what it is I did that made you so mad.
If you can't be an adult and talk about it, you have problems.
And maybe you missed this little thing they have right below where you signed me up:
Warning: Subscribing someone else’s I.P. Address other than your own is a violation of the current Internet harassment laws and you can be easily tracked by your I.P.

I will be emailing them as soon as I click publish on this.
You fucking twit.

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March 05, 2004

Just ignore that.

I am just in a touchy mood today and allowed myself to be momentarily upset by something.
It's done, it's over.
Back on to better things and people who mean something to me.
Thanks for understanding.
Love you all much.
Later days.

Filed under general.

March 02, 2004

I have absolutely nothing

to say right now.
I am tired.
Two, maybe 3 hours of sleep.
Achey.
Later days.

Filed under general.

March 01, 2004

Today I'm 34.

I don't feel much older mentally but physically, I feel 64...lol
For an interesting version of one of my favorites, right click and save it as please.
Brown Derbies-When I'm 64. All gone.

I have to venture out later but I am so not ready to go early in the am like I was planning to.
Even though I went to bed as soon as Oscar was done, I didn't fall asleep for hours. I just laid there staring off into the darkness and trying to fall asleep.
I hate that. It was around 4 when I fell asleep.
I remember seeing 3:54 at my last clock gaze.
Damn red numbers.
They do it to piss me off I think.

Thank you everyone who sent birthday wishes.
Like my folks who called me last night and sang happy birthday like they do every year. I love that.
Even so far away, they still take time to sing.
I love you too.
Later days.

Filed under general.

February 29, 2004

You're preaching to the choir baby.

Pisces Drinking style:
If you're a Pisces, you've probably already heard
that you share a sign -- and an addictive
personality -- with Liz Taylor, Liza Minelli
and Kurt Cobain. Not only do Pisces like to
lose themselves in the dreamy, out-there
feeling that only hooch can give, but they
build up a mighty tolerance fast. Who needs an
expensive date like that? On the other hand,
they're fabulously enchanting partners, whether
in conversation or in crime. With the right
Pisces, you can start out sharing a pitcher of
margaritas and wind up in bed together for
days. The phrase "addictive
personality" can be read two ways, you
know.


Alcohoroscopes- what do the stars say about your drinking style
brought to you by Quizilla

Like this is news to anyone who really knows me.
One is too many and a thousand will never be enough.

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February 28, 2004

I don't know because none of the major sources are saying anything.

Just passing it on as an interesting link.
Cannot be confirmed. Who the hell knows right?

Top News Article | Reuters.com

And in case it gets shuffled away, just for my own memories, the article itself in the extended entry.

February 28, 2004

I am so bored.

I slept late, nothing happening around here.
Mark is over at Mikey's, Sebastian is watching cartoons.
I uploaded some smilies.
That is too damn easy Jenni...lol
Just upload them and there they are.
That's bad for me.
I could put some stuff in there man.
I must have looked at about 200 smilies.
Yeah, that is it.
I am a smiley geek.
Later days.

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February 27, 2004

I think some people missed the point.

As much as the commercials I discussed bother me, I was being sarcastic.
I don't think any of them should be removed.
I don't think they should tell us what we can see, hear, watch, look at, whatever.
Yes, some of them are highly inappropriate for prime time or hell, even daytime, but like I stated in my post, I do answer the questions that come up because I am a parent and it is my job to teach them.
Sure, the herpes commercials are a little hard to explain but I do it because I'd rather have them informed then with an STD.
I am capable of making the viewing choices for my family and explaining things to my kids.
The commercials are not alone in showing inappropriate content, the evening news is pretty good for that too but what are we going to do folks?
Seriously.
What do you want?
Do you want a group that decides what you can and can't watch deciding everything for you?
Are you capable of deciding if a show with a mans naked butt or a flash of a womans breast is appropriate for you or should someone step in and make that decision for you?
They will if you allow them to.
I may hate all those commercials but I would rather them be there and in my face pissing me off then not at all.
I don't want censorship.
I don't want someone deciding for me what I can see, listen to on the radio or look at in a museum or make fun of during commercial breaks.
I am capable of deciding what I allow my family to watch even if I have to answer uncomfortable questions regarding feminine hygiene.
At least I am answering the questions they ask.

Filed under general.

February 27, 2004

A few things that are bugging me.

The FCC crackdown on indecency.
Ok, so they want to save us from obscene or indecent talk, images, tv shows whatever right?
I don't want them to tell me what I can listen to, watch or see.
I am an adult and a parent. I do know how to make the best decisions for myself and my family.
But.
If they insist on removing indecent things from us, I have a few suggestions as to what they can take away next.

February 26, 2004

They took everything but

Peter gave something to me.
Peter, the owner, sent me this New Morning Basket as a thank you for promoting the site.
I got it today.
Very cute. Love the cup! He even put some 'they took everything' emery boards in it for me.
Thanks Peter!

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February 25, 2004

It is raining. It is pouring.

It's thundering and lightening.
Yuk.
Good sleeping weather though.

Why are people linked to very old pages that no longer exist on this blog and hit those old links several times a day?
That stuff has gone buh bye and sits on my hard drive.
I won't be putting any of it back.
Those archives are for just myself now.
Link the new page because whatever it is that you keep looking for, doesn't exist for you anymore.

This is part of a comment I left here.
"We didn't/aren't voting for a religious leader and that is what GW thinks he is. He thinks he is now my president, my father, my doctor and my pastor."
President, I can deal with. My father telling me what to do, nope sorry, I have a dad and even he doesn't tell me what to do. My doctor? George, stay out of my womb. My pastor? No. Keep your religious beliefs to yourself George. What you think of marriage being what is defined under your religion, is your belief. It is not mine, do not speak for me and my beliefs. Come November, you are history.

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February 24, 2004

My day in pictures.

Clickable.

Stinky perfume lady on the bus.

Amish ladies who scooted me off the bench.

Waiting on the bus to arrive.

Blue skies

Hyatt Regency Luxury Apartments.

Who knew that those hot dogs would smell so good.

Almost home.

Happy to be home. Hurting but happy.
Later days.

February 24, 2004

I don't wanna go.

I have to go out a bit later in the morning.
Right around middayish so it's going to be much warmer.
I don't mind the warmth, it is better than cold that is for sure but I don't like having to be out and walking around alone in the heat.
Luckily, the buses go damn near close to where I have to go today.
I sewed my favorite shirt.
It had a hole.
It's my fave shirt so I just keep fixing it.
I will let it completely fall apart beyond repair before I toss it.
That is all I have to say this morning.
Later days.

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February 23, 2004

A few things.

First, I got my check for $13.86 from the Anti-trust CD lawsuit. Yeehaw!!
I got my birthday card from my mom and dad. Thank you, I love you too.
And lastly, as much as I try to avoid political discussions, a vote for Nader is a vote for Bush.
A vote for nader is a vote for Bush.
Do not throw away your vote.
He does this all the fucking time and every time he does, a piece of shit ends up in the white house.
Thank you.

Filed under general.

February 22, 2004

I have done nothing but lay around

in a drug induced stupor all day.
I hate these pills.
I am so dead and useless when I have to take even one.
I have now come out of the coma and am making the boys dinner after having to fend for themselves all day.
Wha? Cereal? Yeah, eat what you can or want. Try not to make a huge mess k?
Bad mommy.
grr.
I hate this.
I will try to catch up with you all later on.
Later days.

Filed under general.

February 22, 2004

I still got nothing.

Had to take a muscle relaxer that sends me for a spin into la-la land so I'm out for a bit.
Have a nice Sunday.

Filed under general.

February 20, 2004

Wow.

Does this not look amazing?
Thanks so much Jenni!
She worked her butt off to make it all look good and work in every browser size.
Do you have any idea how hard that is and most people don't even pay attention to it when redesigning?
If your blog does not compress down to 640x480, you are shutting out a group of people. Sure, it might be a small group of people but if they can't read you because your sidebar overlaps your text, they move on.
How do you check?
Paste this in your browser, javascript:void(window.resizeTo(640,480)) and then click on your site.
If you end up with overlap, you don't render down.
I know, what a pain in the ass huh?
The header does not have to shrink.
It's not the pretty pictures they come to see.
It's your words they come to read.

Ok, It is Friday so that means Free For all.
Here's what you do.
Go to http://www.mysinglemomlife.com/cgi-bin/mt/mt.cgi, my login page, and the user name is notKat, password, guest.
Simple.
Rules are simple too.
No long rants about politics cuz it's just boring for the most part.
Leave a link back or your name so we know who you are.
Oh yeah, choose free for all friday as your category.

Thank you.

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February 19, 2004

Construction Update

Again, it's Jenni, not Kat. Sorry. :) Just a quick update: This blog is 95% finished. I'd like to add extended entries for you, sweetie, along with some other scripts here and there. How's tomorrow sound for that? I'm soooo tired.

Other that that, you're set. The category and individual archives are finished. Provided your folks can view everything okay, we're done. (I'll add monthlies tomorrow as well if you'd like them.)

** Forgot this part -- I'll adjust the margin widths in just a bit so Kat's folks see everything okay. :) **

February 19, 2004

** Construction Zone **

This isn't Kat, it's Jenni -- excuse any weirdness you might see here on the main page tonight. :) I'm redesigning it and keeping it decent for Kat's parents, who view her site via WebTV. Things might look a little odd until it's straightened out and I like what I see. Everything will be cool by midnight, trust me. :)

(Kat, just delete this post when I'm outta here.)

February 19, 2004

Firstly, I apologize for the sudden and unexplained removal of my site.

I was treated in a very unprofessional manner.
I was a client and should have been treated with the same respect as the more professional clients but I wasn't for whatever reason.
The lack of professional communication is most disturbing regardless of what our personal relationship on the net may be.
You host. I pay. That makes me a client and should be treated as a client when matters of TOS or billing or whatever is pressing upon us.
It should not be displayed on my public blog.
That is why we have email.
I will not be treated that way regardless of what your opinions of a cussing, disabled, single mother may be.
I have a voice.
I will use it.
I don't go on long rants about things much. I generally stick to fluff and stories about my home and family and tv shows. I don't get all righteous and in your face much.
Today, I am.

February 18, 2004

The post that was here is gone for safety reasons.

"It's all set, sweetie. :) Enjoy. Sorry it took all day and night....grrrrr...."
No, thank you friend.
Thanks to you for helping to get this back up and running.

I have a post that I am still not so sure I want to post so I'm gonna sleep on it.
But because of that post and the insanity of some people on the net, I removed a link to the person helping me.
You'll understand later.

I will be back with more to say when I get up.
I may have been down and some stuff got lost but ya know what?
I feel fine.

P.S.
If you feel like being an asshole in my comments over my error page, don't. You will be deleted and banned.
I ain't playing games with some of you anymore.
Grow the fuck up.

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